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"Jisungie~"
Jisung turn away from his homework. "Hi, Hyung" He gave a small smile and continue doing his homework. Jaemin smile softly and give a small peck on his cheek.
"Ahh, Hyung. I am doing homework right now" Jisung sighed and push his face away slightly.
Jaemin pouted. "You always hate my love for you but it's okay! I have my lele~ Bye bye sungie!" The older guy run away without even letting Jisung speak.
Jisung look at his now close door before turning back to his book. It just a slight overthinking.
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"Jisung! Dinner is ready!" He heard one of his boyfriend shouted. Jisung stand from his bed and walk to the dining table.
He sees Jeno and Jaemin pinching Chenle's cheek while they were both laughing to the younger whines.
Jisung swallow the lumps on his throat and sit at his normal seat which were beside Chenle. "Ah, sungie. I want to sit beside Chenle so can you sit beside Nana?" Jeno asked.
The younger still and walk to Jeno's chair without saying anything. "Eh?~ but I want to sit beside Chenle too" Jaemin whined.
"Well, I asked first so you can sit here tomorrow " Jeno rolled his eyes jokingly.
Jaemin pouted sulkily while sitting beside Jisung. The maknae bite the inside of his cheek silently. "Thank you for the food!" They all said in unison.
Both of the older guys start feeding Chenle while joking with him. Jisung feels out of place so he quickly eat, wash his dirty dishes and walk back to his room.
"Nono, let's cuddle?" Jaemin asked with pleading eyes and Jeno just laughed but still cuddle onto him.
Chenle come back from the kitchen and jump on them with a giggle.
Park Jisung stare at his boyfriends from afar. The older boyfriends is teasing and cuddling onto Chenle.
He sighed mentally. He doesn't want to make this hard for his boyfriends by talking it out. He hate deep talks.
"Gosh, you're so cute, Lele~~" Jaemin sang out loudly. Chenle just chuckled and cuddle close to his boyfriend.
The door then open and everyone knows that it is their oldest boyfriend. "Nono~" Jaemin called out. In a minute, a figure walk to them with a big smile.
"Hi Sungie" Jeno give a peck on Jisung's cheek and continue doing that to his boyfriends, expect that their kiss is on their lips.
"Jeno Hyung... Let's cuddle?" Jisung asked in a small voice.
"Alright. I will just change my clothes, okay?" Jeno said in a soft voice before leaving them to walk to his bedroom.
After about fifteen minutes, his figure comes back and he flopped between Jaemin and Jisung. "Come here, Ji" He open his arm wide and the younger cuddle onto his body.
The four boyfriends continue to cuddle while watching some movie on the Netflix. Jisung doesn't care that much about the movie and after a few minutes into the movie, he started to fall asleep.
Jisung cough and sit up on the couch quickly. He feels very cold and he started to look for his boyfriends. Only to see the three of them cuddle with each other on their sleep.
He bites his lip and stand up, walking to the kitchen with an heavy heart. He grab a glass to treat his sore throat but because his hand in shaking uncontrollably without any reason, it crash onto the ground. Making it shattered into pieces.
The sound is too loud until he, himself, flinched. Jisung sighed in disappointment and kneels down to clean the pieces.
"What the hell, Jisung?!" He flinched at the sudden voice, making he clench his hand unconsciously without realizing about the glass.
He hissed in pain, letting go of the glass which were wet with his newly blood.
Jeno sighed and kneels in front of the younger. "Go treat it. I will clean up" He said, sounding like trying to held back his anger.
Jisung silently grab the first-aid kit on the kitchen cabinet before walking to the bathroom.
After treating his hand, he walked back to the kitchen to send back the first-aid kit. Only to hear about something that makes his heart shattered.
"Jisung clumsiness is too much seriously" He knows that voice. It is Jeno. "Well, what can we do? He is Jisung. He is useless on this kind of things " Jaemin...
"But it's your favorite glass and he broke it..." Chenle said sympathize with the older.
Jeno huffed in annoyance. "He's so annoying" Jisung accidentally let go of the first-aid kit because of the shocked of hearing Jeno's tone and words.
