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Remus was sat on a comfortable couch in the second floor library at grimmauld place, absorbed in a book.

This was one of his favorite places to read. There was a large window that let just the right amount of sunlight in at any time of day. The chairs in here were also the cosiest, and it had been one of the first rooms, aside from bedrooms, that he and Sirius had renovated.

He was pulled from the words on the page by a gentle knock, and when he looked up and turned towards it, Harry was standing in the doorway.
Remus noticed he looked... Anxious, maybe?

He put on his best reassuring smile.

"Hello pup." That got a smile from the 14, almost 15 year old.

"Hi Moony." Remus pats the spot next to him and the boy moves into the room, glancing around, not making eye contact.

He takes a seat next to Remus, who, without thought, moves to run a hand through his perpetually messy hair.

Harry sighed and leaned into the gentle touch, making Remus smile. They stay silent like that for a few moments before Remus speaks up.

"What's on your mind?" Green eyes look up and meet his, and for just a moment he's brought back to a memory of hanging out with Lily in the common rooms. He's seen that look before. Harry has something important to tell him.

"How do you know something’s on my mind?" Remus smiles and gives a gentle scratch to the scalp under his fingers.

"Call it intuition. Do you wanna talk about it?" If he was anything like his mother, and Remus knew by now he absolutely was, it would take a moment, but he'd tell Remus eventually.
Harry broke eye contact, looking down at his hands that were nervously picking at the skin of his nails.

They are silent for a bit, Remus continuing to play with the boys hair, before Harry's shoulders drop and he looks back up.

"I have... a question." Remus nodded for him to go on. Harry bit his lip, looking for something on his face, and he must have found it.

"Is it ... Is it okay for boys to like other boys? Like, romantically?"

Remus wasn't sure what he was expecting, but it wasn't that. He takes a moment to think of his reply before smiling down at the young boy.

"It would be pretty hypocritical of me to tell you no." Harry's eyes widening. Remus continued. "Now, that's not to say that everyone thinks this way, there are always going to be people who disagree, who think it's wrong."

"But it's not?" Remus shook his head.

"Just like when a boy likes a girl, as long as both people can consent, there's nothing wrong with it."

The boy looks off towards the window, and again they are silent.

"So, if I like a boy, there's nothing wrong with that?"

"Absolutely nothing. And no matter who you like, I'll always love you. Padfoot too." The mention of his godfather makes the young boy smile more, but it quickly morphs into a frown.

"I... No matter who it is?"

Remus moves his hand to the back of Harry's neck, and pulls him in so their foreheads rest against each other.

"No matter who. I swear." They take a moment to just rest like that before moving back to their original positions.

"Even if it's a Slytherin?" Remus shrugs and smiles.

"We've all had a crush on a Slytherin at some point."

"What if it's more than just a crush?"

"I'll still love you." He says simply.

They are silent again as Harry looks down at his hands and Remus just watches him.

Eventually Harry speaks, his voice barely above a whisper, still not looking at Remus.

"It's Draco. Draco Malfoy. I like him. A lot." Remus can see the heat rising in the boys cheeks.

"Is that the first time you've said it out loud?"

The other boy nods but doesn't say anything.

"I still love you." Remus confirms, and quickly continues. "Thank you for sharing this with me Harry, l know it isn't easy, the first time, but it does get easier."

This makes Harry hesitate over his next words.

"Does Padfoot know you like boys?" This makes Remus laugh, a light blush on his cheeks.

"I should hope so, he and your dad were the first people I came out to."

"And they were okay with it?" Remus nodded, chuckling.

"They'd both be hypocrites if they weren't."

This had a look of confusion pass over Harry's face.

"Wait, what? My dad liked boys? But, what about mom?" This made Remus smile wide.

"You're dad liked boys and girls, so did your mom, actually." This had the young boys eyes widening almost comically.

"Really?" Remus hummed affirmatively.

"Yes, indeed. Now of course it didn't really matter who he was attracted to, your mother owned that man's heart from the moment they met. And he made a right fool of himself trying to win hers."

This comment had them both giggling.

Once they calm down, they're silent again as Harry takes all of this new information in.

"Can I ask another question?"

"You can ask me anything you want, pup. I'll always do my best to answer."

