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In the far north, far beyond the reach of civilization, the wild tribes of the freefolk, and even the rising darkness in the lands of always winter, a colossal creature rested among the glacial ice of the freezing sea. Her sapphire scales glinted like fractured diamonds in the pale northern light, each one larger than a knight's shield and harder than Valyrian steel. An ice dragon. One of the last of her kind still living on this side of the world.
The bitter wind howled around her, a sound she had grown accustomed to over centuries of solitude. The cold didn't touch her—she was the cold incarnate. Each exhale sent plumes of frost crystallizing in the air, tiny ice particles dancing before settling on her massive form. Many of her kin had left or died off as the magic of the world waned, their ancient power fading like stars at dawn. She was the last, a predator hidden among the glaciers, her heartbeat so slow it might be mistaken for the groaning of ice sheets.
Now, as she shifted her enormous body, sending small avalanches of snow cascading down, she wondered if she too would leave these lands. The sensation of death stirring in the far north prickled at her senses like needles of ice—wrong and unnatural even to her primordial mind. With darkness rising and magic fading, perhaps she too should seek out new frozen realms to inhabit. But would she even survive such a journey? Her kin had each other to sustain themselves, their collective magic reinforcing their ancient bodies. She was alone... so desperately, achingly alone. The thought reverberated through her massive form, a loneliness so profound it seemed to echo in the very ice beneath her claws.
The great beast shifted her massive form, her translucent wings—vast enough to shadow entire villages—folding against her body with a sound like shattering glass. She gazed across the endless white expanse, her pale blue crystal eyes reflecting the barren beauty of her domain. The Shivering Sea stretched before her, a graveyard of broken ships and frozen sailors who had dared venture too far north. Their bodies preserved in perfect, horrified detail, eternal monuments to human folly. None who had glimpsed her lived to tell the tale. Such was the way of things—ice dragons were myths, legends whispered by sailors on dark nights, stories to frighten children, never to be confirmed by the living. And why would I want them to know me? she thought in her ancient way. They would only hunt, only destroy.
Just then she heard it. So far away but unmistakable to her sensitive awareness. The cries of loneliness so like her own, the sadness of a heart left alone with none to care for him. The sensation struck her like a physical blow, resonating through her very being. Family. Ice like hers but... mixed, something new, something impossible yet undeniable. A soul calling to hers across impossible distances.
She raised herself from the ice and snow with a roar that cracked glaciers and sent avalanches tumbling down distant mountains. Her full length—near 300 feet of primal, ice-bound power—uncoiled as her wings unfurled like storm clouds made solid. They covered an area so vast that the ground below was plunged into shadow, her claws digging deep furrows in the ancient ice as she lifted off with a thunderous bellow that was not of rage but of joy—a sound she had not made in centuries. I am coming... please wait. I am coming. The thought wasn't words but pure emotion, a desperate plea sent southward to the kindred spirit she sensed.
The air crackled and shattered around her as she beat her vast wings, leaving the White Waste behind in explosions of snow and ice. Frost formed and fell from her body with each powerful stroke, creating miniature blizzards in her wake. Her pale blue crystal eyes fixed southward, toward a call only she could hear, a loneliness that matched her own across the impossible distance. Something stirred in her ancient heart—hope, perhaps, after centuries of solitude. The feeling was almost painful in its intensity, like ice thawing after an eternal winter.
Jon had run away. Or perhaps "run away" was not the correct words, but he had fled Winterfell, taking a horse and riding away. The weight of his decision pressed down on him with each hoofbeat that carried him farther from the only home he'd ever known. He had to get away from the family. From Catelyn and her cold unloving stares that cut through him like the winter wind, making his skin prickle with shame even when he'd done nothing wrong. From Sansa, tutored by her mother to copy her, calling Jon "half-brother" with that slight pause before the word, as if even that much acknowledgment was a courtesy he didn't deserve. From Robb who, while supportive with his warm smiles and brotherly claps on the shoulder, could not understand the hollow ache of being a bastard while he basked in the certainty of being heir to Winterfell. From Theon with his snide remarks about his bastardy every time he beat him at swordplay, his mocking laughter lingering in Jon's ears long after they'd left the training yard.
