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Her skin feels like it's burning and her clothes feel like they weigh a thousand pounds and are suffocating her. Everything hurts like she was dropped from a thousand feet from the sky and her legs shake with every step. It makes it hard to walk as she stumbles down the dark alleyway panting and heaving as her lungs try to take in the cold night air to cool her overheating body. Himiko staggers for a moment before catching herself on the brick wall next to her. She presses her head against the cold surface to cool herself for just a moment. It barely eases the pain or heat coursing through her body and only feels like a drop of water in the desert.
"Just-, just a little further" Just a few more blocks then she's there, she just needs to hang on a little bit further and she'll reach her destination she can't give up yet.
Her legs shake so much as that throbbing heat between her legs gets stronger and the unmistakable scent of what she is and what's happening to her fills the alleyway. That burning heat hurts so much and fills her with a desire, a want for something she doesn't have, she can't have, a mate. She hates it and it only makes the fluid leaking from her core and down her legs worse with each second that passes.
That's why she chose to stay away from crowded places and stick to the paths she knows no one uses. So no one sees her or finds her.
Himiko pushes herself up and steadies herself before putting one foot in front of the other.
Just a little more until she gets back to the bar.
Just. A. Little. More.
Her vision swims for a moment and she feels like she's going to pass out for a moment as everything becomes a twisted messy blur. She feels her body move on its own as it follows the faint trail of something but she doesn't know what it is, she just knows she has to find it. Himiko shakes her head and forces herself awake before she completely loses herself. She takes a moment to take in her surroundings and her eyes go wide when she realizes where she is.
She's standing inside the gates of that damn hero school.
How did she get here? Why did she come here? What happened to her in that brief moment she almost lost consciousness?
Himiko looks around the area she finds herself in before cursing to herself as her gut burns with an unbearable heat that makes her legs falter and almost makes her fall to the ground.
"Fuck" Her mind is getting cloudy and she doesn't know how long she will last until she can't move anymore.
"Tch" the only thing she can think of right now is trying to get back to the bar but her body has other plans. It wants to find someone, a mate, something she doesn't have. She falls to her knees as she clutches her chest. The heat, the pain, it's too much she needs- no she can't, not here, not now, it's too dangerous, too many heroes around, too many people that want to capture her, kill her.
She can't give in, she can't, she-. But then Himiko thinks of the two people at this hero school that she has feelings for, izuku and ochako, and how she wouldn't mind if it was them.
Then she realizes that they can help her with what's happening to her, to help ease her pain, to stop this heat from consuming her alive like a leaf in an inferno.
But then she realizes she has to make a choice.
Which one will she pick since she can't have both of them at the same time? Izuku's a beta and Ochakos an alpha. She doesn't care which one she picks she just needs one right now.
Suddenly she hears steps in the distance and she looks for a place to hide and hopes her scent doesn't give her away. Himiko quickly hides a safe distance away in the brush as she sees someone jog past before stopping.
To her surprise and maybe luck it's the green-haired boy she was just thinking of. Her pulse picks up as she feels an intense desire to want to move forward on instinct, but it immediately stops when she notices a powerful smell approaching.
It's an alpha, but they don't smell pleasant to her at all. They smell like gunpowder and black smoke and it makes her want to gag, but she sees Izuku's face pick up when he notices it. Then he begins smiling when the one the scent belongs to appears and walks up to him.
It's a blonde alpha she recognizes as the one with the explosion quirk.
Himiko suddenly feels fear run through her because she won't be able to fight both of them especially in her current state and with both of their quirks. So she just watches and hopes the blonde leaves so she can get Izuku alone somehow.
She's close enough to hear what they are saying, barely, hopefully, she's far enough away they don't smell her scent.
"Izuku where were you during training?"
"Oh, I was just studying with Iida and ochako in her room," the plain-faced boy says apologetically as he rubs the back of his head meekly. He notices there's tension in the other boy's posture so he tries to give the other boy a playful smile to try and comfort him, but it seems to have the opposite effect for some reason.
"Tch, so you'd go to her room anytime you want but not mine, is that right? We both live on the fourth floor deku" the blonde says it with anger as he glares at the young beta boy.
Izuku glances away for a moment as he realizes what he means before trying to speak.
"Kacchan i-"
"Is it because she's your 'girlfriend' is that it, huh?!" The alpha boy begins to take an intimidating stance to try and appear bigger than the other boy, to try and show dominance. But izuku doesn't back down and keeps steady as he tries to placate the alpha boy.