Harry bit his lip, thinking about how to phrase the question.

"Are you and Sirius... Together?" At this Remus freezes, and Harry notices and starts to ramble.

"I'm sorry, I know it's personal, it's just I see the way you look at each other, and I know I didn't exactly have the best examples of loving relationships growing up, but to me it looks like love. And I know you guys haven't said anything, so I was starting to wonder if you guys just didn't feel comfortable telling me. I just... I don't know..." Harry trails off, and Remus
takes a deep breath, letting it out before he speaks.

"Sirius and I aren't together." At this Harry's shoulders slump, and he almost looks disappointed.

"But" Harry looks up as he continues "and this stays between the two of us." He gives the boy a sharp look, and he nods quickly. Remus sighs. "I've been in love with Sirius for a very long time, even before I knew what romantic feelings were. When we were in fourth year I got fed up and tried to confess. He stopped me, begged me not to. Told me that he couldn't risk losing me as a best friend if anything ever broke us, and he swore if his parents ever found out they'd kill us both."

Shock takes over Harry's features and Remus just nods.

"So I've never told him. But he knows." Harry is silent for a moment.

"So, why aren't you together now?" At the confused expression, Harry hurries to explain. "I mean I get why when you were younger, it was dangerous for both of you. But, eventually Sirius got out of his parents house, right? And then you all graduated, so why didn't you get together then? Or hell-"

"Language." Remus cuts in out of habit, and Harry just rolls his eyes, and continues.

"Why didn't you guys get together after he was out of Azkaban?" Remus sighs and looks out the window for a moment, before looking back at the boy in front of him.

"When Sirius begged me not to tell him how I felt, I promised, and I refused to break that promise. I figured if the time was ever right, when he was ready, if he felt the same, he would come to me. And he never did, so I just accepted I would love him for the rest of my life, by his side, as his best friend. And then... Well, you know. And everything went to shit. And even if I didn't want to believe he was guilty, I still left him in that horrible place."

He took a deep breath before continuing, tears welling up in his eyes.

"I have a lot of regrets. Loving him has never been one, but I abandoned him, so I don't expect for him to ever return those feelings, even if he once did, not anymore." They're quiet again before Harry shakes his head.

"You should tell him."

"It's not that simple pup."

Harry hesitates, before he sighs and moves to cuddle up with Remus.

They lay on the couch in silence for a while, Remus just playing with Harry's hair.

An unknown amount of time passes before they hear footsteps from the hall. They both look over to the doorway and see Sirius step into the room.

He gasps theatrically when he sees them.

"A puppy pile?! Without me?!" Remus rolls his eyes and Harry laughs.

"It's not a puppy pile, we're just cuddling." Remus tries to assure, but he's also trying to stifle a grin.

"Come join us!" Harry opens his arms and for a moment Remus's heart stops in anticipation. But Sirius just smiles and shakes his head.

"Maybe later, dinner will be ready in a few minutes."

"Go wash up pup." Remus kisses the top of Harry's head and starts to sit up, nudging the boy gently off him. He sighs dramatically but gets up and moves towards the door. He pauses a moment when he gets there, then looks back at Remus over his shoulder.

"It doesn't have to be complicated. Not anymore." Then he walks off.

Sirius looks between them, before locking his gaze on Remus.

"What's that about?" Remus shakes his head with a gentle smile.

"Nothing, just something we were talking about. Dinner?" He gets up off the couch and walks over to Sirius, who keeps his eyes on him, narrowed in suspicion.

"Fine, but I'll find out eventually." Remus grins and pats his cheek.

"Whatever you say, Pads." Sirius rolls his eyes but his cheeks are tinged pink. Huh, interesting. They make their way out of the library, down to the kitchen, where Harry is already setting the table for them.

Dinner is a relatively peaceful affair, filled with gentle conversation and laughter.

"Hey Padfoot?" Harry says as they're cleaning up.

"Yes pup?" Harry glances over at Remus, who gives him an encouraging smile. Harry smiles back, his shoulders relaxing, as he looks back at his godfather.

"I just wanted to tell you... I'm gay." Sirius pauses as he's picking up a glass, and Remus is worried he's going to have to lunge across the table if Sirius drops it in surprise, but he just gently sets it down and smiles at Harry, pulling him into a hug.