All he had was Arya, her fierce gray eyes so like his own, her wild spirit that refused to bow to convention—but she was too young to burden with his troubles, her small shoulders not meant to carry his pain alongside her own. Nor did Catelyn let her be with Jon for long hours, always finding some reason to call her away, her voice honeyed but her eyes hard as flint when they fell upon Jon. And as for Bran, he was just a small boy, his innocent questions about why Jon couldn't sit with them at feasts making Jon's throat tighten with unspoken answers. And as for his father, Eddard... while he offered token comfort, a hand on Jon's shoulder that was both present and somehow distant, he was the same aloof figure he always was, not to mention his dismissive words whenever Jon asked who his mother was. "She was beautiful, and she's gone," he would say, his voice dropping to a whisper that brooked no further questions, leaving Jon with a void where half his identity should be.
So here he was, miles from Winterfell, in some unknown forest, alone, the scent of pine and damp earth filling his nostrils with each breath. The silence wrapped around him like a cloak, both comforting and suffocating. He was wondering if this would be his life until he left Winterfell, perhaps to roam the world alone with nothing but his name—Snow, not Stark—to accompany him, or to go to the Night's Watch and die alone among the black brothers as many before him, gaining "honor" as some said it was, though he wondered if honor was just a pretty word for exile. He sat down along a nearby pool, its surface still as glass, wondering if his father would even care if he disappeared. Perhaps Arya would be sad, her small face crumpling in grief, and maybe Robb, though he would not show it, keeping his sorrow locked behind the mask of the future Lord of Winterfell, and Catelyn would just be glad he never returned, one less reminder of her husband's infidelity finally gone from her sight.
He lowered his head, silent tears falling to the ground with soft plops that seemed thunderous in the quiet forest. The hot wetness on his cheeks made him feel both relief and shame as he wondered if there was truly nobody who would walk with him through his life, no one to share his burdens, no one to see him as more than just the Bastard of Winterfell...
The forest was quiet around him, too quiet perhaps. The absence of sound pressed against his ears like a physical thing. Jon wiped his tears with the back of his hand, the rough wool of his sleeve scraping against his skin, embarrassed even though no one was there to witness his moment of weakness. The pool before him reflected his face—long, solemn, Stark features staring back at him. The gray eyes, the dark hair, the long face. Ned Stark's face, people said, though there was something else there too. Something in the set of his jaw, the curve of his brow. Something he couldn't name that whispered of secrets and shadows.
"Who am I really?" he whispered to his reflection, his voice barely audible even to himself, the words hanging in the still air like frost. "Not a Stark. Never a Stark." His heart clenched painfully in his chest, a dull ache he'd carried for as long as he could remember.
He remembered the feast just two nights before, when Lady Catelyn had caught him teaching Bran how to hold a practice sword in the courtyard. The torchlight had caught the copper in her hair, making it seem ablaze as her eyes—Tully blue and ice cold—had fixed on him. The look in her eyes—pure venom that made his blood run cold.
"He is not your responsibility," she had hissed, her voice low enough that only he could hear, her fingers digging into his arm. "You are not his brother." Each word had been a dagger thrust between his ribs, twisting deeper with each syllable.
Even now, the memory made his chest ache as if the wounds were fresh. He had backed away, mumbling apologies, the wooden sword falling from his numb fingers, while Bran looked on in confusion, his innocent face clouded with questions Jon couldn't answer.
Jon plunged his hand into the water, the cold shock of it a welcome distraction from the pain in his heart. He disrupted his reflection with violent fingers, watching as the ripples spread outward, distorting his face until it was unrecognizable—just a blur of pale skin and dark hair. He'd been riding for hours, deep into the Wolfswood, far beyond where even the hunting parties ventured, the rhythmic sound of hoofbeats and his own ragged breathing his only companions. His horse was tied to a tree nearby, grazing contentedly, unaware of its rider's turmoil, the soft sounds of tearing grass a counterpoint to Jon's racing thoughts.
