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  1. Rec *

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    On the 21st November 2023, Sergeant John "Soap" MacTavish was killed in action in the Eurotunnel, 7km off the coast of Folkestone.

    Except the heavily redacted report is all a lie and the emotional scattering of his ashes is all an act.

    This is the story of how he survives, how the 141 fake his death, and how he recovers - with Ghost right by his side.

    A realistic fic about Soap recovering from a traumatic brain injury and discovering which parts of himself are left, and which parts Makarov stole from him. Full of hurt and comfort, angst and humour, this is a slow burn Ghost/Soap getting together fic with a happy ending.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Must read!! Downloaded and goated.

  2. Public Bookmark 96

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    Soap feels a little nervous, always does with a new specimen, especially one who presents a whole helping of the unknown. He glances down again at the manifest in front of him:

    Specimen 22147.
    Species: Unknown
    Appearance: Subject to change
    Height: Varies
    Language: Unknown
    Threat Level: High
    Name: Unknown, assigned name 'Ghost' during retrieval

    Well Ghost, Soap thinks as he stands with the crack of popping joints and faces the doors of the mooring ship, welcome to Knoll.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 6 LETS GOOOO

  3. Rec *

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    There’s a teddy in Soap’s bed; a beaten-up, old brown bear. Well-loved, if the state of the fur is any indication. Ghost lets out a choked laugh, mostly at his own expense. He wishes he was there, suddenly, wishes he was by Johnny’s side as he walked through the doorway and realised that his childhood room was waiting for him like a time capsule. Wishes he got to see the embarrassed scrunch of his face, the way the tips of his ears would flush red.

    Soap has a whole second life, outside of the SAS. He’s got a mother, and a poorly-decorated bedroom, and a bear. All Ghost has is a flat that will be the same it is today as it will be the day he dies, like he was never even here at all.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Compulsory reading for everyone in this fandom.

  4. Public Bookmark 15

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    It had been four months since Soap had last heard or seen Ghost.
    Seventeen weeks of begging and praying that he was still alive and breathing.
    One hundred twenty-one days of living without being alive, of carrying guilt that was eating him alive.

    Soap couldn't remember the last time he had caught some sleep without being woken up by terrors and nightmares. He had lost everything the day Makarov decided to take away the person Soap cared for the most. He lost count of how many times he had wished to be in Ghost's place instead. As he drowned in memories of the past, Soap's illusion of the perfect soldier life was crumbling down right in front of him, being on mandatory leave whilst his team tried everything to track down Ghost's position in the hope of bringing him back alive. No one knew whether he was still alive in captivity or had long since died. Soap felt his team was losing hope.

    But giving up was no option for Soap, because giving up on Ghost meant giving up on what they had and leaving him to die. And dying was no option.
    Little did he know that bringing Ghost home wouldn't mark the end of their nightmare, but only the beginning of its aftermath.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    There's nothing about Ghost to love.

    More machine than man, he's a weapon for his country to use as they see fit. Stripped of his humanity, Ghost has come to accept his way of life, going through the motions because he has to.

    That is, until Soap slowly breaks down Ghost's walls, and makes him realize that maybe there is still hope for him. That his augments don't define the man who suffers within. That he's worthy of love, just like everyone else.

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    22 Feb 2026