"Thank you for trusting me with that." He kisses the side of Harry's head, and squeezes tight. They stay in the embrace for a while, Remus content to clean up while they hug. He can hear sniffles and whispered words, but doesn't pry.

"Okay!" Sirius eventually pulls away, his eyes rimmed red, but the biggest grin on his face. Remus's heart gives an aggressive thud in his chest at the sight. Fuck he's beautiful.

"Dessert?" He grins and Harry grins right back, wiping his face.

"Yes please!" Sirius makes his way to the freezer and pulls out some ice cream, then grabs a few spoons from the drawer, and sets everything on the table.

They all sit back down, and eat quietly, before Sirius speaks again.

"So, who's the lucky guy?" Harry freezes, his face going red, and darts a panicked look at Remus, who shoves his spoon in his mouth in an attempt to hide his grin.

"What makes you think there's a guy?" Harry asks, but his voice is higher pitched than usual and Sirius cackles.

"If I didn't know before, that reaction gave it away! Come on, you can tell old Padfoot! Who is it? It's not Ron, is it?" Harry makes a face of disgust that has Remus snorting and Sirius gasping in his laughter.

"Gods no, absolutely not!" He quiets for a moment and then mumbles something.

"Speak up kid, I didn't catch that." Sirius is grinning still.

"It's um... It's Draco Malfoy." Harry admits, just above a whisper, his face pink. Sirius is quiet for a moment.

"Oh." Harry looks between Sirius and Remus, worry evident on his face.

"Is that... Is that okay?" Sirius' eyes widened, realizing what his silence had implied.

"Oh pup, of course it's okay. I was just connecting the dots in my head. Everything makes a lot more sense now." Sirius has a teasing grin on his face by the time he finishes talking.

"What do you mean?" And Sirius laughs at that.

"Well, all of the fighting with him, and complaining about him incessantly, it just makes sense that it was a different kind of tension." Sirius wiggles his brows and Harry sputters at that, his face flushing brighter.

"Wha- Padfoot! It's not like that! I don't even know if he likes guys, let alone me!" Remus snorts at that.

"I've seen the two of you interact, there's definitely tension there." Harry groans and drops his face into his hands as they chuckle. Then he immediately looks up and pins Remus with a look, all wide eyes, desperate and excited.

"Wait, so you mean it's possible? I have a chance?"

"The only way to know for sure is to talk to him."

That has Harry rolling his eyes and snorting before shaking his head. He whispered something under his breath that sounded suspiciously like "you're one to talk."

He bit his lip, looking down at the table.

"Do you think if I sent him a letter, he'd reply?" Remus and Sirius glance at each other before shrugging.

"It's possible." Remus says. But then Harry's face falls.

"Oh, but his dad would probably notice if a snow white owl delivered a letter to their home."

"Use mine." Remus suggests, and Harry's face lights up, before he's jumping up from the table.

"Brilliant! I'm gonna go start that now!" And then rushes off, dessert forgotten.

Both men chuckle and shake their heads.

They're quiet for a few moments, just enjoying their treat.

"Fire whiskey?" Sirius suggests.

"Yes please." Remus agrees, and Sirius gets up. He puts their ice cream away, tosses their spoons in the sink, and goes to grab some glasses.

Remus waves his wand and a bottle floats down from an upper shelf. Sirius pours them both a glass, they gently cheers and each take a sip. They don't do this often, but sometimes they just want to spend some time doing adult things, like enjoying a glass of whiskey.

"So I'm guessing that's what you two were discussing without me earlier?" Sirius asks, and Remus nods.

"Is it weird I feel... Jealous? That he didn't come to me first?" Remus thinks about it for all of two seconds before shaking his head.

"No, I don't think so. He started the conversation by asking me if it was okay for boys to like boys. I think he was afraid of asking you, because he cares so much about what you think."
Sirius watches Remus as he speaks, and Remus can feel a warmth in his chest. He attributes it to the alcohol.

"Really?" Remus nods.

