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Bible kind of fucked up. Like not just fucked up, but milky way kind of fucked up. He wasn’t planning any of it, it’s just happened. The story won’t tell itself so Bible would love to explain it.
P'Jes Birthday was coming up and Bible was thriving. He was planning their dayoff holiday for months. Like literally months. Way before he got his birthday video and all. He was planning it from Macau, okay. He found the best place where he wanted to take P'Jes and have him only for himself. He felt a little too greedy, his emotions all over him, but, hey, it was P’Jes and his birthday was important.
The plan was a getaway not away from Bangkok, cause Phi had family and Bible was sure he wanted to celebrate it with family. Not jealous. So he’s being checking hotels and places he wanted to take Jes and have him only for himself.
The birthday was catching up on him and end of the February he found beautiful hotel in Bangkok. Hotel: Amdaeng.
This was probably the most romantic hotel in Bangkok. The vermillion-red façade and all-red swimming pool set the tone, followed by a lobby with an opulent mishmash of antiques, faded mirrors and shimmering chandeliers. Most rooms had antique furniture, roll-top bathtubs and showers big enough for two, and the river-facing balconies were a great setting for a romantic sundowner. The Sino-chic Lhong 1919 community space was just steps away, offering some fantastic places to eat within walking distance. By any means, Bible had never been a romantic person, it was definitely Jes element, but younger man was too much in deep love (he is still refusing to admit it) and well, it was his favorite Phi’s birthday.
But everything start to went downhill, when Jes schedule was announced early in March. 2nd April work, 3Rd April work, 5th April fan meeting. There was no time for Bible and his romantic getaway.
“Ble, are you even listening to me? “ jes asked millionth of time and looked at Bible with his big, round espresso eyes. While on their usual golf “date”.
“I’m Phi”, it came out much colder then he intended, he mentally winced at his own voice and words.
“Okay” and then nothing. Phi Jes who was always talking, making Bible crazy with all his yapping just stopped talking. That might have been the first sign of hell broking in a few weeks. The golf date became a little quiet afterwards, but Jonathan was there and he talked with P’Jes, while Bible was brooding over his own words.
In the middle of March it became much harder to navigate into their relationship , they’ve been still going on golf courses, playing , having dinners, but work was working and Bible had less time and less energy to engage with P’Jes and suddenly it was mostly Jonathan and Phi golfing and at the end of the day he heard about his P’Jes from his own brother. Look, He wasn’t jealous. Just tired (he was jealous).
“are you even listening to me”, Jonathan asked second time in a minute.
“I’m. I heard that P’Jes is as good as Professional, that his posture is the best and he can give the best advices, you don’t need to rub it on my face” he answered rather annoyed.
“Bib, are you, by any chance jealous?” Jonathan looked like he hit jackpot. Sly smile, eyes almost disappearing, while he tried his best not laugh.
“shut the fuck up, I’m not” Bible stand up from his usual seat, where he was grooming Akira.
“Oh, oh my God, Bib, you are actually jealous” now Jonathan was full-blown laughing and clutching his belly.
“fuck off ” Bible throw nearby cat toy at his brother.
“Jesus, Bib, you know that P’Jes only sees you right? “ older of two of them, catch toy and looked at his little brother, ultimately and unbelievably in love with his co-star, mentor and friend.
“He is not talking to me”, Bible looked annoyed.
“he only talks about you. Nong Bib this, Ble likes this, I’m planning to became Professional and teach Ble golf, come on Bib, its P’Jes”, Jonathan sat down near him.
“I’ve been busy and he is busy and..”
“what about the hotel you booked? “
Bible looked at him like his brother grow another head “what?”
“What do you mean what? You thought I wouldn’t know? You’ve been brooding past month Bib”
“I’m not”
“Just ask him out”
“He has event and probably dinner with family”
“ and he will cancel it if you ask him out”
Bible sighed and pet Akira who was trying to get sweets from brothers.
“I’ll ask him”…
“Now”
“okay, okay” Bible took out his phone and felt his fingers shaking as he started to type massage.
“what if he does want to go with me” he looked at his brother a little frightened.
