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Writing music has always come easily to Jisung. He could sit at his desk with his notebook and pen and write for hours. He was always at his best when he was filled with inspiration and motivation to create more music, but sometimes he would hit rock bottom hard after. He would experience burnout, and his brain became his biggest enemy. The trash can next to his desk, along with the area surrounding it, would be covered in crumpled-up paper and, occasionally, tears if he became frustrated with writing.
Whenever he tried writing during his burnouts, it felt like a 9-year-old writing their first song, very, very bad and a mess. Rarely does he get himself out of the burnout; usually, he needs to see something or hear something to get his brain in gear, and a lot of the time it was his favorite anime or maybe a romcom. But it was never a person until it became one. It was late at night when Minho sent him a post about a new and upcoming Model that he had met at a high-end event. He remembered a bit of drool ending up on his phone as he continued to stare at the picture. Jisung didn’t understand how someone this beautiful could exist on this Earth when he could easily pass an angel, or better yet a fairy.
The way some strands of blonde hair flew infront of his face as he smiled brightly with his eyes closed, it felt like the sun coming out of the clouds after a rainy day. It made Jisung want to smile, it made him want to be the reason why this mystery man was smiling to a camera. Even the way his eyes closed cause of how big he was smiling, and Jisung realized that calling him beautiful was too small of a word. After staring at that one picture which felt like hours he did a lot more digging. He found his instagram and as he scrolled through his page he couldn’t stop. It was addicting to see his selfies, his shoots and his life throughout the years and it feltlike that spark came back.
And just like that inspiration came back to him his notebook getting filled with words describing the blonde model, his freckles, his smile, his voice, his hair and even his body. He wouldn’t call it an obsession even though Minho would always give him a concerned look whenever Jisung let him listen to another demo, but can you blame him? He was writing about someone he loved of course his notebook was going to be filled with lyrics about Felix even if it got to the point where he had to get a new lyric notebook but at least the inspiration was back along with a new obsession.
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When Minho told him about a party that was in celebration of Felix and his recent modeling gig Jisung was quick to accept the invite. He was never big on parties unless Minho dragged him along but he could finally see his muse in the flesh and that filled him with excitement and something else. He didn’t know how to describe it, sure Felix was his muse and he didn’t know it but Jisung realized that this could turn into something more. He knew he already formed a connection to Felix in his mind because of the music and how much inspiration the blonde sparks in him, but Jisung needed to see him, to hear him and to talk to him.
He knocked on the door and Minho opened the door with a wide bunny smile, “Hey Jisungie! Come on in!” Minho stepped aside and let Jisung inside the huge apartment that could basically be considered a penthouse with how huge it is.
Lights were bouncing off the ceiling and walls, there was a small makeshift DJ booth with Chan taking control of the music as he bopped his head along with the beats. Couches and tables moved aside to make room for a dance floor which was already filled to the brim with people, the kitchen was also quite busy with people chatting and making drinks. Jisung could smell alcohol, sweat and weed and he even noticed there was an upstairs and couples taking advantage of the darkened parts of the room to make out or out in the open on the couch, immediately noticing that it was Seungmin and Jeongin. Looking around the room as Minho stood next to him.
“If your looking for the love of your life, Felix isn’t hear yet.” Minho leaned in close and shouted in his ear, letting out a cackle as Jisung jumped and looked at him with wide eyes.
“Hyung! You can’t just scare me like that!” His voice was a bit high as he spoke with exasperation when he glared at Minho who was still laughing, gently patting his shoulder as his lips curled into a fake pout.
“Hyung is very sorry Jisungie, now I have to make sure nobody broke anything and bother Channie hyung.” He gave Jisung another pat and disappeared into the crowd leaving Jisung alone at the front door.
He let out a deep breath and fixed his beanie as he made his way to the kitchen to make himself a random drink, lifting the cup to hs lips and taking a sip, his eyes repeatedly going back and forth between the front door and the dance floor as he kept an eye out for Felix. He should say hi to his friends and Chan, also find Changbin and Hyunjin but his mind was on Felix and wanting to see him with his own two eyes. Jisung has been getting into his own head about Felix thinking maybe this man was an hallucination or apart of his dreams, and the filthy dreams but he would love to see Felix with his own hands and even touch him, god he wanted to put his hands on Felix so badly. And at the end of the day it will alway be a want and sometimes wants can turn into something you need, like how you need oxygen to breath and Jisung needs Felix to live.
So, imagine his surprise when he hears Minho’s voice and another deep voice ring out in the kitchen, snapping his head up as his eyes widened when he saw Minho and Felix. And god the cameras and pictures don’t do Lee Felix any justice. His usual long blonde hair seemed longer than normal, probably hair extensions, he had on makeup that made him look like art. His freckles popped out more and Jisung wanted to kiss and touch all of them, his lips were red and pouty and god he wanted to sink his teeth into his bottom lip. And his eyes, god his eyes, it was like the entire universe was in his brown eyes and it made Jisung want to do unimaginable things for him.
