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Being close to Jeongin was heavenly.
When Jeongin pressed him into the mattress, started peppering his face in featherlight kisses, along the seam of Seungmins closed mouth because "It's just so beautiful" worshipping it with every peck because he knew exactly that's what Seungmin was the most self concious about and right on top of his cheeks tickling his long eyelashes with his nose.
They would lay like this for hours just basking in eachothers company, legs tangled together impossibly tight and their mouths moving slowly, almost lazily without any finesse or structure.
It was like nothing else in this world existed but them. All the overbearing noise that always surrounded them shut out completely by the sound of the others breathing, their heartbeat, the sound of their lips colliding and their tongues sliding against eachother.
Kissing Jeongin was easy.
It was warm and comforting and sometimes a little wet.
Most of the time the wetness came from their shared saliva, but sometimes it was tears.
When it happened the first time Seungmin had panicked, apologising profusely with blotchy cheeks and flying hands to cover his reddening face.
Being someone who always swallowed everything and pushed unpleasant thoughts back down into the depths of their cage, something just snapped when he let his guard down completely, unleashing every emotion burried within at the same time in an overwhelming storm.
Jeongin had laid a hand on the small of his back, tracing soothing circles into his skin with his long fingers and the other in his hair caressing the soft multi coloured strands while whispering comforting words into his ear.
It was okay.
Even though Seungmin had felt stupid for his emotional outburst at first, Jeongin had showed him that it was okay.
Encouraged even. If it helped Seungmin process and let out all the underlying stress and emotions he had never actually faced then this was a good thing, right?
With Jeongin Seungmin was able to feel completely safe, let himself fall into his arms, his mouth, and open himself up in a way he had never been able to before. Never even thought was possible.
Loving Jeongin was freedom.
Since the day they met it felt like the blood that had always rushed through Seungmins veins had been switched out and now it was pure sunlight flooding him, coursing through every fiber of his body, stretching throughout his limbs and into the tips of his fingers.
Seungmin knew Jeongin felt it too. They didn't need words in their shared safe space to understand eachother.
Sliding his palms over the youngers back half massaging half caressing he felt him shiver underneath his touch.
Seungmin pressed himself closer, so impossibly close to Jeongin as if he tried to melt them into one and the same being. Maybe he did, he thought dumbly. The urge to crawl underneath Jeongins skin almost overwhelming even though he knew it was stupid, he didn't care.
There was no one else he ever wanted to be this close to ever again. Jeongin was his safe haven, his ancor. Seungmins eyes filled with tears yet again but this time there was no sadness, no all consuming hole in his chest, no unknown dark creature clawing at his insides making his stomach clench and turn.
There was only Seungmin and Jeongin. Together.
"Innie?" Seungmin whispered in between small pecks. "Thank you for existing at the same time as me" And he let himself fall.