“Bib, you know P’Jes better then me, he isn’t person who will ever say no to you. Anyone, but you”
“Thanks Jo.”
“I’ll see u around baby brother” Jonathan blow him kiss.
“Ewww, you are disgusting and don’t call me baby”
“Yeah, yeah”
Jonathan disappeared with Akira following him, leaving Bible alone to think and re-think about his getaway. His phone screen was blinking at him and no words were typed. At end he decided to call. Only to be answered by Jes’s manager who told that Jes was at the meeting. See this was second sign of hell breaking soon.
March was ending and Bible still couldn’t invite Jes for his getaway. It was getting nearly impossible to get Phi alone. Their conversations shorter then ever, Bible just tired after whole day of filming, Jes never asking too much, and it was becoming unholy uncomfortable for Bible. It was like someone took his heart out and squeezed it. Everytime someone said Jes’s name his brain was sending him signals to his squeezed heart. And Bible, Bible was trying his hard not to go straight to Jes house and just end this situanship they've entered.
Last week of March he got final invoice from hotel and the confirmation from his credit card that the booking was finalized and everything was paid. From 3rd April to 5th April the hotel was waiting them. The dinner on the rooftop, from where they could see beautiful river and sunset, was booked as well. But the invitation was still pending. Then Bible decide to write letter. He always was better with words on papers and actions than talk.
“Dear Phi Jes,
Hamilton said in a letter to Eliza:
You engross my thoughts to entirely to allow me to think of anything else- you not only employ my mind all day; but you intrude upon my sleep. I meet you in every dream- and when I wake I cannot close my eyes again for ruminating on your sweetness.
I’ve always thought of myself as a person who messed up everything. Never quite trusted myself, or what I wanted. Before you, I was all right letting everything happen to me. I honestly have never thought I deserved to choose. Now, now I’m not afraid of anything, specially what I feel. I’m not afraid of saying it. I’m only afraid of what happens when I do.
Is it better to speak or to die… I asked it many many times to myself. And there is no right answer on this…But Phi, the first time I saw you, I took our meeting home, and I took it down to my gardens. I pressed it into the leaves of my favorite flowers, and I took care of it, watered it and now they're in full bloom and they don’t fit in any place in my house.
I miss you Phi Jes, the world is very quiet without you around. The moon, the stars are nothing without you.
I hope you’ll find me, I know my love is selfish, but Phi, i cannot breathe without you.
I’ll wait you:
13°44’05.9”N100°30’25.5”E”
Bible send the letter without thinking twice. We will die eventually, so it’s definitely better to speak, he thought.
April entered with full force of busy work schedules. He had to take care of Tod’s filming, had to update his IG and there was still no answer from Jes. Bible was sure if he didn’t get answer soon, he might had full blown panic attack. Jonathan tried to talk to him but he refused to explain anything. He checked his mail every second, but empty inbox was blinking him like it was judging him hard. 2nd April came too fast and Ble was trying his best not to go into hard depression, whole 4 days and no sign of Phi Jes.
The morning of birthday started as usual with Taking care of his pets, taking walks and grooming. Giving deserved attention to his babies. Noon, he tried to eat his lunch and scroll IG and X, only to find out that fans were waiting him to do something for Phi as he did for him, Jes was sharing Birthday wishes on his IG as well, his childhood pics were too cute, Bibles heart start beat too fast as he checked Phis IG, he smiled while looking younger version of Phi Jes.
“Something never changes”, he thought while zooming phi’s big eyes. “So which pic should I share, Phi”, he scrolled over hundred of shared selfies, but every single of them felt too private, to much revealing, too much of their life, and he didn’t want to give it out yet, so he decided a little older one, it was from private event, and they had been not into anything that time, it was way before Macau. He tagged Jes and turned to his work, only to felt vibrations of phone.
“Phi Jes?”
“hey” , too casual, too cold, very not Phi Jes.
“Happy Birthday Phi”, Bible felt his heart going summersault.
“Thank you, Nong”, not Ble, not Bib, not muay just nong, Bible felt his eyes sting. “ You forgot to tag me on your story”.