Minho gave him a weird look when Jisung just started at Felix with a shock expression, a simple hi wasn’t good enough for Felix but being left speechless was also quite more embarrassing. Also standing there like a fish out of water and his mouth opening and closing repeatedly as he tried to form any certain of sentence to the angel infront of him. Until he felt a smack upside his head and he let out a yelp, glaring at Minho.
“Your such a loser, I know you can say hi.”
Jisung just blinked as he heard a giggle coming from Felix because of the comment, turning his attention back to the man of his dreams.
“I’m so sorry about that, I’m jisung.” His voice was deep and smooth as he spoke, holding out his hand towards Felix.
“No worries! I’m Felix, it’s nice to meet you.”
If Jisung thought his voice was deep, Felix’s voice was unreal. It was very deep and rich, the type of voice you could do unspeakable things to. The type of voice he could write songs about and same with his face, which threw him off for a bit. He certainly wasn’t expecting a deep voice out of such a beautiful face but he definitely wasn’t complaining.
“So, your Minho hyung’s friend? He talks a lot about you!” Felix spoke in a curious tone as he looked at Jisung with an inquisitive gaze, like he wanted to know everything about the handsome infront of him.
“Yeah I am! Have been for years!"
“Cool that’s cool, well it was nice meeting you Jisung! I hope we can meet again!
“Yeah! Totally see you later.” Jisung’s voice softened as he watched Minho and Felix leave, his mind racing with ideas how to get closer to Felix and none of them were good.
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Days turned into weeks as Jisung fell down the rabbit hole known as Lee Felix, but if you want to get specific his full name is Lee Felix Yongbok. He spent the first couple of days getting more information from Minho without trying to look too suspicious, they ended up following eachother on most social media platforms and even exchanged numbers. While he was researching Felix his song writing book has been filmed to the brim with songs about Felix, he finally has his muse and he will ruin the Earth if anyone takes his favorite muse from him.
Over time him and Felix got close, VERY close but not from innocent goals especially on Jisung’s part, thankfully Felix doesn’t know that his new stalker or in Jisung’s words secret admirer is his new bestfriend, sunshine twin if you will. And Jisung wants to keep it that way, at least till he wants to confess his undying love to Felix but first he needs him to realize that no one can love him as well as Jisung can. See, Jisung can give him the world and beyond that. He can give him art in the form of songs, same with his love, he can give him smiles and gifts without spending thousands of dollars. He can make him feel protected by following him and making sure he gets home safe, setting up burner accounts to make Felix believe that his new fling of the season is actually a cheating asshole who doesn’t deserve Felix.
Jisung’s favorite thing to do is leave Felix flowers and cute notes at any new shoots, of course it has Felix on edge cause no one should know about these top secret modeling shoots unless of course it’s Jisung.
See, Jisung has the advantage of being his stalker. He is Felix’s bestfriend, he knows everything. He knows where the spare key is, knows his work, his number. He can always give Felix his love even if he’s unaware of it, even if he’s getting scared but still falling into Jisung’s perfectly placed trap with ease. And with the stalker even breaking into his home, Felix falls into Jisung’s arms and his place and stays with him. And isn’t that just sweet? Almost full circle, sure Felix is staying at his house but he’s not Jisung’s yet which is fine but not really. It’s killing Jisung that Felix hasn’t realized the love of his life is right infront of him. The one person who will always put Felix first even before his family and friends because he loves Felix that much and isn’t afraid to show him.
The night that Felix showed up at his door shaking and almost in tears with a bag packed, Jisung almost felt bad but felt proud that his plan worked. Felix is running to his arms because he knows Jisung can keep him safe even though Jisung is Felix’s worst nightmare, at least for right now but Jisung can make him realize that he is infact Felix’s soulmate and the love of his life even if he is going too far with his obsession, but nothing is more thrilling then letting Felix hug him as he promises o keep him safe and he can stay for as long as he wants. But, it’s as long as Jisung wants. Why would he ever let Felix go after tonight? Especially when he fits in his arms so well?
Jisung hugs him tight as he shushes and coos at him, gently rubbing his back and his fingers through blonde hair as Felix clung onto his arms and cried into his shirt about his stalker and how he even put pictures on his bed of him sleeping at night. Jisung had to fight back a smile, as he rushed Felix into his apartment and shut the door behind them as he locked it, giving Felix a worried look as he sat him on the couch.
“So, this stalker broke into your apartment and left polaroids of you sleeping on your bed?”
Felix nodded his head as he wiped his tears and sniffled quietly.