"Yeah, absolutely. He was always going to tell you, I think, he just wanted to test run it first. Now that's not to say he doesn't care what I think, he wouldn't have asked otherwise, but I think he cares more... Maybe not more, just different, I don't know. Don't let it get to you Pads."

Sirius just smiles softly before looking down into his glass.

"I'm glad he has someone he trusts to talk to."

"Sirius, he does trust you."

"I know, I do. I'm just glad he also has you. Kid deserves so much."

"We're doing what we can, and you're an incredible god father." They stay silent after that. Remus refills their glasses. They chit chat, sipping their drinks, but Remus can't stop thinking about what Harry said.

"It doesn't have to be complicated. Not anymore."

Was that true?

After all this time, after everything they've been through.

They eventually move into the sitting room, Sirius goes to put on a record, and Remus thinks.

Could it really be uncomplicated? There's so much history between them. Loss, grief, and pain. They were still mourning the loss of James and Lily, trying to move on from that. Could they really just... Be? Together?

"What's going on in that big brain of yours?" Sirius asks, topping up their glasses. Remus pauses and just looks at him. He knows Remus so well, and Remus knows him.

Knows that when he wakes up from a nightmare, he likes to drink peppermint tea to help him get back to bed.

Knows that when he was 13 his parents took him and his brother on a trip to France, to visit family, and Sirius loved it so much, he's always wanted to go back.

Knows that when he's tired and stressed, he likes to put on music as loud as he can stand and just dance it out.

He knows so many things about Sirius.

Could it really be that easy, for them, now?

"Moony?" He looked so concerned and Remus just smiled and stood up. There was a slow song playing, he felt warm and a little more confident thanks to the alcohol, and he thought 'fuck it.'

"Do you want to dance?" He asked, holding out his hand.

They used to do this, back in Hogwarts, they would have music playing, and Sirius would ask him to dance. They would sway, Remus a little awkwardly, but Sirius always managed to pull a laugh from him by flailing himself around.

Remus had never initiated before.

Sirius looked between his hand and his face before grinning and taking his hand. Remus pulled him close and that shocked Sirius for a moment, before he relaxed. They rocked gently to the music, and Remus just took this time to look at Sirius.

His best friend, the love of his life.

They were silent, swaying, and when the song ended and a new one began, Remus didn't let go. He pulled him closer.

"Moony?" Sirius sounded breathless, a little nervous. Remus could relate, but at this moment, he was sure.

"Sirius." The other man's eyes widened slightly.

"What..."

"Sirius, I need to ask you something." The other man nods and Remus takes a deep breath, steeling himself.

"Do you love me?" He hesitates for barely a second before replying.

"What? Of course, you're my best friend." He says it with a slight nervous chuckle and Remus shakes his head.

"No, I mean..." Remus sighs and looks up at the ceiling for a moment before looking back at the man in his arms. They had stopped swaying.

"Sirius, you mean everything to me. There is no one in this world who knows me better. And I don't think there is ever going to be anyone else for me. But if you don't want me, if you don't feel for me what I feel for you, I need to know. I..."

Sirius' eyes are wide.

"I made a promise, when we were 14, and I told myself I would never break it. There has always been something stopping us. Your parents, a war, losing James and Lily, Askaban. But now... Sirius, you're the head of the black family line, no one can cut you off from your family magic, no one can come after us. We have Harry. And yeah, there's still a war, but we can get through it together. Sirius, please."

Sirius is silent for a moment, just watching his face. A small tear slips from his eye and Remus moves without thinking, cupping his face and wiping it away with the pad of his thumb.

"Remus... Say it." It's whispered, so gentle. "Tell me."

"I love you.” Remus all but breathes the words. “I have loved you since we were 12. I have never stopped loving you. You're it for me."

More tears pool in Sirius' eyes, but he's smiling.

"I love you too. Gods I love you so much it hurts. My love for you was one of the few things that kept me sane in Askaban. I love you Remus."

At those words, Remus couldn't hold himself back anymore. He tangled one hand into Sirius' hair, the other was already on his hip, and he pulled Sirius into a desperate kiss.

They both moaned as their lips finally touched. Immediately Remus brushed his tongue against Sirius' lips, and the other man opened his mouth. Sirius hands were touching everywhere he possibly could. Shoulders, chest, neck, back.