"No that's not it, she's just a friend that's all we are I promise kacchan-" but his words seem to anger the alpha boy even more as he grits his teeth before beginning to yell.
"Then what is it izuku!? What is it about me that you are so ashamed of them seeing!? How long are we supposed to keep this up, huh!? Forever!" Suddenly the angry boy resembling a bomb about to go off at any moment deflates until he looks like a fuse that's been burnt up and used. Like he will fall apart at the slightest breeze or touch. Izuku takes a step forward and reaches a hand towards him to try and comfort the alpha boy but he immediately slaps it away.
"Kacchan I'm sorr-" but then izukus eyes go wide when he sees something he never thought he'd see. He only takes the briefest glance at Bakugo's face as the alpha boy grits his teeth to try and keep the tears back that have already escaped and are falling down his face before he lunges forward. Izuku wraps his hands around his alpha's face to comfort him. He tries to be soft and soothing as he uses his scarred hands to wipe away the tears from those red-specked eyes.
"Get off me nerd" the alpha boy tries to be harsh and scathing like he usually is and puts on the act of the big bag alpha to drive away the beta boy just like when he is with other people. But despite his words, he barely struggles against the other boy's affectionate hands as they continue to wipe away his tears until they are almost all gone. Then when the tears are dried izuku's hands stay on his face and hold his cheeks so gently thr alpha boy doesn't want to admit there's a blush forming on his cheeks.
"You can let go now ya' know" he tries to pretend to be irritated at the beta boy still clinging to him but even the girl watching them from a distance can see through his facade and how his own hands land on top of the other boys comfortably. They both stay there together for a moment before izuku speaks.
"I don't want to," he says it as if he's a child defying their parent or a child standing up to their bully, his words are filled with determination as he uses his thumbs to rub small circles around his alpha's cheekbones before stopping as he looks into those crimson irises that he's grown to have so many complicated feelings for.
"I'm sorry, I should have told everyone else by now but I didn't and there's no excuse for that" he looks down for a moment and away from those eyes that only six months ago he finally accepted his feelings for and found the courage to admit them. Six months of hiding this thing between them like some dirty secret that he's ashamed of, and he has no excuse for any of it.
He knows his friends and family would be accepting of it, mostly. It's not their statuses that's the problem, neither of them cares that he's a beta.
So what's the problem?
Is it about the past? All the years of bad blood between them that they've only recently begun to make amends to? Is it that they're still fighting even though they care for each other deep down?
He doesn't know but they both need to take steps together to better themselves and for each other.
He decides to take the first step.
Izuku pulls his alpha down into a gentle kiss that surprises the other boy as his body goes stiff. They rarely ever kiss and have only done it twice before now but this is the softest kiss either of them has ever had or given.
Their eyes close for a moment as the girl watching them from a distance feels a jagged piece of ice enter her heart. They both pull away before the green-haired boy speaks.
"I'll tell them tomorrow, all of them, even ochako I promise" Then he watches as the blonde boy pulls him back into the kiss as a few tears escape from his eyes.
"You better or else ner-, izuku" the other boy only laughs as he begins to kiss him back.
"I love you too kacchan"
Himoko feels like she's going to throw up as her nails dig into her palms until they almost bleed. Those words he said replay in her head as that stabbing sensation grows inside her heart. She knows what it is, it's jealousy, anger, rage, pain, and sadness.
Sadness because she just saw someone she loves being loved by someone else, being in love with someone else. Himiko feels that maybe normally she wouldn't care but right now in the midst of her heat it hurts so much she feels like she's going to die.
Just three words are enough to almost kill her, three words said to someone that wasn't her.
She hates it, she hates it with every fiber of her being. Why couldn't it be her? Why couldn't they say it to her instead? Why couldn't it have been her instead of him? Why couldn't they say I love you to her?! Why couldn't Izuku say it?! Why couldn't her parents say it?! Why couldn't the people who pretended to be her friends say it!? Why couldn't saito say it?! Why could no one she's ever loved ever say that to her?! Why could no one ever give her their love?!
Is it because she's a freak!? A monster! A deviant! Because she's not human!
Even when she pretended to be human no one cared for her at all. Even when they tried to file down her teeth or force her never to smile so she didn't upset anyone. How she had to suffer every single day as that urge to drink blood grew stronger and stronger every moment that she suppressed it until it grew too much and she took that box cutter and attacked him, saito.