“oh”
“I can't share it, you know…”
“Phi?”, is it better to speak or die…”Phi Jes, I… erm.. did you get”
“Sorry Ble, I have to go, event is starting”, it ended too fast, Bible felt like someone just throw his heart away.
“No..no no no no no no no”, fully panicked he called back, one ring, two, three and no answer, again and again, never giving up, Bible dialed only to be answered with silence.
“Fuck…”, his another attempt was to reach out Jes’s manager only to be answered with nothing, again.
“Please, God, no…”
Finally he called Jonathan.
“Jo, where are you? “
“Working Bib, can I call you back?”
“No, I need you to call Phi Jes, he isn’t answering my calls”
“Bib, he is at event, you didn’t see, it’s started a few minutes ago”, Jonathan’s voice was calm as always. “Bib are you okay?”
“No, I’m panicking, I.. I might fucked up badly, Just call him pls.”, Bible usually never asked or begged anything.
“okay, okay, I’ll call him, calm down, I’ll call you back okay?!”
“Thanks, Jo”.
Bible was pacing, he knew that he was pacing. Nothing was going in the way he wanted. He could feel tears trying to find their way, but refused to cry or be sad. It was P'Jes and he never, ever got angry on Bible, maybe sulking a few times, pouting and asking for attention, but never angry.
Jonathan ‘s call came late that evening, saying that P’Jes was still attending event, and will be free in a few hrs. “Just call him Bib”, Jo gave one last advice and ended the call.
Uncertainty hit Bible like freight train. There was always so many what if and right now, his mind and his heart were having a big battle. Heart knew that Jes will never get tired of him or get angry at him, but mind was telling otherwise, letting him know that, he had been cold and a little bit too hard on Jes, some might say ignoring him, but he wasn’t, he might be a little too much in his head, but he had never ignored Phi or his attempts to get into Bible’s herd brick walls, it was just work was too much, he had barely slept these days and he might be in need of time, alone.
Call from Jes came late. Way much late for Bible’s like.
“Hey”
“Phi, Happy Birthday” and suddenly he was lost into words, what he must say, should he apologize, ask if he checked mails, no words in any language was coming out from Bible. Jes chuckled, good sign.
“Thanks Bib, you already said that this morning, hey Gigi, no, don’t eat… sorry, Ble, Gigi is trying to eat my wallet.”
“Oh, how is she? “, great start Wichapas, good, very good.
“Who? Gigi?”, Jes sounded amused.
“Hmm…”
“She is behaving like spoiled child, ignoring me, giving me cold shoulder, you know, like kid.”
“Phi Jes”, Bible whined,” Did you check you mail?
“Mail? “
“hmm, I kinda send a mail to you”
“Mail? Why would you sent me a mail? You can call me Ble?”
“I know Phi,” Bible was getting impatient “Just check mail pls”, soon the call was over, as Gigi decided it was time to throw a tantrum and Jes needed to go back to family dinner he was neglecting last few minutes.
Bible slept that night like a child. no dreams no waking up at the midnight just slept the whole night.
3rd of April came with sun, new opportunities and new ideas. Young man knew that his Phi was having a very important event at the evening. there was no news in his Mail, in some way he was feeling a little bit anxious, but he decided to believe in Jes. older men told him that he will check mails and he had no other choice just to trust him, until now Jess has never lied or made him feel alone .
Bible got ready for the overnight in the hotel. He put his best outfits for a night, checked the booking and of course dinner as well. everything was perfect. the only one thing that was missing was P'Jes. Mystery black box, which was delivered that morning was still beside his bed and Biblenwas eyeing it while biting his lips. It was a very big step and the territory he had never explored before. But, hey, no going back..
Finally, saying goodbye to his pets and Jonathan, he left for a hotel. Before arriving to hotel he stopped for a shopping, got some essentials and while waiting for his orange coffee he scrolled down X, which was showing P’Jes in all black, hair styled all behind, ear cuff and just wet dream, Bible had been seeing last few weeks. There was one video going viral, fan asking Phi what was the present from nong and Jes face first time showed some annoyance , while telling fan to ask into Bible.