"Hey Remus, can I-oops." They broke apart, but Remus didn't let the other man go far, Harry already knew how he felt. Speaking of, the little pest was grinning like a cat who caught the canary, elbows leaning against the railing, chin resting in his palm.

"Told you."

"What did you want? I'd like to get back to what I was doing." Remus replied, seeing Sirius blush from the corner of his eye.

"Can I use your owl?"

"Of course, she should be in the owlery."

"Cool. I'm uh, gonna turn in for the night, have fun love birds!" He called out then ran quickly up the stairs. Remus sighed and shook his head before looking back at Sirius.

"You told him?" It was asked so gently, and Remus smiles and kisses his cheek.

"Yeah, and he's the reason that I even decided to say anything."

"'It doesn't have to be complicated.' That was about me?"

"About us; about what I feel for you, have felt for you for years, and why I never said anything." Sirius just hums in acknowledgement. They silently watch each other, smiling.

"So... Not that this isn't nice, but um... Did you maybe want to move this somewhere more private?" Sirius asks, biting his lip. Remus mock gasps.

"Sirius Black, are you trying to get me into bed?!” Sirius giggles and quickly presses kisses all over Remus face.

“Maybe.” Remus' grin widens and he pulls Sirius closer by the hips.

“Good.” He whispers into Sirius' ear, nipping it gently. Sirius lets out a shaky breath and his grip on Remus' arms tighten. Remus presses their hips together and they both gasp.

“Fuck, Remus, please.” Remus hums as Sirius all but whines, dipping down to press his lips to Sirius’ neck.

“You beg so pretty. Can't wait to hear what other noises you make for me.” Sirius huffs out a breathless laugh.

“Hurry up and get me upstairs and you'll find out sooner.”

“So impatient. I've waited so long for you to be mine, I want to savour this.” He sucked gently on the soft part right behind his ear and Sirius groaned and bucked his hips.

“Remus, I need you.”

“You'll have me, when I'm good and ready. Let me enjoy having you here. Haven't I waited long enough? Don't I deserve to fully enjoy this?” He ended each question with a lick and a suck to different parts of Sirius' neck.

“At least take me somewhere I can make as much noise as I want.” Remus could hear the pout in his voice and couldn't help but laugh. He presses one last kiss to the beginning of what is going to be a beautiful purple bruise, before pulling back just enough to look Sirius in the eyes.

“Okay my love.” There was a pause. “Before we do this, just know that there's no going back. I'm not letting you go. You're mine; now and forever.” Sirius grins and leans up to kiss his lips.

“Mmm good, I'm yours and you're mine. How it should always be.” Remus groaned and turned quickly towards the stairs, Sirius' hand in his.

The other man laughs as he all but drags him up the stairs.

Remus' room is closer, so that's where Remus takes him.

The moment the door is closed, Sirius is pushed against it. Remus crowds close to him, pushes their hips together, but doesn't kiss him.

Sirius whines and tries to lean in to close the gap, but Remus leans away with a grin.

“Tell me what you want, love.”

“I told you already.” Remus grins at the petulant look on Sirius' face.

“And I did that, we're somewhere private. Now what?”

“Damn it Remus, stop teasing and kiss me!”

Remus gently presses their lips together, quick and sweet, before pulling away.

“Done.” Sirius groans.

“More, please.” Remus kisses him again, once, twice.

“Fuck, Remus, please!”

“Please what?”

“Kiss me, touch me, fuck me! I want anything and everything you'll give me, just please!”

“Good boy.” With a roll of his hips, he presses their lips together in a heated kiss. Sirius keens and wraps his arms tightly around Remus' neck, hands moving into his hair, trying to pull him closer. They kiss like that for seconds, minutes, hours maybe, Remus isn't sure, he's floating in absolute bliss being able to kiss and touch the man he loves.
Sirius is the first to pull back to breath, and Remus moves quickly to attack his neck in bites and kisses. At the groan Sirius releases, Remus quickly pulls his wand out and puts up a privacy ward and silencing charm.

Remus moves his hands up from Sirius' hips and slowly trails them up under his shirt.

“Off, please, take it off.” Sirius sounded so desperate and needy, Remus couldn't help but bite him before pulling back and slowly lifting Sirius' shirt over his head.

