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The apartment smelled like recycled air and cheap synth-tobacco. V liked it that way — familiar, uncomplicated. Night City's skyline pressed against the floor-to-ceiling window like a drunk leaning on a bar, neon signs bleeding colour into the low cloud cover: amber, violet, the sickly green of a corpo ad she'd already learned to stop reading.
She was sitting on the edge of the couch in a tank top and cargo pants, elbows on her knees, a half-empty glass of whiskey sweating onto the plasteel coffee table. She hadn't touched it in twenty minutes. The ice had given up entirely. She fiddled with the plastic bottle of omega blockers, having sent Johnny away for a while in order to have true clarity in thought. She intended to think about her meeting that was looming on the Horizon. Johnny knew, however, exactly what she would think about instead.
Takemura.
His name surfaced in her mind the way inconvenient things always did — unbidden, unannounced, with all the subtlety of a sniper round. She pressed her thumb against her temple and exhaled.
The first time she had truly looked at him — not just registered his presence as a threat to be neutralized — he had been sitting on a stool in front of a yakitori stand, eyeing his plate with disgust before his eyes flickered upwards, watching a television above the steaming flat top. He had not spoken for four full minutes. She'd counted. And in that silence there had been something so complete, so self-contained, that she'd felt oddly aware of how much space she usually took up — with her voice, her posture, her constant, combustible energy.
He was not loud. He did not need to be.
She remembered thinking: this man is a wall. Not the cheap plasteel kind that corporate architecture threw up between districts. Something older. Stone. The kind of wall that had survived things being thrown at it for centuries and had simply become denser for the trouble.
She'd hated him for it, a little. She'd respected him for it more.
V reached for the glass finally, took a slow sip, and let the burn sit in her chest. Outside, a MaxTac cruiser swept a searchlight across the building’s upper tier — lazy, routine, looking for someone who wasn't her. Not tonight.
She thought about tomorrow. About Embers. About Hanako Arasaka waiting in that incandescent restaurant above the city like a jewel in a trap. She thought about all the ways it could go wrong, and all the ways it needed to go right, and how the margin between those two things was approximately the width of a knife-edge.
She thought about Takemura, and the fact that she still hadn't decided what she felt about him.
Her eyes moved to an LED clock on the kitchen counter- 2314. She really needed to get some sleep, but the nervous pounding of her heart would never allow it.
A call on the holo interrupted her thoughts. A visitor from downstairs. She immediately accepted the request to enter the elevator, knowing that whomever it was would not be of danger to her.
Takemura strode out of the elevator moments later in a leather overcoat that had cost more than her first car. His posture was immaculate — shoulders squared, hands visible, chin level — with the kind of disciplined stillness that most people only achieved when they were trying very hard to look relaxed. He wasn't trying. This was simply how he stood. He looked at her with those dark, measuring eyes, and said nothing for a moment, as if her allowing him to come up had already provided him with information he was in the process of cataloguing.
"You have not slept."
Not a question.
"Hello to you too. Make yourself at home."
He walked over to her with the economy of motion that characterised everything he did — no wasted movement, no glance around to take in the apartment the way most visitors did, cataloguing belongings and making unconscious judgements. He had already assessed the space. She suspected he had assessed it months ago from a building schematic and filed it under ac*ceptable*.
He stopped in the centre of the room. Didn't sit. She stood from the couch and walked over to the kitchen. Leaned against the kitchen counter, crossing her arms, watching him stand there in her apartment like a katana balanced on its tip — beautiful, precise, and completely capable of cutting through everything in the room.
"You came all the way to Heywood to check if I was sleeping?"
"I came because tomorrow requires clarity. From both of us."
He turned then, slowly, and looked at her with an expression that managed to be both entirely unreadable and somehow perfectly legible. The paradox of him.
"You are afraid."
V shifted on her feet uncomfortably.
"Everyone's afraid of something."
"That is not what I said."
She held his gaze. He didn't blink. She thought distantly that most people, when looked at like that, would have said something to fill the silence. She had learned — slowly, grudgingly — that Takemura's silences were not gaps to be filled. They were part of the conversation. She was still learning to speak that language.
"Fine. Yeah. I'm afraid. Hanako Arasaka, in her gilded tower, with her family's entire security apparatus and every reason in the world to see me as a liability. Sure. I'm afraid. You happy?"
"Fear and stupidity are not the same thing. I would be concerned if you felt nothing."
He moved to the window then — drawn to it the way she'd noticed he was always drawn to high vantage points, to wide sight lines, to any position that gave him information about what was coming. He stood with his hands clasped at the small of his back and looked out at the city through a raindrop laden pane of glass. The neon painted his profile in discontinuous color. Gold. Red. Blue.