Himiko feels tears prick at her eyes as she falls to the ground and covers her mouth so she doesn't let her voice out and so the other two don't hear her.
A monster, that's all she is, a wicked and dangerous beast that doesn't deserve love and needs to be put down. That's all anyone has ever said about her because it's true, isn't it? Because her love doesn't belong in this world. Because she doesn't. So she has to die because there's no place for her.
Tears run down her face and hiccups wrack her body as she tries to cover her mouth with both hands to try and keep silent. But it's no use, her cries keep escaping her mouth and she's damn sure those two can hear her right now. She needs to leave before they find her, but then where will she go?
She has nowhere to go, nowhere.
But then words repeat in her head.
'Ochako'
'Fourth floor'
'Ochako'
Then it's like something clicks inside of her when she thinks of that name, her name. Ochako. She is just like her, one that's fallen in love with someone they like. Ochako's s just a simple maiden in love like her. But then she thinks of Izuku and the other boy's words and what they said.
'Girlfriend'
'Telling her tomorrow'
Himiko quickly puts the pieces together and figures out who Ochako's crush is and realizes ochako's feelings are unrequited, both of theirs are for izuku.
They are so much alike.
Himiko realizes something in that moment. She needs to see ochako no matter what. That burning heat in her core starts to spread through her stomach and into her chest and legs making her fall forward onto the ground. Himiko has to hold herself like fragile glass to keep from breaking apart. Her head is against the cold hard ground as her body writhes in agony and yearns for what she doesn't have, for what she needs so badly she feels like she's going to die.
Ochako. That's the only thing her mind can focus on right now as tears sting her eyes and she grits her teeth to keep from crying out in agony.
Ochako.
Ochako.
Ochako.
She needs to see her, no that's not it. Himiko suddenly realizes it as she begins to push herself off the ground and her mind begins to get hazy again. Everything starts to become blurry again and she feels her body moving on its own, like it's an instinct that's been hidden deep within her that's finally come out. She feels weightless and floaty as the world passes her by and all she can think about is ochako.
She needs so much more than to just see her, she needs, she needs....she needs to touch her, to hold her, to talk to her, to-, to-, to kiss her, to become one with her, to give herself to her.
She wants-, she wants to mate with her, to become mates with her, to bear her pups, to show her how she loves, and hope beyond hope that she is the one that finally accepts her for who she is, even though himiko knows she's a hero and she's the last person that would ever love her.
But there's no one else in this world left that will love her, not in the way she wants, the way she needs to live and ochakos the only one she has left. It has to be her it has to be otherwise...
The thought is too terrifying to accept because it's probably true, that ochako won't love her back and she'll die of a broken heart.
But himiko can't help but be a dumb fool and expose her vulnerable heart to these false hopes that maybe just maybe ochako will love her back.
She feels so light and free in this careless moment between reality and dream as her vision swims and blurs all around her like a fuzzy kaleidoscope. Then get mind starts to return to normal and things start to become clear again.
It's only when she feels the cold breeze on her skin that himiko realizes what's happened. She looks around at where she is and what happened. Himiko sees that she is inside of a dark room and standing in front of a large open window. Another cold breeze rolls by and only then does himiko look down and realize that she's only half dressed and that most of her clothes are missing and are strewn about on the ground around her.
Her shoes, skirt, socks and panties are all on the floor in front of her and her shirt and cardigan are both unbuttoned and barely hanging off of her body as the cold air blows in through the window behind her. Her instincts as a villain tell her to shut it quickly and quietly before anyone notices it's open especially if anyone else is in this room with her. After she hears the quiet click of the window closing she feels panic start to take over her as she wraps the torn front of her cardigan and shirt over herself for comfort.
Where is she? What did she do? Whatever happened she was impatient and tore the buttons off of her clothes while trying to get them off.
Himiko looks around the dark room and notices small things lying around like textbooks and a school uniform that tell her this is a student's room. But which room is this? What floor is she on? Is this Ochako's room? How the fuck did she get here on the fourth floor?
All these thoughts start to grind to a halt as she feels that burning in her core flare up like an inferno and Odin shoots through her whole body. Himikos legs give out and she falls to the floor on her hands and knees. She is barely able to catch herself from crashing into the floor, just barely. But her hands shake so much and it isn't long before they begin to give out and she has to lie on her side as fire burns its way through her body.
Tears spill from Himiko's eyes as her lips tremble but she holds her cries back because she still doesn't know who she senses in the room with her. It could be anybody and she doesn't want to take that risk unless it's ochako.