“Beautiful.” He whispers reverently, making Sirius blush. He knew his body had changed from his youth, but with the way Remus was looking at him, he could feel the truth in those words. Remus, even now after all these years, thought he was beautiful. Truly believes it, and Sirius could do nothing but believe him.

Sirius moves his hands to remove Remus' shirt as well. Remus hesitates before raising his arms to allow him to lift it over his head.

“Wow.” Sirius trails his fingers gently over the planes of his torso.

Sirius knew Remus was strong, werewolf strength and all, but he dressed in a way that concealed it so well. With his sweater vests, his soft jumpers. But underneath? Underneath he was so strong. His arms were defined, glorious, and his chest was lightly sculpted, and his abdomen was strong but still soft.

“Gods, you're so hot.” Remus laughs and rolls his eyes.

“No need to try and butter me up, I'm already going to sleep with you.” Sirius shakes his head, looking into his eyes, completely serious.

“I mean it Moony, I've always thought you are the most gorgeous person on this planet.” Remus feels his cheeks heat at the sincerity in the other man's voice.

“Thank you darling.” He kisses him again, pulling them close so their chests touch. Sirius' hands move to touch anywhere he can. Remus reaches down and squeezes Sirius' ass over his dark jeans, before allowing his finger tips to dip in, questioningly. Sirius groans and pushes back.

“Take em off.” Sirius gasps, pulling away just enough that his words are whispered against Remus' lips, before diving back into the kiss. Remus moves his hands deeper, squeezing the flesh roughly before pulling his hands out and moving towards his belt.

“Mine too.” He whispers, and Sirius moves to undo his pants as well. They eventually pull apart, quickly, to remove their pants and underwear, before falling back together.

They both groan at the first touch of naked skin on skin contact.

“Bed. Now.” Remus laughs at Sirius' impatience, but starts to walk backwards towards the bed, pulling Sirius along with him by the hips, not wanting to be separated for long.

When the back of his knees come in contact with the bed, he sits on the edge and pulls Sirius to straddle his lap. They both gasp as their groins meet, and Sirius bucks into him, the friction barely anything, but still feeling incredible.

Remus tangles a hand into Sirius' hair and pulls them into another heated kiss. The other hand moves to grip his hip, leading him into a slow grind that has Sirius gasping into their kiss, and Remus uses it to his advantage, pressing his tongue into his mouth. Sirius' hands grip at Remus' shoulders, his nails digging in just enough to cause little crescent indents in the skin, making Remus groan. Sirius tries to speed up the movement of his hips, but Remus just squeezes him tighter.
Sirius whines at the slow pace but doesn't struggle, allowing Remus to move him.

“Fuck, that feels so good Moony.” Sirius moves his mouth to Remus' neck, to press butterfly kisses there. “More, please?”

“You want more sweetheart?” Sirius moans and nips at a sensitive spot on his neck, making Remus groan and buck his hips, causing Sirius to gasp in response.

“Please Remus.” Sirius begs, voice breathy. Remus grunts, and then he's moving them higher up the bed, flipping them so he was now on top.

He gave a long slow grind of his hips, and Sirius groaned.

“Love the noises you make for me.” Another gasp as he snaps his hips.

“Just for you.” Sirius breathes out. Remus groans and grinds down harder, pressing his mouth to Sirius'.

“Moony, god please, more.”

“Yeah, more baby?” The groan that pulls from the man below him makes him grin. “Turn over for me.”

Sirius' eyes widen in excitement and as Remus pulls away he flips over, watching Remus over his shoulder.

“Up on your knees.” Sirius does as he's told, resting his head on his arms. Remus scooches up behind him, and runs his hands up and down Sirius' ass and thighs, his lower back, before spreading his cheeks.

And then he spits on Sirius' hole.

Sirius gasps and buries his face into his arms.

“So pretty.” Remus whispers, and then he bends down and swipes his tongue along his crack.

“Fuuuck.” Sirius whines. Remus grins and then dives back in. He groans at the taste, loving the salty skin flavor, and Sirius groans back in response.

He continues to lick and kiss, Sirius gasping and pressing back for more, and really, who was Remus to deny his love of anything he asked for?

