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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    31 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 98

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    Shane's bottom lip trembles ever so slightly, voice brittle. "I can't breathe."

    Ilya's heart breaks at his plead. No matter how much it hurt when Shane left or when Ilya saw him with Rose, seeing Shane like this, tears in his eyes, voice cracking, none of it seems to matter.

    "Yes, you can." Ilya's words are steady and sure. He slides one of his hands down to Shane's chest, pressing his palm to his sternum. "Focus on me."

    Or: Shane has a couple of panic attacks (tuna melt and Montreal club) and Ilya helps him through them.

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    29 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is on the Ice when an overhead announcement causes him to spiral. The Centaur's Plane has crashed. Shane needs to hear from Ilya now. There is only one person in the world who can pull him back from the brink and Shane doesn't even know if he's alive.

    NO MAJOR CHARACTER DEATHS HERE

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    Shane snapped around “If what? What the fuck did you say?” His voice was wild now, no attempt to conceal his fear or his breaking heart.

    The bewildered other player just said “I just saw the news report, coach had it up on his phone, said someone died in the crash…” he said more but Shane's brain had stopped processing anymore information beyond the fact someone had died.

    In fact it wasn't just his brain that had stopped, his limbs went numb, he sucked in a sharp breath and his heart was trying to claw it’s way out of his chest. Ilya might actually be dead; this wasn’t just Shane being Shane this was real. Way to fucking real. He was vaguely aware of the feeling of the cold ice against the side of his head. Shane had dropped down onto the ice. He hadn't passed out, he hadn't tripped, he's body simply gave out from the shock.

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    29 May 2026

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    In a world where they've seemingly tried every kink under the sun, one thing Shane and Ilya haven't explored yet is inviting others into their bedroom to join them.

    Thankfully for them, they have two excellent—and extremely hot—gay friends who just might be into the idea.

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    26 May 2026

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    Twelve hours, Shane reminds himself. Twelve hours, and then he can come home and sleep for as long as he needs with nobody to disturb him.

    He can do this.

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    Or, Shane gets sick and thinks he can hide it. Ilya sees right through him.

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    22 May 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 45

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    It’s Shane’s birthday, and Ilya decides to enlist the help of some friends to make one of his husband’s fantasies come true.

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    14 May 2026

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    “Hollander, you’re hot,” he says, blinking.

    “You’re not so bad yourself,” he replies, chasing his lips.

    When they kiss, Ilya feels the temperature of his mouth against his, the heat of his breath, how wet his forehead is. He pulls back, frowning.

    “No, you’re too hot. Sick.”

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    12 May 2026

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    The Ottawa Centaurs love and respect their married teammates. But if the team has to hear them fuck nasty one more time they will riot.

    Can Shane and Ilya keep it down while getting down? The answer won't surprise you.

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    09 May 2026

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    Scott texts Kip that he’s bringing Shane back to the apartment. “Hey, I kind of have a big favor to ask you and I need you to be supportive about it.”
    Kip replies almost immediately, “That sounds ominous, is everything okay?”
    “I don’t know,” Scott decides to be honest, “You know how I’m shooting that commercial with Shane Hollander today?”
    “Yes…” He can practically feel Kip’s anxiety leaking into that one text.
    “Well, I think something happened to him. Something bad. I’m bringing him back to the apartment.”

    -

    Shane and Scott are supposed to be doing a commercial together but Scott notices that Shane’s acting… off. He finds out what happened in Vegas and forces Ilya to fix it.

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    08 May 2026

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    It's the "We didn't even kiss" scene that's all you need to know. The first few hundred words cover scenes we’ve seen (the awards show, the bathroom) and then diverge.
    (og title was Teach Me How to Love.)

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    07 May 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 45

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    Ilya wasn’t sure when it all started.

    He just knew that one morning, when the sky was still dark and scary, lying next to his boyfriend, that something was off. His breath hitched, eyes darting across all corners of the room, the way his fingers tingled. His mind was racing—and in first place, at that—but not even close to crossing the finish line.

    Ilya’s brain felt soft. Mushy. Fuzzy. What’s the word, TV static? Yeah, like that.

    He couldn’t understand what he was thinking, or even why he was feeling this way. He cocked his head in Shane’s direction, watching him carefully sprawled across the bed. His boyfriend’s arm was draped off the bed, fingers slightly curled. Ilya’s eyes moved up to his face---his eyes shut, his face slack with sleep, his chest rising and falling in a steady rhythm. Ilya realized that he was forgetting to breathe and sucked a sizeable amount of oxygen in. But when it came out, it was staggered, fast, and suffocating.