V pushed off the counter and poured a second glass, crossing the room to offer it to him. He looked at it for a moment — at the glass, then at her hand holding it, then at her face — with the particular quality of attention he gave to things he was deciding whether to permit himself. He took it.
They stood side by side at the window, a careful distance maintained between them. Not quite arm's length. Less than she expected from him. The city poured its light across both of them equally, indifferent to the fact that neither of them knew what to do with the other.
"Can I ask you something without you going all stone-faced on me?"
He didn’t even glance at her, his eyes still trained on the abyss before him.
"I make no such promises."
"When this is over — when Saburo's murder is proven, when Yorinobu is dealt with — where does that leave us? You go back to Arasaka. I go back to... whatever this is."
She gestured vaguely at the apartment. The naked cat licking itself on a step. The view that was genuinely beautiful if you were willing to overlook what had been burned to create it.
A long pause. Long enough that she thought he might fold the question up and file it somewhere she'd never find it. Then he set his glass down on the window ledge with a careful, considered motion, and said nothing for another moment, looking at the city.
"You ask this as though the answer would change what you do tomorrow."
V shrugged, sipping from her glass before clarifying, "Maybe I just want to know. Maybe I'm tired of operating in the dark with you."
"You are never in the dark. You see things very clearly. It is one of the qualities I find most—" He stopped. Set his jaw. Restarted. "You are perceptive."
She turned her head to look at him. He was still watching the city, his profile carved and still, but there was something different in the line of his shoulders — a tension that was not tactical. She had catalogued his body language the way any survivor catalogued threats, and this particular tension was new. Or not new. Newly visible.
"You were going to say something else."
"I said what I meant."
"Goro."
His name. Just his name, in her voice, in the quiet of her apartment. She watched something move across his face — quick and controlled, like a fault line catching itself before it became a quake — and then he did look at her. Fully. Without the filter he usually kept deployed.
Up close, his eyes were darker than she remembered them being in daylight. He was close enough that she could see the slight asymmetry of his jaw, the faint trace of an old scar beneath his left ear. He smelled like a cold night and expensive fabric and something underneath that was just him — warm and mineral, like stone that had held the sun.
Neither of them moved.
"You should not use my given name like that."
V’s heart dropped a few inches, slightly hurt by his tone and the possibility that they may not be as friendly as she believed.
"Why not?"
"Because it makes it considerably more difficult to maintain my position."
The admission fell between them like a stone into still water. He seemed aware of this. His expression didn't change — that iron composure held — but something behind it had shifted, like a light source moving in a room with no windows.
"...What position is that, exactly?"
He was quiet for a long moment, picking up the glass from the windowsill and taking a drink. When he spoke, it was measured and deliberate, each word placed with the care of a man who had not said these words before and was not entirely sure they were going to survive the landing.
"The position that what I feel is irrelevant. That I came here for operational reasons. That you are an asset in a mission that supersedes personal considerations of any kind." A pause. His gaze didn't waver. "I have held that position for some time. It becomes less tenable the longer I am in the same room as you."
V exhaled slowly. She turned to face the window again, because looking at him directly while processing this felt like staring into a welder's torch — illuminating, and a little dangerous. "You could have led with that."
"I could not have. And you know that."
She did know that. That was the thing about him — she always knew. Knew that his formality was not coldness but armour, and that he wore armour the way some people wore skin, because at some point in his life the distinction had become academic. Knew that the way he watched her sometimes — from across the center console of a dilapidated yellow van, across the barrel of a plan going sideways — was not tactical assessment alone. Had known it for weeks and not let herself look at it directly.
Tomorrow was Embers. Hanako Arasaka. The pivot point everything balanced on. She should be sleeping. She should be running threat matrices and reviewing floor plans and not standing at her apartment window with her heart doing something inconvenient in her chest.
"You're not an easy person to—" She stopped. "I didn't expect to give a damn about what happened to you. When we started this. I want you to know that."
His eyes finally flickered to her, and her anxiety prevented her from meeting him. "And now?"
"And now I think about you making it out of this in one piece approximately as often as I think about myself making it out. Which is saying something, given my situation."
The chip. The countdown she didn't discuss with people, because discussing it made it real in a way that made functioning difficult. She had discussed it with him. He had listened with that focused, unyielding attention he brought to everything, and had not offered her false comfort, and had not looked away. She had respected him for it then. She respected him more for it now.
He turned toward her. Not the small head-angling he did when processing information — fully turned, body and all, facing her in the narrow warm light of the apartment. There were approximately forty centimetres between them. She was acutely aware of every one of them.
"I have served Arasaka for the entirety of my adult life. I have subordinated every personal consideration to duty. I was trained to do this. I believed in it." A beat. Something crossed his face that she had no name for — not regret exactly, not grief exactly. "I did not anticipate you."
She finally met his gaze, a small smirk forming on her lips. "Nobody anticipates me. It's kind of my thing."