He squeezes Sirius' cheeks briefly before he starts to gently suck. This earns a strangled moan from the man beneath him. He alternates between sucking and licking, pulling more of those beautiful moans from Sirius.

Remus then gently presses his tongue in, and Sirius nearly collapses, and the moan he lets out sounds like it's accompanied with tears. Remus pulls away and Sirius whines in protest.

“Are you alright? Look at me love.” Sirius turns his head to look over his shoulder and sure enough there are tears in his eyes.

“So good Moony, please don't stop.” Remus groans and immediately dives back in to do as Sirius so beautifully requested.

Before long Sirius is again begging for more.

“More, please, I need more!” His voice is so whiny and Remus couldn't refuse him if he tried.

“You want more? How about my fingers?”

“Yes! Yes, please Remus, want your fingers!”

“Okay baby, let me just grab some lube.” Remus starts to pull away, but Sirius just groans and waves his hand. In an act of impressive wandless magic, suddenly the lube comes flying out of his night stand. Remus laughs as he catches it, making Sirius giggle.

“Impressive.” Remus admits, opening the cap and pouring some lube onto his fingers. Sirius wiggles his hips, grin on his face.

“Impatient.” He corrects, making Remus laugh again. He brushes his fingers against Sirius' hole. He doesn't push in right away, takes his time to spread lube all along the crack.

“Remus, please don't tease.” Sirius begs.

“I'm not teasing love, I'm just taking my time. I want this to be good for you.” With that he pushes the tip of his index finger in, and Sirius sighs happily. Remus slowly pushes in a little further, and when he feels even the slightest resistance, he pulls almost all the way out, and starts again. He goes slow, doing this a few times before his finger is all the way in.

“How's that feel?” Sirius hums, clearly pleased, and Remus takes it as permission to continue. He speeds up just slightly.

“Are you ready for another?” He all but whispers, completely entranced as he watches his finger disappear into Sirius' body.

“Yeah, gimme another Moony.” Remus pulls most of his finger out, adds some more lube, and then slowly presses the tip of his middle finger in next to the other. Sirius groans at the stretch.

“Okay?” Remus checks in.

“So good, keep going.” So Remus pushes in a little more. When his fingers are half way in, he starts to spread them slightly. The groan that pulls from Sirius makes Remus grin wider. He leans down and as he pushes in deeper, he presses kisses across Sirius' back and shoulders, anywhere he can reach.

“You're taking my fingers so well sweetheart.” The moan that falls from Sirius' mouth is needy, and he pushes his hips back to meet Remus' hand, as if to prove how well he can take it. It makes Remus chuckle.

“Another.” Sirius demands, but he's completely breathless, so the effect isn't quite what he wanted. Remus hums and pulls out just enough to add more lube and insert his ring finger.

“Fuck!” Sirius is a gasping, moaning mess, and all Remus can think is that he's so beautiful like this. When his hand meets Sirius' ass, and he's as deep as he can be, he presses down.

“AH! Yes, yes, yes! Right there, fuck!” He trails off, babbling and moaning as Remus presses against his prostate again and again.

“Remus! Fuck, I'm so close!” And then Remus slowly pulls his fingers out, causing Sirius to whine and slump further into the bed.

“Don't you wanna come on my cock?” Remus teases as he leans down to press kisses to Sirius' lower back in apology.

At hearing that Sirius sits up and turns towards him with a dopey grin.

“Yeah, I do want that.” They lean in to kiss, neither of them being able to help themselves.

“How do you want to do this?” Remus asks as he pulls away, but not too far, the words whispered against Sirius' lips, causing the other man to shiver.

“Can I ride you?” He sounds a little unsure, but Remus smiles.

“Yeah, of course.” He moves them around so that he's leaning up against the headboard, and pulls Sirius into his lap.

Remus reaches for the lube, but Sirius stops him.

“Can I?” Remus smiles and nods.

“Anything you want, it's yours.” Sirius blushes at this, his smile shy.

“Love you Moony.” Whispers as he leans in and they kiss. Sirius reaches for the bottle blindly, not wanting to separate, but eventually gives up and pulls away enough to locate it. Remus is smiling, watching as he pours lube on his hand, and then grips Remus' cock.