No, it has to be ochako that finds her no one else. She'd rather die than let anyone else find her.
Ochako has to be here, she has to be, somewhere. The part of her brain turning to mush and losing any sense of reason thinks that her body has been moving by itself to find ochako this entire time. Every size she first when into heat. That's why she came to this room, this school, to find ochako.
But the part of Himiko's brain still working and functioning on reason tries to deny that possibility. Why would she seek out ochako of all people and why now? What reason does she have for doing that? They don't even know each other that well so why? Why would she put herself in danger right when she's at her most vulnerable just to find the other girl?
Why would she...?
The sudden pain causes her body to convulse as a painful cramp wracks her whole body causing her breath to hitch. Himiko has to bite down as hard as she can just to keep from making any more sounds as more tears fall down her cheeks.
'It hurts'
'It hurts so damn much'
"Ochako, please I need you"
It's only after she receives a faint "Himiko?" from the darkness that Himiko realizes she spoke out loud. Her blood turns cold as she has to force her head to turn towards where the voice came from. But when she sees the dark outline of familiar brown hair and those sleepy mahogany eyes that make her heart jump in her throat staring back at her she can't help but feel relief and joy in her heart as she finally gets to see her mate. Suddenly her mind feels like something's clicked in place as Himiko realizes something. She doesn't know if she's had an epiphany or she's the world's greatest fool, no she realizes she's both of them because what she's thinking can't be true.
Her mate can't be ochako, it just can't be. There's so much wrong with that that there's not enough time to explain everything.
But that's not what her heart says and her heat-addled mind can't help but agree to those feelings no matter how stupid or dangerous or outrageous they sound. Because right now Himiko feels like she's going to die at any moment and nothing else matters to her but the girl looking at her with confusion in her eyes as she stares at the writhing mess of an omega that she is on her floor.
Himiko can only watch as realization comes to the girl sitting in bed as a sudden energy fills her body and ochako throws off her covers before rushing out of bed and to her side. The worry in her eyes brings her comfort because she cares about her well being, even if it's just because she's a hero.
"Toga what happened? Why are you here? How did you get in my room? Are you-" Ochako pauses as she suddenly takes a deep inhale and takes in her scent. Ochako's eyes go impossibly wide and himiko sees desire inside them as she swallows. Ochako shakes her head as if trying to get rid of her feelings before trying to back away from her. "I'll go get you some suppressants I'll be right back don't worry" the kindness and worry in ochakos voice is calming but the thought of her mate leaving her like this makes her voice crack apart. Himiko finally lets her cries out that she's been holding back this entire time. Himiko grabs onto her mates arm as she begs and pleads for ochako not to go.
"No! Please don't go! S-stay I need you!" Her pleading broken voice and desperate tears seem to work if only for a moment as the alpha girl stops and stays by her side. Himiko feels relief flood her system and it's calming, even if it's only for a brief moment and doesn't douse the fire burning inside her. But then she hears ochako speak again.
"Toga I need to go get you suppressants to help stop the pain, please let me go so i can help you" Ochako has a soft and pleading look on her face as she speaks so kindly to her. Himiko almost wants to say yes, to trust her mate and let her go if she can make this pain stop and promises to come back to her.
But that burning in her belly begins to wrack her body again. Thorns begin to weave themselves through her nerves and veins and this time himiko can't hold back the painful whimpers. Himikos hands shake as she lets out a painful wail that wracks her whole body. She can't control her body and the pain hurts so much she ends up pulling ochako on top of her.
"Toga!" Ochako yelps as she lands on top of her and himiko immediately wraps her arms some her mate. Ochako tries to push herself off of her but Himiko's grip is too desperate and she can't break free. Having her mate so close feels like that inferno inside of her is being doused inside a hurricane.
But even with ochako on top of her it's still not enough. Those thorns are running all across her body and they are wrapping themselves around her spinal column and invading her mind. Himiko feels them twisting and turning inside of her as the thorns prick every part of her body. It feels like her organs are bleeding and she's being torn from the inside out.
"Toga. Let. Go." Her mate speak in a deep and hoarse voice and it makes her feel fear, rejection, and sadness as thoughts of her mate rejecting her begin to flood her mind.
No, the thought is too unbearable and she would die if that happened. Himiko wraps her arms tighter around her mate and pulls her as close to her body as she can.