The corner of his mouth moved. That fractional almost-smile that she had come to understand was, from him, the equivalent of laughter. "I find that I think of your safety before the mission's objectives. I find that I notice when you are tired before you say so. I find—" He stopped. His jaw tightened, the way it did when he was choosing words with surgical precision. "I find that when this is over… I do not wish to simply walk away. That is what I came here to say."
Silence. Real silence, the kind Night City almost never permitted. Even the sprawl outside seemed to hold its breath, the usual wail of sirens and bass-thud of distant clubs dropping to a low, indifferent hum.
V looked at him for a long time, taking a piece of knowledge from his playbook about silence. At the rigid perfection of his posture, which had cost him something to maintain just now. At the darkness of his eyes, which were not quite as controlled as the rest of him. At the way he was waiting — not impatiently— but waiting nonetheless, which for Goro Takemura was itself a form of exposure.
She reached out and set her hand over his — the one resting at his side, not quite a fist. His hand stilled completely. He looked down at hers, then back at her face, and did not pull away.
"Then don't."
"...I beg your pardon?"
"Walk away. After. When this is done and we're both still breathing — don't."
He looked at her hand on his. Then at her face. The city light moved across his features in slow pulses — amber, blue, gold — and his expression did something she had never seen it do before: it opened, just slightly, like a door on well-oiled hinges. Controlled. Deliberate. But open.
"That would require both of us to survive this."
"Then I guess we better."
He turned his hand over beneath hers — slowly, deliberately — and his fingers closed around hers. Not a caress. A decision. The same certainty he brought to everything, applied now to this.
She closed the distance.
It was not impulsive—nothing between them had ever been impulsive. They were too similar in that way, too careful, too used to assessing before committing. She moved toward him by degrees and gave him every opportunity to step back, and he did not. He went very still in the way he went still before something significant happened—that complete, weaponized attention narrowing entirely onto her—and then her hand was against his jaw and she kissed him.
He went still for one breath. Just one. And then he kissed her back with a sudden, controlled ferocity that stole the air from her lungs. His hand came up to the back of her neck, fingers threading into her hair, gripping hard enough to tilt her head exactly where he wanted it. The kiss turned rough, almost bruising—months of restraint snapping like a taut wire.
He backed her against the window with a low sound in his throat, the cool glass at her back a sharp contrast to the heat of his body pressing forward. One large hand slid down her side, possessive and demanding, bunching the fabric of her tank top as he yanked it upward.
V gasped into his mouth, nails digging into his shoulders through the expensive coat. She shoved the heavy leather off him, impatient, and he let her, shrugging it aside with a sharp roll of his shoulders before his hands were on her again—lifting her, turning, carrying her the few strides to the couch with that same decisive economy of motion. He dropped her onto it none too gently and followed, covering her body with his. Clothes were shed in a frantic, uncoordinated rush: her cargo pants shoved down and kicked away, his shirt half-unbuttoned and then torn open when the last button resisted. Skin met skin, hot and urgent.
He was rough at first—teeth at her throat, hands gripping her hips hard enough to leave marks as he thrust into her in one deep, relentless stroke. V cried out, back arching, legs locking around him. The pace he set was punishing, driven by all the words they had never said, all the almost-touches and loaded silences. Every thrust pushed a sharp, needy sound from her throat.
He fucked her like a man who had been holding himself back for far too long, like the disciplined wall of a person finally cracking under pressure. She met him thrust for thrust, nails raking down his back, biting his shoulder when the intensity bordered on too much.
Then something shifted.
The rhythm slowed, not from exhaustion but from intention. His movements became deeper, more deliberate. He braced himself on one forearm, the other hand cupping her face, thumb brushing her cheek with startling tenderness as he looked down at her. The dark intensity in his eyes had changed—still fierce, but now layered with something raw and unguarded. He kissed her again, slower, savoring, tongue stroking against hers in time with the roll of his hips.
Every thrust now carried weight, a claiming that felt like devotion. He murmured her name—her real name—against her lips, low and reverent, like a prayer he had never allowed himself before.
V’s hands softened on his back, sliding up to cradle his neck, fingers threading through his hair. The roughness gave way to something achingly passionate and loving. He moved inside her like he was memorizing her, like every slow glide was a promise. She whispered his name in return—“Goro”—and felt him shudder.
Their bodies moved together in perfect sync, sweat-slick and trembling. He buried his face in the curve of her neck, lips brushing her pulse as the pleasure built again, tighter and deeper this time.
When he came, it was with a low, broken groan against her skin, hips pressing deep as he spilled inside her in long, pulsing waves. He held her through it, one hand tangled in her hair, the other gripping her thigh, keeping her locked against him as if letting even an inch of space between them was unthinkable. She followed moments later, clenching around him, the release crashing through her in warm, shuddering waves while he stayed buried deep, grounding her.