"I should join the Night's Watch," he muttered to himself, picking up a stone and skipping it across the water, watching the concentric circles it created. "Uncle Benjen says there's honor in it." The stone sank with a final plop, disappearing beneath the dark surface.
But even as he said the words, they felt hollow in his mouth, tasteless as ash. The Night's Watch—a brotherhood of thieves, rapers, and unwanted sons. Was that truly his destiny? To freeze at the edge of the world, watching for wildlings and grumkins that Old Nan spoke of in her tales? To die alone on some frozen wasteland, forgotten by all but his black brothers, who would burn his body and speak empty words over his pyre?
Is that all I'm meant for? he thought bitterly. To be cast aside, unwanted, until I'm finally gone for good?
The wind picked up suddenly, unnaturally cold even for the North, cutting through his cloak like a blade. Jon shivered and pulled his cloak tighter around his shoulders, feeling the rough wool scratch against his neck. The hairs on the back of his neck stood up—a feeling he'd come to trust during hunts, that primal instinct that warned of danger before the mind could comprehend it. Something was wrong. The forest had gone silent, as if holding its breath. No birds sang their evening songs. No insects chirped from the underbrush. Even his horse had stopped grazing and stood rigid, ears pricked forward, nostrils flaring with rapid breaths that plumed white in the suddenly frigid air.
"Easy, boy," Jon called, his voice sounding thin and insignificant in the vast silence. He reached for the dagger at his belt, the familiar weight of it in his hand providing small comfort. He'd brought no sword—a mistake, perhaps, but he hadn't planned to be gone so long or venture so far.
A distant sound reached his ears—like thunder, but sharper, more deliberate. A roar that seemed to echo from the dawn of time itself, reverberating through his bones and making his teeth chatter. Jon's breath caught in his throat, his lungs seizing with a mixture of fear and something else, something he couldn't name. He'd never heard anything like it before, yet it stirred something deep within him, like a memory he'd never known he had.
The horse whinnied in panic, the sound high and terrified, pulling at its tether with such force that the tree bent. Before Jon could reach it, the animal broke free and galloped away, its hoofbeats fading rapidly as it disappeared into the trees, leaving Jon truly alone in the gathering darkness.
"Seven hells," Jon cursed, the words forming a white cloud before his face. His heart hammered against his ribs like a caged bird seeking freedom.
The roar came again, closer this time, shaking the very air around him, and with it a blast of air so cold it seemed to freeze the very marrow in his bones. The cold penetrated his clothes, his skin, reaching deep inside him. Yet strangely, after the initial shock, Jon didn't feel the cold as he normally would. It was as if something inside him recognized and welcomed the chill, as if his blood itself responded to it, warming rather than freezing.
What is happening to me? he wondered, both terrified and exhilarated.
The trees around the clearing began to frost over before his eyes, delicate patterns of ice spreading across bark and leaves like intricate lace. The pool before him started to freeze from the edges inward, crystals forming in beautiful, intricate patterns that crackled and sang as they spread, the sound like whispered secrets in a language he almost understood.
Jon stood frozen in place—not from fear, though there was plenty of that coursing through him, making his heart race and his palms sweat despite the cold—but from awe at what was happening. The sky darkened as something massive blocked out the sun, casting the clearing into deep twilight. The temperature plummeted further, his breath forming thick clouds with each exhale.
Another roar, deafening now, vibrated through the ground and up through his boots, and the ground shook as if the gods themselves had stomped their feet in anger. Trees at the edge of the clearing splintered and fell with thunderous cracks, crushed under an immense weight that Jon could feel approaching even before he saw it.
And then he saw it.
A creature out of legend. A beast that couldn't possibly exist outside of Old Nan's stories told by the hearth on winter nights.
A dragon. But not the fire-breathing monsters of Targaryen lore. This was something older, more primal—a dragon of ice, its scales gleaming like freshly fallen snow in moonlight, its eyes pale blue crystals that seemed to look through him rather than at him.
It's beautiful, was Jon's first thought, even as terror threatened to stop his heart. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.