"Toga stop!" Ochako's voice is stern and almost angry sounding. Those thoughts about Ochako rejecting her become unbearable as they start to become all she can think of. Himiko does everything she can to ignore them and the pain they bring. Even when those thorns and twisting vines inside her body grow as twice as big with every word ochako says to her she tried to fight them back. She feels like she's going to die as they stab at her heart and make every pulse of blood feel like agony. Those thorns stab into her heart with every second she still lives and they only wrap tighter and tighter with every word ochako speaks.
"Ocha...ko..." Himiko can barely manage to open her lips and speak.
Her breaths have become ragged now and she can barely even take in a single breath anymore. She doesn't think she might die anymore, no she's sure of it, this is how she will die. These are her last moments and all she can do is cry her heart out as she holds her mate. If she is going to die she wants to have no regrets and leave nothing unsaid.
"Toga let me- !"
"I need you!" Himiko cries out into the dark room as loud as she can and all she can do is wait as she feels those thorns prick and stab every part of her body. Every nerve she has singes in agony. It hurts so much she can't bear it a second longer.
But then she hears those words that cause true hell for her and make her death inevitable.
"I can't toga," her mate says it so calmly like Ochako didn't just end her life with her own words. She's sentenced her to death because those three words have caused all those vines and thorns inside of her to ignite and turn into an unbearable wicker flame that burns her from the inside out.
Himiko can't help but let out a choked whimper as her cries get stuck in her throat. She knows these are her last moments and her final tears well up from her eyes. Himiko feels her body going limp and the burning feels like too much. Her very existence is becoming morning but ashes. She can't feel her legs anymore and the feeling in her fingers is fading away as well, soon the rest of her will disappear in that fire.
But then Himiko sees ochako suddenly look at her with alarm and concern before it turns to panic. Ochako finally initiates touch between them and touches her skin for just a moment before pulling it away as if her hand was burned. That brief moment was nothing like earlier and only felt like she sprinkled water on this inferno raging inside her instead of the hurricane it once was. But even that little amount felt heavenly compared to the hell she was going through. She needs more, so much more but himiko would never get it cause this is where she dies.
"Tog-, himiko you're burning up we need to get you help, right now" ochako reaches down and begins to try and lift the Omega girl up with her arms but then a painful lance of fire shoots up through her body causing her to scream out in agony. Ochako immediately lets her go and looks on horrified at how much she hurt the vulnerable girl in front of her with just the slightest touch. She tries to wrack her brain for ideas on how to help her without hurting her.
"Maybe if I use my quirk I could-" but she's silenced by the quiet sobs coming from the Omega girl.
"It's... Too late ochako... I'm... dying..."
The alpha girl's eyes go wide for a moment before she shakes her head.
"You're not dying himiko it's just your heat you'll be fine it'll be okay I promise" Ochako grabs her hand to try and comfort her but notices something is strange about her fingers, but she doesn't know what it is.
"I... I can't feel my fingers... Or my legs anymore..." Her face drops and goes pale as she notices the way Himiko's fingers feel strange too. Ochako tries to reason with and convince herself that it's not true but her doubts are too big to ignore. She feels panic take over her heart and she tries to get up to go get help.
"Hang on I'll go get help"
But Himiko grabs onto her again and pulls her down until they are face to face.
"Toga stop i need to go get help quickly before something bad happens to you-"
"Ochako I..." Himiko's eyes are full of tears. They well up before spilling down the blondes cheeks. They both stare at each other for just a moment and she watches as himiko says those three words ochako never expected her to say.
"I love you" For some reason ochako feels her heart skip a beat and a strange feeling she doesn't know fills her chest.
"Himiko you don't-" but before she can finish speaking Himiko pulls her down closer until their noses touch and they can feel each other's breath on their own lips. Before ochako can even think or even feel her own heart beat and the way it feels in this moment being so close to Himiko the other girl asks her to do something that she has never done before or had an answer before.
"Please, love me" Himiko's voice is so vulnerable and frail at this moment that there's no deception in what she's asking of her. Himiko is holding her beating heart in her own hands and is giving it to her and asking her to keep it safe. To protect it no matter what for the rest of their lives and for some reason, Ochako doesn't know why, but she already knows her answer to those three words.
