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SHAME

Summary:

jimin and jungkook were living the fairytale university love story, but behind closed doors. because jungkook is the son of a very conservative affluent family. how long is too long, when you carry shame more than love?

Chapter 1: CH1: PRIMA FACIE

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brief summary of the characters

JEON JUNGKOOK,
-son of a very conservative rich family, studying law (in some countries law can be studied right after high school without needing an undergraduate degree.) he is also in the basketball team, somewhat popular. has a little brother. is dating jimin for 2 years.

PARK JIMIN,
-known to be very smart, has a great relationship with his family, considered to be a school heartthrob, studying law. is dating jungkook for 2 years.

KIM TAEHYUNG,
-jungkook’s best friend from childhood, studying law.

KIM NAMJOON,
-jimin’s best friend, studying politics. also in the basketball team.

MIN YOONGI,
-close friend of jungkook, also in the basketball team. studying law

the rest of the characters will be introduced as the story goes on.

PRIMA FACIE

CHAPTER ONE

prima facie, a latin word used to mean ‘at first sight’ or ‘on it’s face’ usually indicates to evidence that does not need investigation. often used in law.

jimin and jungkook had met two years ago, the first day of uni. the absolute hassle of carrying all of your belongings to the dorms was overshadowed by the excitement of arriving to this new place called uni. it was a huge step in life, getting accepted was hard enough. this was the best law school of the country. jimin had already sent off his parents, affirming that he would do just fine by himself. he knew he would have trouble, but he just wanted his worried mother off of him. carrying heavy boxes were not his forte, and it clearly showed. he was busy trying to open his door with his keycard without dropping the boxes, when he heard bickering down the hall.

 

no, mom just leave them. i’ll be fine.
it was hard to hear for jimin, but he understood that this boy was also trying his best to persuade his parents into leaving him alone. this made jimin chuckle and forget about what he was doing just moments ago. it’s arguable whether the situation made this happen, or the sheer face card this boy was showing. there is no doubt. he was tall, handsome and had a great body as far as jimin could see through the t-shirt the boy had on. jimin liked him, surely. jimin was gay, everyone around him knew this even though he wasn’t open about it during high school. his family was accepting so there weren’t any issues regarding his sexuality.

 

while jimin was busy in his thoughts, the boy had successfully managed to persuade his parents into leaving and had started walking jimins direction. this immediately made jimin click back into his goal, opening this damn door. after some struggle he had opened the door successfully without dropping the boxes in his hands. he slowly made his way into his dorm room while keeping a mental note of the cute guy who dorms across his room.

 

for the first week of uni, they had only ever briefly met eyes. this was until their criminal law professor had a so-called “warm up” assignment where two students would have to defend a faux case for their grade. ofcourse as jimin had hoped, he was paired with Mr. Cute guy across dorm room. they had a few meet ups outside, talking about which way to approach the case. for jimin, this was a one man job but having jungkook help him reach new perspectives was helping. on their third meet up in jimins dorm, the expected happened. after ordering takeout to the dorms, one thing led to the other and the two found themselves getting closer every second. jungkook couldn’t understand why he was getting pulled towards jimin. jimin was beautiful, breathtaking even. it was really easy to be attracted to him, but jungkook wasn’t gay

 

although, this thought was slowly taken over by the sheer urge to kiss the beautiful man in front of him. the case could go to hell for all he cared, he needed this. feeling like a boy going through puberty, this wasn’t anything he had felt with any of the girls he had kissed. when he kissed girls, he would kiss them because that was what he was supposed to do.. right? this was completely different because he wanted to, even needed to kiss him. so he did, slowly. jimin wasn’t showing any signs of discomfort, actually he was kind of hoping for this. they both knew it was attraction at first sight. the slow, controlled kiss was abruptly stopped by the very guy who started it. it was almost as if jungkook came back to his senses, pushing jimin lightly by his shoulders. his brows furrowed, looking confused at jimin. jimin couldn’t help but speak while slowly scooting over towards him. what happened?

 

jungkook moved away from him, almost as if touching jimin would unlock something cursed. his expression forming a more angry look. he raised his arm to wipe his mouth with the back of his hand i’m not gay he had managed to say after a few moments of silence. this had jimin furrowing his brows this time. wiping his mouth? jimin was beyond hurt. jungkook was looking at him almost as if he was disgusted. jungkook was too busy in his thoughts, he had ruined everything just within his first week. kissing a guy? really? everything was planned for him, he was going to study law and become a candidate for the conservative party just as his father wanted. there was no way in hell he could do that now, he had sinned, and the worst part was that he liked it. suddenly, he got up from the floor and quickly exited through the door. he was doing this in an almost-escaping manner. leaving a confused and hurt jimin behind him.

three days had passed since that day and jimin was no better, he felt like he had been lead on. he moved on with his days, only briefly looking at jungkook every once in a while. today had been a tiring day, jimin just wanted to go to his room and rest. he quickly told his friends that he won’t be joining them for dinner, it was too much of a hassle. the boy wasted no time to go to his room, standing in front of the door and looking for his keycard. as soon as he swiped his card to the sensor, with the slight click sound of the door unlocking he was pushed inside within a second. not understanding what was going on, before he could say something he was silenced by a familiar pair of lips. their bodies slammed against the door of the room. but jimin wasn’t this easy, he gathered the power to push the stronger man off of him. this time jimin was the one getting angry. his voice probably loud enough to be heard through the hall. what the fuck? what do you think you’re doing? do you think you can just come back and do as you please? this wasn’t what jungkook expected, ofcourse he knew jimin was angry but not to this extent. jungkook wasn’t a great talker, he never was. but to a man like jimin, this was unacceptable.