“Fuck.” It's whispered, reverent. “Your hand feels amazing.”

Sirius slowly starts to stroke, and they both watch as his hand glides up and down.

“I need you inside me, now.”

With that, Sirius gets up on his knees, and repositions himself until the head of Remus' cock is brushing his entrance. Remus moves his hands to Sirius' hips to steady him.

“Take it slow, love.” Sirius nods and then slowly starts to sink down. The moment the head of Remus' cock presses in, they both gasp, and Sirius pauses, head thrown back, enjoying the stretch. Remus watches his face, completely entrance by the sight of his pleasure, as well as the feeling of his own.

Sirius sinks down a little more, groaning.

“Gods, fuck you feel amazing Sirius.” Sirius opens his eyes and grins down at him, and before Remus can do anything, he sinks all the way down to the base.

Remus throws his head back with a moan.

“Does that feel good, Moony?” The grin on his face tells Remus he knows exactly how good it feels, but Remus can't resist telling him anyways.

“Fucking incredible Pads, better than anything else. So fucking soft and warm.” Sirius blushes as the words fall from Remus' mouth, and before his face can completely combust from how flushed he is, he leans in and kisses Remus. Remus enthusiastically returns the kiss, wrapping his arms around his waist.

They sit and kiss while Sirius adjusts, but before long Sirius is rolling his hips. They moan into each other's mouths, tongues tangling, teeth biting lips. Sirius pulls away just enough to lift his hips, leaving just the tip in before slowly sinking back down. They are both moaning, the slow up and down driving them insane, but neither of them want this to end.

“Feels so good, Remus. Filling me perfectly.” Sirius whines, and Remus answers him with a groan. Sirius starts to move a little faster, panting and gasping.

“Gods Moony I'm so close. I need more, please touch me.”

“Yeah, you want me to touch you?” Remus moves one of his hands back to Sirius' hip, the other going to his chest, where he starts to play with a nipple, rolling it between his fingers. Sirius groans.

“You like that?” Sirius nods quickly.

“Fuck yeah, feels so good. Love your hands on me.” Remus smiles before dipping his head down and sucking the other nipple into his mouth.

“Ah, fuck, yes!” Sirius stops bouncing and starts to roll his hips again, fast and jerky. Remus knows he's close.

“You gonna cum for me, love?” Sirius whines and nods.

“So close.” It's practically whispered.

Remus grins and then he's pulling back enough to get his other hand to replace his mouth. He pinches and then twists both nipples at once, and just like that Sirius is cumming.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck!” He's still moving his hips, riding out the intense orgasm.

“You too Moony, cum, cum inside me, please want it. Want you to fill me.” He's begging, and Remus can do nothing but comply. He cums with a groan, Sirius chanting a stream of encouragements.

Eventually Sirius stops moving, and collapses against Remus, resting his head on his shoulder and pressing gentle kisses wherever he can reach. Remus wraps his arms around him, running his hands up and down Sirius back soothingly. They sit like that for a while, just enjoying the closeness. Eventually Sirius moves to get off Remus lap, and regrets it when he feels cum start to leak out of him. He grimaces, and waves his hand in a wordless cleaning spell for both of them. Remus pouts and Sirius looks at him with a raised brow.

“I uh… god don't laugh but I kinda wanted to eat my cum out of you.” He admits with a blush, and Sirius can't help the giggle that pulls from him. He leans over and kisses Remus softly.

“Maybe next time.” Remus hums and presses closer, but Sirius pulls away with a laugh.

“Give me some time, I don't have the refractory period that I did as a teen.” Remus pouts again but allows it. Instead he pulls Sirius to him and they get comfortable, cuddled under the blankets.

They're both silent for a few moments before Sirius speaks up.

“So, does this make us boyfriends now, or..?”

Remus hums and brushes a kiss against Sirius' forehead.

“Boyfriends sounds good… for now.” He smirks and Sirius pulls away just enough to look up at him.

“For now?”

“Yes, for now. I plan on marrying you eventually, so we'll be husband's then.” Sirius' eyes widen at that but the smile on his face is giddy.

“I love you.” Remus smiles back and leans in to kiss him.

“I love you too.”

The end.