Maybe it's because of the Omega in the peak of her heat in front of her. Or it's the way Himiko's pheromones and scent wrap around her mind and draw out her instincts as an alpha to protect a vulnerable omega that could be a potential mate. Maybe it's the way Himiko's almost completely naked and looks so vulnerable and frail in this moment as she's clinging on to her. Ochako feels like she needs to protect Himiko and keep her safe from everything in the world that could hurt her. Maybe it's the way Himiko's looking at her like she's the most valuable thing to her in the world, something that no one's ever done before and it makes her heart hammer inside her chest like it's about to burst. Maybe she's finally lost her mind and is making crazy decisions or maybe she's under the nightingale effect.
Maybe all of that is why she makes the mistake of saying those words, of making that promise that Ochako knows she can't fulfill no matter how much himiko wants her to.
"Okay, I'll love you himiko" Then the next moment Ochako feels himiko pull her downwards before she feels soft lips press into her own. It's a soft and desperate kiss that feels like the energy in Himiko's body is fading away and that frightens her so much. She doesn't want Himiko to die, she wants to save her, she wants her to live no matter the cost.
Thoughts start to fill her head, dumb stupid thoughts that would only put himiko in more danger but they are all her stupid alpha brain can come up with right now.
Himiko's in the peak of her heat right now, maybe if they-, no that's wrong she would be taking advantage of her if they did that. She wouldn't do that, it's not right! But the more they kiss and the more she feels himiko's temperature grow hotter and hotter from the little skin they share the more Ochako's inhibitions begin to slip away.
Himiko needs help, now before it's too late there's no time for second thoughts. That's what her mind is screaming at her, both conscious and unconscious, her inner alpha and logical side, they are all yelling in unison to help her no matter the cost to herself or anything else that will happen.
Ochako comes to a decision, a dumb stupid decision made in the heat of the moment that will end up costing the both of them everything. But she doesn't care as long as she gets to feel Himiko's heart beat in her chest telling her she's alive and her breath on her lips. Himiko's fingers feel like there's something wrong with them and there's a paleness to her face as Ochako finally pulls away from the kiss to look at her.
Himiko begins to cry again because the Omega girl can't stand to spend a moment separated from her and they both know it. What her body demands from the both of them and if she doesn't get it what will happen to himiko, what is happening to himiko.
Ochako takes mercy on Himiko and cups her cheek gently before pulling her close and asking her those important words she needs to hear. No, she has to hear no matter what.
"Himiko, do you want this?" Ochako waits patiently for her answer and depending on it she will run to the nurse's office as fast as she can and hope she's not too late to bring help back, or she will give herself over to himiko and fulfill her promise to love her no matter what it takes. She waits only a moment and sees himiko nod even though it's painful for her.
"Yes, please I want-, I need you ochako" Himiko's voice cracks and breaks as she whimpers those words towards the alpha girl who has finally come to a decision about what she will do now.
"Okay Himiko I'll be gentle" Then Ochako presses a gentle kiss against Himiko's forehead and touches her fingertips against her back to activate her quirk. Himiko becomes weightless and she seems to panic for a moment until ochako grabs her and pulls Himiko into her chest.
"Hold on I'm just putting you on the bed it's okay" Ochako feels himiko begin to tighten around her as she guides her over to the bed before setting her down on top of her pillows and blankets. Being so close to himiko she can feel the way her body and inner omega seem to become appeased by where she put her and a bit of energy comes back to her. She knows that the reason why is because himiko needs a nest and her bed seems to be where she wants to make it.
Maybe if she helps make her a nest she'll feel better? But she doesn't know if she has enough stuff lying around to make one. Ochako deactivates her quirk and makes sure himiko is as comfortable as she can while she still clings to her.
"Himiko are you okay?" Ochako feels himiko's grip on her getting weaker and weaker and it makes her more and more worried with each second that passes.
"Everything is getting dark ochako, I... I feel numb" Ochako feels pain and worry shoot through her heart and she becomes extremely anxious.
"I'll get you some water himiko I'll be right back just hold on please" she doesn't even have to fight to pull himiko's arms off of her as they fall to her side almost lifelessly. Ochako quickly rushes over to grab a bottle of water and brings it back to himiko before opening it and raising Himiko's head so she can drink from it. The moment it touches Himiko's lips she begins to drink like she hasn't had a single drop of water in years. She takes such large gulps that ochako has to slow her down so she doesn't choke.
When the bottle is finished Ochako pulls it away and finds that himiko looks a lot better and has more energy than before. She goes to get another bottle but then Himiko's hand grabs at her wrist.
"Ochako it hurts" Then Ochako watches as Himiko rubs her thighs together to try and ease the painful heat in her core "Please help me" She looks up and down Himiko's body and notices she's gained back a fair bit of energy.