I… I’m sorry jimin. I was just confused, I had never done this with.. with.. jimin didn’t know how but jungkook was making him even more angry with every word he was spewing. he answered with a calmer tone this time. with what? a guy? you can’t even look at me right now. this had jungkooks eyes shooting up at jimins face. oh that face, he was always so effortlessly handsome. he cleared his throat before speaking, look jimin, i’m not gay. at this point, jungkook was trying to persuade himself into this. he wanted nothing more than to kiss jimin, but he wasn’t gay. he couldn’t be gay. this answer only made jimin laugh, a laugh that would make jungkook feel even worse.

jimin spoke with a stern voice i’m not someone you can test your feelings on, jungkook. make up your fucking mind and stop acting like a teenager. don’t ever touch me without permission again. jungkook couldn’t contest. he had to leave, but he didn’t want to. nothing made sense to him, he knew he wasn’t a homosexual. those people were wrong, they were sinning, jungkook wasn’t like that. but then, why did he want to hug and kiss jimin every time he saw him? why was it that he couldn’t stop looking at him during lectures? he left the room with a heavy heart, even more confused than before.

weeks had passed, the couples assignment was finished by jimin without informing jungkook. and jimin had seemed to forget or atleast get over the situation with him. because he was laughing with namjoon, someone jungkook knew very well. namjoon and jungkook had joined the uni basketball team together about a week ago, and namjoon was everything a man wanted to be. he was tall, nice, handsome, smart and had a great body. this great body was too close to jimin right now. they were laughing and joking next to eachother. there wasn’t any reason for jimin to not like namjoon, and this worried jungkook to the core. he had stopped eating, focused on the pair sitting a few tables away when he felt a poke on his shoulder. you good, man? who are you looking at? yoongi questioned, looking at the direction jungkook was looking at. this question was followed by a laugh. are you looking at miyeon? I told you bro, I saw her first. go find someone else. the boy group laughed while poking fun at jungkook. but jungkook wasn’t laughing. he was worried. worried about something, someone else. jungkook had his head busy for weeks, thinking of his sexuality. it took him a long time to accept that he was infact gay. although he hadn’t told anyone, now he knew. this awakening was supported by some searches on the internet, followed by some type of content online. there was now no doubt. he had seen with the corner of his eye, they had finished their lunch and left the cafeteria. jungkook had to talk to jimin, he just had to.

nighttime, dorms
jungkook had waited for everyone to retreat back to their rooms before peeking his head from the door of his room. coast is clear, he thought. with slow steps and a racing heart, he had stood in front of jimins door. jungkook ever so slightly, knocked. he heard jimins voice saying i’m coming jungkook bit his lips in worry, hoping that namjoon wouldn’t pop out of the dorm like he had imagined. the door opened, and a shocked looking jimin appeared. his face immediately shifting into an angry expression what do you want? jimin had his arms crossed across his chest. his shoulder resting on the door frame.

jungkook took a deep breath and spoke I’m sorry for how I acted the past weeks. look..can I come in? please, we have to talk. jimin was unsure, but he could see jungkook genuinely struggling right now. he took a step back and let him in his room, both of them sitting on the bed. jungkook spoke again, I like you jimin, I was just scared and confused because I had never felt like this for a man. My, my family taught me that this wasn’t normal. I blamed you for so long, I thought it was you that was confusing me. I treated you horribly, and I’m deeply sorry jimin. Today I saw you with namjoon, and I know what I’m doing right now is disrespectful to him but I couldn’t bear to see you two together. jimin was shocked to say the least, he had figured jungkook was closeted way before jungkook could admit to himself. but this heartwarming apology was out of character for jungkook. for the past weeks jungkook had been the careless, cold and even annoying guy for most of the students. but breaking down in front of jimin, he looked so small and fragile. a tear had managed to escape jungkooks doe eyes, raising his arm to wipe it with the back of his hand. jimin couldn’t help but smile at this. the shorter boy had scooted closer to the crying boy, pulling him into a hug. jimin liked jungkook from day one, it was an instant feeling. seeing the tough guy facade fall off in real time was so endearing. jimin ran his hand through jungkooks dark locks. I forgive you, jungkook. and.. there is nothing between namjoon and I, you got it all wrong. this was honestly a deep breath for jungkook. he felt such at ease. he slowly broke apart the hug and looked at jimin with an expectation, an answer. jimin just looked back at him, laughing. I like you too, stop looking at me like that! this was how their secret started.