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2009 Brian Molko wakes up in his old apartment, meeting himself back in 1996. He always did have a thing for people that look like him.
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“How do you always know what I’m thinking?”
“You’re easy to read, Edwin Paine,” he darts out a tongue to lap at the blood on his split lip and grins like he’s proven a point when Edwin follows the motion with interest. “You wear your heart on your sleeve, no matter how much you try not to.”
“I think,” Edwin tries, but the hand around his neck is tight. He closes his eyes, because he likes it and because he really shouldn’t. “I think you look too closely.”
“At you? Always.”
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Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
31 Aug 2025
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Edwin's letters are sent without his permission, giving him and Thomas the second chance they needed to stop being afraid of each other. Beautiful, gentle, visceral at points.
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Wunderkammer, noun. Translated from the German as wonder room and more commonly known in English as a cabinet of curiosities.
HELP WANTED: Maintenance Worker (late hours)
Seeking a person of steady disposition and keen intellect. Generous compensation. Room and board available upon request. Not suitable for those possessed of a delicate constitution or nervous temperament. Mechanical aptitude a must, fast runners strongly preferred. Priority will be afforded to candidates with no dependents or other living relatives. Applicants may report to Mr. Edwin Payne, acting head curator and recondite warder of the London Athenaeum.
Office hours: 11:30pm – 5:30am, Mondays only.It’s the weirdest bloody job interview Charles has ever done.
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- Part 1 of Wunderkammer
Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
13 Aug 2025
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The cabinet of curiosities of my dreams. An eerie story of a place full of magic. Amazing storytelling and beautiful art.
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heartbreak is one thing, my ego's another by artemisadore
Fandoms: Dead Boy Detectives (TV)
06 Jun 2025
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“What in the world do you think you're doing?” Edwin asks, hands on his hips in the way Crystal says makes him look like a ‘cunty British Karen.’
This startles the man into dropping the shard of glass onto the pavement with a clink. “Fuck! Can't a guy trash his fucking ex's car ‘n peace?”
Edwin, for some reason, is startled by the man's appearance. The first thing he sees are black-lined eyes the color of honey, the golden hue almost glowing in the streetlight. Edwin’s love of mysteries, unfortunately for him, is only rivaled by his love of pretty boys. And while his plan to confront the vulgar vandal was not exactly fool-proof from the start, Edwin realizes he has severely miscalculated how the rest of this interaction would go, because the vandal is fucking gorgeous.
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Edwin is a grad student who is sick of his friends trying to help him get over his crush on Charles by setting him up on dates. Thomas is hellbent on destroying his cheating ex's car right outside Edwin's window. And Edwin is having none of it...until he learns that Thomas' ex is actually Simon, his first-boyfriend-turned-bully.
Edwin needs a fake boyfriend. Thomas needs an alibi. What could possibly go wrong?
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- Part 1 of please please please
Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
10 Aug 2025
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The beauty of vulnerability. The Catwin fic I never knew I wanted: troubled pasts, explosive beginnings and a slow and deep emotional journey courtesy of Thomas trashing his (and Edwin's) ex's car.
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Even Charles can appreciate the subtleties of the choreography: Fire is boisterous, with great, choppy gestures, Water is in a blue outfit and flows gracefully, Earth stays close to the ground, with sure, stompy movements. It's Air, though, that captivates Charles’s attention: the boy is tall and graceful and pale, and seems to float, his feet barely touching the ground, showcasing astonishing feats of skill and athleticism. He spins and jumps so high, it seems as if he has wings.
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Charles has an epiphany during his sister's end of term performance, falling head over heels for ballet dancer Edwin.- Language:
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Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
23 Jul 2025
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Punk boy Charles sees ballet dancer Edwin perform and it stirs new feelings in him. Delicious angst, delicious smut and allllll the feels ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
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Isabel calls to tell them Eddie's been shot on a Thursday afternoon and by lunch on Friday Helena and Ramon are landing at LAX. When they land, they learn Eddie's already home recovering and has been for two weeks.
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Or, Helena (and Ramon) tries to find a way back into Eddie's life and doesn't know what to make of finding Buck around every corner she turns.
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Before he was legally allowed to drink, Eddie looked out the passenger side window of his dad’s truck, and in the dusty, barren nothing of the Texan landscape, he saw his entire life written out for him in someone else’s handwriting.
Eleven years later, walking out of an emergency meeting at Christopher’s school over his son’s recent “behaviour”, Eddie thinks of the view out of his dad’s truck.
And when Buck asks, “So? What happened?”
Eddie lies.
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Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
07 Apr 2025
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A gentle story about coming out of yourself, letting go of your upbringing and accepting joy.
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if i need to rearrange my particles — i will for you. by dylaesthetics
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
17 Mar 2024
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“What’s this?” asks Buck, picking up a pamphlet from the loft’s kitchen counter.
“I’m pretty sure you can read, Buck,” answers Chim, popping his gum. Usually, Buck wouldn’t be irritated by that, but Chim’s the interim captain due to Bobby’s cruise, and everything gets on his nerves.
“I can read,” Buck huffs. “I’m just confused. How does this work?”
He looks down at the pamphlet again. The deep red letters that say, are you a first responder looking for a buddy who understands your woes? — Fireapp’s got you covered!
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OR Buck joins a support app for first responders and matches with a firefighter who has PTSD and a kid who likes giraffes, apparently.