"I'll get you some more water himiko hang on I'll-" but then the grip on her wrist turns bruising for a moment before the energy fades and her hand begins to shake instead.
"I can't stand it anymore please ochako!" Himiko's voice begins to crack again as more tears begin to form in her eyes. "This is my last request, please Ochako" Himiko's voice is quiet and somber. She is desperate as she says those words because Himiko truly believes she is going to die soon.
Ochako bites her tongue because those words don't make her sad, no they make her angry, so angry that she grabs himiko by the shoulders and pins her to the bed as she looks down at her.
"No!" Ochako's eyes are filled with anger as she looks at the omega girl beneath her but it's not Himiko she's angry at it's the words she said. "Himiko you're not going to die, I won't allow it I promise you" but that sadness still remains in those beautiful amber eyes of hers.
Ochako decides to reach deep down and say those words she never thought she would ever say to a villain before, especially to Himiko. But she already promised to do it, to love her, she promised her and she won't go back on her word. No matter what happens now she will accept her choice and accept himiko because she made the decision to say those words to her, to make that promise to love her. Even if she said it in the heat of the moment and she may not have been thinking clearly because of so many reasons that she can't even count anymore. It doesn't matter right now, himiko needs help, she needs her. So she'll give every last bit of herself over to himiko if that's what it takes.
Ochako presses their foreheads together and can feel the burning of himiko's skin against her own. She can't even imagine the amount of pain himiko is in right now and she's probably been like this for hours even before coming to her room. That just makes her heart hurt more for the other girl and strengthens her resolve as she speaks those words himiko wants to hear.
"Let me love you himiko" Ochako can see tears running down himiko's cheeks again and she wants to wipe them away. She almost does but then himiko speaks.
"Please. Before I die... I want to spend my last moments with you." Ochako grits her teeth as she feels a low growl rumbling in the back of her throat. She can't help but wrap her hands around himiko's cheeks and pull them both close until they are face to face. Ochako's eyes are filled with a desperate intensity as she holds himiko's face in her palms.
"Himiko you are not going to die i promise you-"
"But-" Before Himiko can even speak those doubts in her heart ochako says those words she shouldn't be saying. She can't be saying because the promise she is making is too great and more than she can handle and she knows it. Ochako knows it so much but she's so damn stupid and she lets her heart speak before she can stop it.
She says it.
She says it before she can stop herself. Before she can even think otherwise. Ochako says those words like she actually means them and she's not even sure if she does or not. But none of that matters anymore cause all that she can think about is the girl in front of her that she's holding like fragile glass. Ochako can't help but think her mind is starting to finally break and give in to Himikos scent and pheromones because for some reason in this moment, she finds her so beautiful. Those words fall from Ochako's lips so naturally she really believes she's confessing her love for her.
Maybe she is.
I am.
"Because I'll love you for the rest of my life, so don't you dare give up on me himiko. I don't want to be alone so please stay with me, please" Ochako feels tears start to sting her own eyes. She wants to beg and plead for Himiko to say yes, for their to be some way himiko will be all right even though her body burns like fire and her heat is so far gone. She doesn't know if anything will help her now but she still wants to try to save her.
Then she hears himiko speak.
"You love me?" Ochako doesn't even hesitate anymore as she speaks before she can even think.
"Yes, I do"
"Would you give me your blood if I asked for it?" Himiko's eyes are filled with something she's never seen in them before now, hope. Ochako doesn't even hesitate as she says "yes" even though she knows what himiko can do with her blood and how dangerous it is to give it to her, for both herself and others. But the way Himiko's eyes light up with energy and life comes back to her face the moment she says yes makes her heart flutter. It makes all those dangers and things she should be concerned about not even matter anymore because she'd say yes again a thousand times if it made Himiko this happy.
Happy, that's what she is as those pretty pink lips turn upwards into a small but weary smile as Himiko speaks.
"You would?" Himiko asks it like ochako is telling her a lie that is too good to be true, but the alpha girl just gently rubs the edges of Himiko's lips with her thumbs.
"Yes, i promise himiko" Ochako's words seem to strike something deep inside of himiko, something she doesn't know but can tell is deeply important to her. Himiko begins to smile so wide and beautifully, she exposes those sharp fangs that ochako doesn't know the painful history behind but finds she wants to call them beautiful just like the girl they belong to. Ochako watches as new but happy tears start to fall down Himiko's cheeks and she wastes no time before beginning to wipe them away.