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    Ilya thinks he's having a heart attack. Shane proves him wrong.

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    07 May 2026

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    We could talk about what the fuck Shane sees in you.

    Ilya is still thinking about it hours later. In Shane’s dark bedroom, with the man in question snoring softly beside him, Ilya can’t let Hayden’s comment at dinner go.

    In the moment, he didn’t process the jab as anything more than an excuse to take a cheap shot right back at Hayden. But now that the dust has settled on his first official conversation with Shane’s best friend, Ilya can’t forget the snide remark.

    It’s not the first time someone questioned why someone like Ilya would be like someone with Shane. The first time anyone ever saw them as a couple, Shane’s dad made a comment about Shane being unable to find any ‘nice boys in Montreal’. Sure, they were still reeling from the shock of Ilya being more than a hockey player that runs his mouth more than not, but Ilya understands the implication. He is not a ‘nice boy’, not the kind of man that Shane deserves.

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    07 May 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 55

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    "One second, Ilya was soaring across the ice, misdirecting the Montreal player that was on his tail, and the next he was knocked off his skates, falling face first into the ice. There was a sickening crack as his helmet slammed against the ice and he saw stars, blinding pain flashing across his forehead and down the bridge of his nose."

    Hollanov hurt/comfort one shot! Ilya gets laid out during a game against Montreal, and Shane shows up at his apartment to take care of him. Very fluffy.

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    07 May 2026

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    Shane’s almost got it. The puck is right there.

    But so is Ilya.

    The way Shane crashes them both into the boards reverberates like thunder.

    Shane's got some disgustingly romantic plans for their first Valentine's Day as boyfriends, but when do things ever go to plan?

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    07 May 2026

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    The touch is gentle and the cream is soothing but that doesn't stop the soft yelp that escapes Shane's lips at the touch. It isn't dissimilar to any other bruise he's gotten in his life, especially playing such a high velocity, full contact sport for a living. Except, those bruises were always angry and gnarled and put there in bouts of aggression and violence.

    The bruises under Ilya's wide, warm palms were put there with love and devotion, with whispered words of degradation chased with the candied edge of praise. Each gently throbbing bruise and slightly raised welt decorating his skin this morning were honeyed kisses placed with perfect precision by the man who Shane has devoted himself to – mind, body, and soul.

    Or, Shane experiences subdrop at an in opportune time and Ilya helps him.

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    07 May 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 90

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    Because if Ilya didn’t walk out of there, if he didn’t step onto the fucking sidewalk, then Shane Hollander would never touch a hockey stick again. If he didn’t defy the goddamn odds and crawl out of that goddamn building and come straight to Shane and apologize for scaring the life out of him, then the Shane Hollander that the world knew and loved would cease to exist. He would die here in this disgusting pile of rubble, in the exact same spot they would find Ilya’s body in and nobody would know why. Nobody would know anything because Shane wanted to be a hockey player first instead of the love of Ilya’s life.

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    07 May 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 40

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    “I am sad.” Ilya says shortly. “Very sad.”

    “Where do you feel it in your body?” Shane tries to help.

    “Feel what? The sadness?” Ilya looks at him like he’s gone insane.

    “Yes, the emotion.” Shane starts to feel unsure, “In your body where do you feel it?”

    Shane thinks of all the times he’s worried about Ilya; how that worry lives in his throat and in the tension of his shoulders.

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    07 May 2026

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    ✅ freak4freak hollanov
    ✅ heavy kink with tons of consent
    ✅ good bdsm practices
    ✅ extremely, embarrassingly in love
    ✅ autistic shane representation

    welcome to penalties, baby

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    03 May 2026

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    Ilya Rosanov didn’t belong in the hospital. He didn’t belong face down on the ice covered in blood.

    He belonged with Shane, in their home, with their dog; breathing and upright and without brain damage from taking the blade of a professional hockey player to the sensitive veins in his forehead. Shane had been to enough trainings to know that getting rattled against the board during a game was a whole other ballgame in comparison to getting a blade to his head.

    Even with the helmet, there had still been so much blood - Shane couldn’t wrap his mind around it.

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    01 May 2026

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    A video of Shane sucking Ilya’s dick is leaked. Over the next twenty-four hours, Ilya goes on an odyssey.

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    1/1
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    60,797
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    680,850

    29 Apr 2026

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