They stayed like that for a long time afterward, breathing each other in, his weight a solid, welcome anchor above her
She would think that it was exactly like him: patient in a way that undid her, attentive in a way that left no room for anything except the present moment, the warmth of him, the solid reality of his hands and his voice low against her skin saying her name — not *V*, the callsign, the mercenary, the asset — but her name, the real one, like he'd been saving it.
The city went on outside, indifferent and blazing. Neither of them noticed.
Later — much later, when the city's neon had softened toward the particular bruised quality it took on in the hours before the recycled dawn — V lay in the narrow dark of her bedroom and listened to him breathe.
He was asleep. She was almost certain of this, because Goro Takemura asleep was the only version of him she had ever seen that was entirely without armor — his face settled into something younger, the perpetual readiness gone from his body, one hand resting open on the pillow between them as if he had put something down he had been holding for a very long time.
She studied him in the low ambient light that seeped under the blinds. The clean architecture of his jaw. The old scar she'd noticed earlier, beneath his left ear, and a newer one at his shoulder she hadn't known about before tonight. Evidence of a life spent on the edge of things. A life that had not been kind to him, that he had met with that characteristic unflinching discipline and given nothing back but excellence, and that had still — in the end — taken nearly everything.
She thought about a garden in Kyoto. Maples. A stone basin filling slowly with rain.
She thought about Embers, and Hanako, and the hours between now and then — and she tried to make herself stop, because there were some thoughts that had no business in this particular dark. But the chip had its own gravity, and her mind kept sliding back toward it: the timeline, the narrowing window, everything that could go wrong.
Her shoulders tightened without her meaning them to. Her jaw followed. The old, familiar mechanism of dread doing its quiet work while the rest of her tried to lie still and not disturb him.
She was not as quiet as she thought.
The shift was subtle — his breathing didn't change, not at first — but she felt the quality of his stillness alter beside her. The particular stillness of someone who had been trained to come awake completely and give nothing away while doing it.
"You are thinking about tomorrow."
Not a question. Low and unhurried, his voice in the dark carrying none of the edge it had in the field — softer, roughened slightly by sleep, and somehow more him for it.
"Sorry. Didn't mean to wake you."
"I sleep lightly. It is not your fault."
A pause. She felt him shift behind her — and then his hand moved to her shoulder, finding the tension there with the same unerring accuracy he brought to everything, and she went very still.
He worked slowly. No urgency, no performance — just his thumb tracing a slow, firm arc along the base of her neck, reading the knots there the way a man reads a map of somewhere he intends to know well. She exhaled without meaning to. He continued, unhurried, moving down the line of her shoulder, pressing with careful, deliberate weight at the points where the tension had gathered and hardened. His hands were warmer than she would have expected. Steadier.
"You don't have to—"
"I am aware."
She closed her mouth. He continued. She felt the tension in her shoulders begin, reluctantly, to release — layer by layer, like something slowly being persuaded rather than forced. She hadn't realised how much she'd been carrying in her body until she felt it start to leave.
"You carry it here," he said quietly, his thumb finding a point between her shoulder blade and spine that made her breath hitch. "Every time. I have noticed."
"You've been paying attention to my shoulders."
"I pay attention to everything about you. This should not be surprising."
It wasn't. And somehow that was the thing that finally loosened the last of it — not the hands, though the hands were extraordinary — but the plainness of that admission in the dark. The matter-of-fact certainty of it. *I pay attention to everything about you.* Said the way he said all true things: without decoration, without softening, as simple and absolute as a law of physics.
She felt her eyes grow heavy.
"Goro."
”Mm”
"We're going to be okay tomorrow."
A beat. His hand stilled for just a moment, then resumed its slow, steadying work.
"Yes," he said. Quiet. Certain. The voice of a man who had decided. "We are."
She didn't know if either of them believed it entirely. But she believed that he meant it — that he had looked at tomorrow with clear eyes and chosen to say it anyway, because she needed to hear it and he did not say things he did not intend to stand behind.
That was enough. It was more than enough.
His hand moved in long, slow passes now — less specific, more like the tide, rhythmic and unhurried — and she felt herself sinking, the hard edges of the night going soft around her, Embers and Hanako and the chip all receding to a distance she could no longer quite measure.
Tomorrow would come with its weight. Tomorrow, they would be soldiers again.
Tonight, she let herself be taken care of. She could not remember the last time she had allowed that. She found, in the warm dark with his hand moving slow across her back and his breathing evening out behind her, that it was easier than she had expected.
She was asleep before she finished the thought. She dreamed of maple leaves and rain and a future she did not yet know if she was allowed to want — and she wanted it anyway, with the particular ferocity of someone who had learned that wanting things was the only honest thing left.