“Fuck…" Suddenly he’s notifications showed that he got a new mail. He opened it only to find Jes’s mail.
Just one sentence “I love you for a thousand reasons and in a thousand ways…” , Bible knew that he will be meeting his Phi Jes soon.
For whole ride to hotel Bible felt giddy, his skin was buzzing with excitement, he was squirming in his seat and maybe, just maybe he broke a few rules here and there. He checked in and give some notes to reception about his partner arriving a little bit late.
The room was magnificent, red walls, veranda, ooen bathtub, big windows with beautiful sceneries. Indeed perfect getaway for a birthday. He looked around, checked everything, put out his clothes and black box. After a few minutes of scrolling X and watching P'Jes being hottest man ever lived, he decide to take quick shower and get ready for his Phi.
"What do we think?" Bible looked at himself in the mirror, clearly far too pleased with himself. His eyes started at the bottom—his feet. He was wearing black YSL heels, appearing oddly at ease in them. His legs appeared especially slim in sheer black thigh high stockings, but he couldn't hide his muscular calves and thighs; the contrast of power and delicacy was showed shamelessly, lacy bit at the top of the stocking and the garters attached to the equally lacy belt around his waist, begged to be snapped by his Phi. Actually it wasn’t Bible’s style, he doesn’t really liked to dress feminine and he never felt feminine either, but he remembered one late night talk with Phi Jes, when he showed him post on X, where fans where asking Bible to were high heels and he also remembered the next few days he could feel Jes inside him, just a thought of Bible in high heels, did make Jes lose his calm coolness and fucked him senselessly for whole night, so yes, it technically was not his kink, but its definitely was Jes’s. And he had been feeling rather lonely lately and they hadn’t been together for whole month, so sue him if he bought a lacy panty, and the whole thing on Amazon. Also he looked hot in black. Knowing Phi Jes, he would definitely lose it. He swirled one last time , eyeing black panties barely covering his cock—also lace.
“if this not make him go crazy, then I’ll just fuck him senseless” , just imagining Jes in stockings and g-string made Bible groan, “fuck, it might be my kink too”. Imagination went indeed wild, red panties in chocolate skin, long legs for life in red stockings, big, espresso eyes begging to be fucked, spread open on his bed. Yeah, it was definitely one of Bible‘s kink as well. Still feeling a little unsure and stupid, he decide to step up and wash his face only to be interfered by room's phone.
“Mr. Sumettikul , sir, this is reception, my name is Josh” – a male voice came a little scared.
“Yes”
“Mr. Tilapornputtis is here, sir”, now there was no going back. Either going to give Jes show, he deserved or just put clothes and have an ordinary evening.
“Please let him up, I’m waiting for him.” No going back, only forward.
He took one long breathe and sat on white, silk sheets as a prize of 33rd birthday of his beloved Phi Jes, waiting for his man to claim him in the way no other had ever done or will be able to do.
Bible’s heart was doing summersaults when the door clicked open, and Jespipat Tilapornputt with all his glory entered in his own dreamworld.
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHI JES,” Bible lets the breath out in a small voice, not sure if he could speak anything else.
The atmosphere remained silent (save for Bib’s heart which was drumming incessantly in his ears). Jes was frozen, his big eyes doubled, his mouth a little bit open, pink toungue darted tonwet his lips. He was still wearing clothes from event, black long coat, black undershirt and long legs covered in rocknroll kind of black trousers, hair slick back, a total wet dream of Bible Wichapas Sumettikul. His eyes roved over the exquisiteness that was Jes Jespipat Tilapornputt. Caramel doe eyes, fluttering eyelashes and the pink, doll-like lips. Bible swallowed thickly when he realised how love-sick his thoughts had started to sound and instead tried to clear his mind by forcing an easy-going grin on his lips.
“Happy Birthday Phi”, He tried again.
“I hope you have nothing tomorrow or this week Khun Wichapas”, Jes growled,”Because you are not leaving this room for next few days, you’re mine to eat alive”. And he moved loke man possessed.
Oh, it was definitely good idea to buy all kinky stuff from Amazon.