“Yeah, I don’t even know how he got in. All the doors and windows were still locked, what if he just slips in while I’m at home and I don’t notice? Or what if he is someone I know and knows where the spare key is? I don’t know what to do and I can’t go back to that house Jisung at least not for right now.” Felix’s voice was shaky as he spoke, his knees curled up into his chest as some more tears slid down his cheeks.
Jisung wanted to lick those tears off his face.
“You know your always welcome here Felix, please stay as long as you need. I know you feel more safe here.” His voice was soft as he spoke, his eyebrows furrowed together in concern as he looked at Felix.
“Okay, thank you Jisung.”
“Anything for you Lixie, and I mean anything.”
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And after that night it was like all the pieces started to fit together seamlessly. Felix and Jisung became attached at the hip as Felix continued to stay with Jisung, to Felix it was temporary but to Jisung it was permanent, Felix just didn’t know it yet. With some charm, hugs, touches and praise aka all the ways to make Felix fall in love with him while still keeping up his obsession, was starting to work in Jisung’s favor. He could tell in the way Felix looked at him and touched him, it was fond more than platonic and Jisung couldn’t wait to lock him up forever and throw away the key because Lee Felix will finally be his.
Of course Jisung still kept up the stalking, but he started to amp it up. And everytime he did it just made Felix fall into him more and it made him giddy inside. He was getting so close to the confession, to where they confess their undying love to eachother and live happily ever after because even if he is Felix’s stalker it wasn’t to harm him. It was to love him and show him that love has to be all consuming, it has to be obsessive and a bit twisted but not twisted enough to where it is harmful to Felix. Jisung would rather run into traffic before ever hurting Felix.
So he started to think up the final plan to finally get Felix into his arms for good, and that step was to become officially roommates. Once Felix relized that the stalker supposedly left his house alone he moved back in, only to realize that it was more than just pictures. The stalker started to leave his scent on the sheets, little letters and food in the kitchen, leaving his favorite treats on the counter or his drinks. Leaving his favorite flowers on his bed, to make Felix come up with the idea of moving and finding a new place because it was getting too much.
So one day Jisung brought up the idea of becoming roommates, it would be safer for Felix because the stalker never once sent anything to Jisung’s house and Felix first questioned it but then Jisung helped home realize that the stalker didn’t want to risk sending things to Jisung’s house considering he lives in an apartment and anyone could just walk by and steal it.
Jisung is lying, he lives in a nice apartment with security and nobody on his floor is capable of stealing. But, Felix doesn’t need to know that.
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It was a Friday night, the night that Jisung finally confessed with a few fabricated lies. To Felix he wasn’t the stalker, he was his protector who always made him feel safe and comfortable and even loved. Jisung spent hours making sure this night was perfect, he set up the living room with Felix’s favorite food, desserts and drinks with his favorite movie up and his favorite flowers. Wearing the same cologne that Felix smelt in his old house. The one he never felt safe in because of course he felt safe with the love of his life.
It was the best night of his life, Jisung got the man of his dreams while Felix remained in the dark about the truth of Jisung and his obsession. But, it’s okay because Felix loves him so much it feels like his heart will burst out of his chest. And he will go to sleep tonight and realize that this night is the final night he will ever hear from his stalker, because his stalker sleeps right next to him.
Felix will go to bed and say I love you to Jisung, he’ll let Jisung hold him close to his chest so Felix can sleep with his head buried between his pecks and wonder why his cologne is so familiar but he can’t put his finger on it. And when he asks Jisung in the morning he will just give him his usual gummy smile and say it was from a store they went to before and it’s a common smell against men, it’s nothing special. But, it’s special to Felix. That scent brings him comfort with a hint of fear but he can’t figure out why.
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Time seems to fly by when your in a beautiful relationship, Felix and Jisung have been going strong for about 5 months and they are in love. Some people say they are rushing, Minho being open about his suspicions to Felix but the blonde just brushes them off. Jisung loves him, kept him safe during the situation with the stalker. Jisung will frown of course and tell Felix that Minho is just reading too much into it because he is protective of Felix and Minho always looks out for his loved ones.
Jisung will tell Felix that their relationship is special to them and how they got there just adds to the love, Jisung doing anything to protect Felix shows him that Jisung is the one. Even though Jisung was at the root of it all, but he won at the end of it and Felix was none the wiser and that’s okay, maybe Jisung showed his love in a weird way but he showed it nonetheless and got Felix in the end anyways.
It was a Friday night when Felix smelt that cologne again, and he just felt anxious. Jisung smiled and pulled him close as he ran his fingers through his hair.
“Your safe with me angel, always.”
“It’s just weird how it all stopped when we got together, don’t you think?”
“He just gave up when he realized he can’t have you angel, don’t worry your pretty little head about it.”
“Okay, I trust you. I love you Jisung.”
“I love you too angel.”
It was Friday night when he realized that Jisung was his stalker and it was also the friday of their anniversary when he realized that this would be forever even if it was with his stalker.