Cendiar



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    “I want to fuck you before my dick stops working.”

    “You know that’s a possible side effect, right? We don’t know that’s gonna happen.”

    “Mm. If I expect it I will not be disappointed.”

    “If it does, we’ll figure something out. And—“

    “A broken dick is better than a broken brain.”

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    or; ilya takes medication and he can't come like he usually does so they try something new. also emotions and tenderness and love.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    “Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”

    Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.

    Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.

    “I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.

    The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.

    He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.

    (shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

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    14 Jun 2026

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    russianstallion messages hollabackgirl on Grindr for some fun, but then they keep showing up at the same places, conveniently right when Boston and Montreal have a game against each other.

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    Shane and Ilya, unbeknownst to each other, are sexting on Grindr while still being rivals on the ice.

    *SMAU that was previously uploaded to twitter is now on ao3 for ease of reading*

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Teasing: ‘Come on, then, Hollander. Crawl.’
    On all fours, like a dog, like a bitch, Shane obeys. I want to be your pet, he thinks, wildly. I want to be your everything. I am an animal and I am yours. Nuzzle me and fuck me and tell me what to do, I don't care. If I am your dog, Ilya, then train me.

    Featuring some filth and whole lot of feelings, inspired by the phone call with Hayden in S01E06: Shane realises that he is kinkier than he thought. Luckily, Ilya just so happens to match his freak.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    It starts with Ilya’s nails. Or, at least, that’s the first outward sign that Shane picks up on.

    In which Shane supports Ilya as he explores gender expression/gender identity. Set during their first season on the Centaurs together.

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    12 Jun 2026