— NOW WITH AN ADDED EPILOGUE —
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Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
19 Mar 2025
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An anonymous support chat doesn't stay anonymous. Angst and fluff.
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“You think we should have sex?” Eddie clarified — still in that slow, deliberate tone, like any sudden movement would cause the ceiling to cave in around them.
Buck rolled his eyes. “I mean…not for real.”
“Okay. So you think we should have fake sex."
“Yeah, like reading Our Bodies, Ourselves isn’t the same as watching porn, right? It’d be educational sex.”
“Well if it’s educational sex...”
Or: Buck learns that Eddie's never had a prostate orgasm. Clipboard sex ensues.
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13 Mar 2025
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Buck discovers Eddie never had a prostate orgasm. Hilarity ensues. Seriously one of the funniest things I've read.
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Eddie's new neighbors are keeping him up all night. He calls on his best friend for a little taste of their own medicine.
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12 Mar 2025
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Buddie find a silly reason to get hot and heavy and get more than they bargained for. ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
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Nick clears his throat and wipes his hands on a napkin. “So Charlie, tell me about yourself.”
“Oh god!” Charlie giggles. “Anything but that fucking question!”
Nick joins him in his laughter. “A truly terrible question, on both dates and job interviews,” he chuckles. “I’ll try to do better. What do you do for work?”
Charlie swallows his food, feeling his heart rate immediately increase. If Nick is going to be an ass about this, he’d rather find out sooner than later. Might as well put all his cards on the table.
“I’m a sex worker,” Charlie replies.
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Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
30 Nov 2024
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A beautiful tale of opening your heart and your mind. Blew my mind and changed it about so many things.
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i don't know man, i can't even understand my own complexities, don't ask me to accurately perceive anyone else's.
-david nelson
-(or me, technically)i really don't know where this came from, i just became fixated on that line of dialogue in s2 where david is being an arse and seems to blame nick for having pictures with charlie hanging on his bedroom wall. it seemed pivotal (it probably wasn't) and i ran with it.
straight into philosophical crack, whoo, new genre!
see end note for explanation of what on earth the title means.
Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
31 Aug 2024
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A beautiful reflection about choices and writing. Like they wrote a fic out of my favourite NWB line. Another one to the David as a compelling character arsenal.
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Willing and Eager by Skasi6
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV), True Blood (TV)
04 Jul 2024
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Fraternal by KitSaidOui for isto4u, KareliasKiss, henry_amargosa, Hopeless80sromantic
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
17 Jul 2023
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Charlie and Olly Spring are fraternal twins that grow up in the suburbs of Colorado, recent graduates of a private Catholic school. Oliver is a swimmer, confident and ready to take on university; his brother on the other hand is still reeling from bullying and is not quite so ready. Naturally, this means they both end up as Buffalos, rooming together freshman year at the University of Colorado Boulder.
Enter Nick Nelson.
Who Olly sees first, just to set the record straight.
There are less self-assured layers beneath Oliver though, under the confident veneer, and strength in his brother he doesn't know exists.
All it takes is a Nelson (or two) to show him that.
Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
30 Jun 2024
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Olly and Charlie as twins. Nick and David aren't. Longing, secret relationships, brotherly rivalry. Beautifully written.
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the age difference doesn't matter (it never did) by shootingforthestars
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
11 Feb 2024
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this is mostly oatsie and siska's fault for coming up with an irresistible prompt. with a marginally lesser amount of blame ascribed to kaz and henry for creating such incredible stories and worlds that the spin-offs literally write themselves, as we've all seen time and again.
the fic is for the "outrageous declaration of love" challenge.
the characters are stolen from henry_amargosa's Love Bites and kareliaskiss' Vinaigrette.*
the plot is my same old tired obsession with time and crack.
the final judgement is yours alone.*(excuse the lack of links but--old and technologically challenged. yes i know there's a place to link below if this work was inspired by another, but can you link TWO?)
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- English
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Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
15 Feb 2024
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How to turn angst into wholesomeness in 1500 words (+/-)
David finding love in himself for himself 😭🩷🩷😍
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Oliver Spring is having fun making money in an unconventional way while he is in uni. What happens when his path crosses with an attractive older man?
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- Part 2 of Valentine's Day Plot Bunnies
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After the death of a close friend, Olly is encouraged to see a counsellor to prevent a spiral.
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Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
29 Jan 2024
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Finding love, finding worth, letting go. This story is everything.
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An Absurdism AU - for my otter partners in crime Isto4u and Hope
This story picks up after chapter 14 of Absurdism. After breaking up and spending a couple of painful weeks apart, Olly and David accept invitations to attend Nick and Charlie’s post-honeymoon slideshow party.
It might help to recap by reading chapters 12, 13 and 14 of Absurdism. But surely if you're reading this then you're already familiar 💔
**Update July 2024: with the news that on-screen Oliver is coming in season 3, I have removed the Heartstopper TV tag. I promise there will be more Vinaigrette soon...
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- Part 5 of Absurdism Series
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When ex-Catholic Charlie Spring begrudgingly agreed to planning a wedding at St. Andrew's church, he didn't expect to work alongside the kind, funny, and impossibly hot Nick Nelson, who just happens to be a newly-ordained priest.
(Inspired loosely by Season 2 of Fleabag)
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Bookmarked by Chaotic_Mesh
27 Dec 2023
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Nick is a priest, Charlie has religious trauma, they make a love lemonade. I loved every second of this, even the angst.
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charlie has a bpd episode.
not beta read!