She doesn't like it when himiko cries and would do anything to never see her in pain again.
To think just a day ago she couldn't stand the thought of himiko toga or her actions, something must be wrong with her, maybe it's her being woken up in the middle of the night. Maybe it's because she's in a bed with a very beautiful and almost naked omega in the peak of her heat. Maybe its himiko's scent filled with pheromones affecting her mind. Maybe it's her inner alpha responding to having a potential mate so close to her, or maybe her rut is starting and himiko triggered it. Ochako doesn't know what she would do if that last one happened and she doesn't want to think about pups right now.
All she wants to focus on right now is himiko.
Her mate.
She doesn't even get time to process that thought that went through her head or what it meant as himiko speaks to her in such a vulnerable and fragile voice.
"Can I-, can I have your blood?" Himiko's words sound weary and cautious but also hopeful and eager, like she's been waiting her entire life for this moment. Her eyes are red-rimmed from crying and focused entirely on her as she waits for Ochako's answer.
She can't do anything but say "yes" to Himiko and watch as that smile she likes, loves, becomes so wide it almost reaches her eyes. It fills her chest with warmth to see Himiko like this, smiling and happy because of something she did.
Thoughts start to fill her head of spending a lifetime making moments like these happen with himiko and Ochako feels something new beginning to bloom inside her chest. She doesn't know what it is or what it means but it feels, nice, and like something she wants, something she's always wanted. She doesn't know why she wants it especially now of all times, but something inside her wants it, this with Himiko more than anything else in the world right now.
Ochako sees the eager look in himiko's eyes and remembers what she said, she quickly raises her wrist for himiko to take her blood from.
"Here take it-" but then she feels arms wrap around her neck and pull her down together. Himiko buries her face into her neck and breathe in her scent. Ochako blushes as her body goes stiff and a sense of something fills her whole body, is it panic? Urgency? Fear? She doesn't know.
But it gets even more confusing when she feels himiko press a kiss on her neck right where her scent gland is and, oh, so many feelings flood through her body with that single action. She doesn't even know where to begin describing them.
But she knows what himiko is doing right now, she's an omega in the peak of her heat and Himiko has her mouth pressed right up against her scent gland. Anybody could see what that meant no matter who they were, himiko wants to claim her and to mark Ochako as her mate.
She should stop this from happening because this is a decision that can't be undone no matter what. It means they will be bound for life together. She should stop Himiko before she bites her, no she needs to stop her because there's so many reasons why they can't claim each other, too many reasons, but...
Ochako feels himiko's soft tongue lick at that sensitive spot on her neck causing her to shiver and she can't resist as her arms wrap around the omega girl.
"Himiko" Then she hears himiko's voice and feels her warm breath against her neck.
"You'll love me forever, right?" Himikos voice is different from before. It isn't weary or cautious nor is it filled with mischief or that manic energy its usually like when they first met. No, Himiko's voice is serious. This isn't a game or something trivial, this is a moment that will define the both of them going forward. This is himiko's way of telling her if she's lying or if this is all just some game to her then to just stop right now before they both make a mistake they can't come back from.
A part of Ochako feels relief that she gets this chance to say no, that she gets to keep her life the same and everything will just go back to normal because she doesn't have to be with himiko.
But another part of her, a part of her that doesn't want to listen to that side of her doesn't feel relief with those words. Instead, she feels anxiety wrack her body as the overwhelming desire to say yes fills her lungs and burns her mouth.
Ochako feels conflicted for a brief moment until the words that she said to himiko fill her head and those promises she made to her wrap around her heart. Even though it would be so easy to give in and say no, to go back to her word from before tonight and for everything to return to normal again, she won't do it. Because she made those promises, she said those words, she's the one that was willing to give her love away, even if there were things that were influencing her and made her do it, even if she may not be thinking straight anymore and the only reason she is doing any of this is because of himiko's heat, she doesn't care.
She doesn't care at all.
Because she promised to love Himiko for the rest of her life and she won't go back on her word no matter how painful this path may become.
Ochako pulls himiko close with her arms as she accepts what will happen now, that himiko has become her mate.
"Yes, I love you himiko, forever"
The moment she says those words Ochako feels himiko's teeth sink into her neck marking her as Himiko's mate forever. She feels the way warmth fills her body as the telltale signs of what had been buried beneath the surface come to life.
Her inner alpha is now awake and now, now her rut has begun.