All of his boyfriends turned quickly in shocked. "Ji—" "DON'T COME CLOSE!" Jisung shouted when Jeno tried to walk to him.
His eyes is getting teary. Jaemin tried to comfort him by whispering comforting words but Jisung eyes just lost control and everything becomes blurry with tears.
"Don't! Don't come close!! STAY AWAY!!" He shouted loudly, the loudest volume he ever let out in his life, probably.
His boyfriends flinched in shocked at the volume. "Ji... Shh .. It's okay... Calm down" Jaemin whisper but loud enough for everyone to hear.
"No... No, no, no, no" Jisung keep muttering while clutching his head , shutting his eyes. He tried to compose himself and turn away.
"I want to see my hyung" He muttered and run away from these house. Jisung walk fast to his brother's house which were only about 10 minutes away.
He ignores the stares he get from the passerby. After a long time, he sighed in relief after arriving in front of the familiar house.
He punch the bell button repeatly. Even though he know it is probably annoying, his usual attack is starting to get over him so he panicked.
The door finally open. "Who the fu—" Renjun stopped after seeing his boyfriend's brother pale face and quickly bring him to his arms.
"Take a deep breath, Ji. Focus on my voice, okay?" Renjun said in a hushed whispers while pulling him inside the house, closing the door with his feet and bring the younger guy to the living room.
Renjun doesn't let go of Jisung, even when they sat on the couch. "Follow —— uctions, okay? —— let the—— hold yo—" It keeps getting blurry and the world spinning that he clutch on the older's hold.
"shit... Jisung, come o—— JISU—" Jisung finally fell limp on the guy's arms.
Jisung slowly open his eyes and groaned at the lights. He brings a hand to cover his face. "Ji?"
He open his eyes again and after seeing his brother's worried look, he started crying again. "Hyung..." He sobbed out and Donghyuck hugged him right away.
"Shhh .. it's okay. Hyung is here.. no one will hurt you" He whisper out comforting the younger.
After fifteen minutes of crying and comforting, Jisung finally calmed down. "Good now, Sungie?" Jisung nodded at the question while looking at his older brother.
He finally realized the patch on the older's cheek. "You got into fight again?" He laughed with his hoarse voice, probably from all the crying.
Donghyuck just smiled. "Renjun Hyung is not angry with you getting into fight?" Jisung asked while playing with his hyung's fingers.
"Nope. Renjun is the one who instructed me to beat him up" Jisung stopped his motions and look at his hyung.
"You beat up my boyfriend?" He asked in disbelief. Donghyuck shrugged nonchalantly. "They deserves it "
Jisung just stayed silent. "Do you want to meet them now?" Donghyuck asked after sensing his muteness. "I don't want to. I hate it" Jisung close his face with his hair.
"It's okay, just wait until you really can but... You should talk with them, okay? Even if you hate deep talks, you have to" Donghyuck said comforting words with a smile.
Jisung just nodded. The older guy patted his head and stand up. "Want dinner?" Jisung shook his head. "Want to sleep" He cuddle onto the blanket.
Donghyuck just hummed. "Alright, goodnight baby" He close the light and walk out from the bedroom.
Jisung snuggle into the blanket and fell asleep quickly.
It's been two weeks and Jisung still haven't talked with his boyfriends yet. Though he always see them at the college.
Jisung know that they want to talk with him, especially after seeing their nearly teary eyes.
"Maybe you should just talk it out with them, Ji" Mark said like it is a fact. "But Hyung... What if they think I'm just overreacting?.." Jisung muttered hesitantly.
"Hear me out. If you're overreacting and they think like that, then that's mean they're just assholes and they don't deserve you" The younger just look down, still not reassure with himself.
"Don't be scared to talk it out with them. Be scared of losing them if you don't"
After a long talk with his close friend senior,he decided to talked with them.
And that's why he is in front of their shared house right now. Jisung take a deep breath and let it out with a straight face.
He take out his house keys and open it using them. He is sure that they heard the noise and know who is it.
Jisung walk inside the house and lock the door, taking off his shoes, like his normal routine to do.
"Jisung..."
He look and see Jeno with a scared but relief expression. He hold back himself from crying and say "Let's talk, Hyung. With Jaemin Hyung and Chenle" with a blank face.
"Ah— le- let me call them first, okay?" Jeno stutter but with a weak smile which makes Jisung nearly feel guilty. Nearly.
After everyone gather on the living room, Jisung let out a deep sigh. "I've made my decision" He said but before he could continue, Jeno kneel down with tears in his eyes.
"I'm sorry! It's my fault! Everything is my fault so please ... Please don't break up with Chenle and Jaemin... It's not their fault. I will accept everything and break up with all of you. Just don't leave.." He sobbed out while shaking. Gripping Jisung's pants in despair.
"Jeno..." " Hyung..." Jaemin and Chenle said with a sad look.
Jisung just look coldly at the guy. "Should I then?" He said with empty face and cold voice, making all of them flinched in surprised.
"Ye... Yes... I will grab everything and move away" Jeno let out in a hoarse voice.
It becomes silent for a while. Jaemin seems like he want to speak out but he hold it back. Chenle's tears already gather on his eyes. They already talk about it. Jisung thought.
Jisung sighed loudly in the silence. He hold Jeno's shoulders, patting it lightly. "Stand up, Hyung"
"Nuh...." Jeno's voice was muffled by the pants which makes Jisung let out a little chuckle. "Hyung, I am not angry so stand up"
"No! I don't do this because you're angry at me, I do this because this is all my fault" Jeno cried out, his wailed and hoarse sobs makes Jisung frowned.
"Hyung, it's really okay. I just want to talk so please sit down on the couch, okay?" He said with a gentle tone.
Jeno finally stand up and sit beside him. His face is red and tears still not dried from his eyes. Jaemin secretly handed him the tissues.
"I was hurt"
Jisung look at them with a sad smile. "You guys neglected me. I was very hurt. You don't even talk to me about my day, reject to sit beside me and only focusing on Chenle" He let out everything he feels.
"Ji..." Chenle look at him with a shocked and guilty expression.
"I don't say this to blame you, Lele. I just want all of you to be fair with affection. What hurts the most was when you guys talked bad about me behind my back. I was so scared by the neglectful actions and more hurt when you said that I am annoying"
Jeno flinched at the words because he knows that it is his fault.
"I got panicked. I feel like you guys will break up with me at that time so I had panic attack. Even worse, I fainted because of that. I got sick, of course, after that. I.... Shit..."
Jisung can't continue his words because he started to cry. "I don't want to cry. I hate deep talks. It just make me feel weak" He closed his eyes with his palm.
A hands pull his hands away from his eyes. Jisung look at the figure with his blurry eyes. Chenle just smile weakly while wiping his tears.
"It's okay, Ji. It's okay to be weak" He muttered and bring the younger into a hug. Jisung clutch onto his shirt and silently sobbing.
"Please ... Just don't kick me away just like that" He muttered but loud enough for them to heard it.
He feel a shift beside him and another behind him. The two pairs of arms bring him into a warm hug so he started to cry louder.
"We're sorry"
"I'm sorry..."
After the crying session, the couple was cuddling on the wide bed . Jisung snuggle his head on Jaemin's chest, Chenle on his other side while Jeno hug Chenle from behind—arm spreading to Jisung.
"I miss cuddling like this, honestly" Chenle muttered out. "Hm?" Jisung let out sleepily and the Chinese guy chuckled before looking at him with a regret expression.
"I know we all abandoned you but I thought that maybe you just need time because you're busy with the assignment as a freshman. I guess... I was wrong. Very" Chenle bury his face on Jisung's shoulder— his shoulders slightly shaking.
"Lele..." His boyfriends look at him comfortingly.
Jisung just smile and mess with his hair. "You stupid" "I'm not!" Chenle's head shoot up—bump into Jeno's chin.
The noise makes Jaemin and Jisung winched. Jeno sniffed with his eyes widened. Chenle keeps apologizing. "Thank you for being thoughtful but really, I just need you guys for comfort.. even if I push you away" Jisung muttered with a soft smile.
"Aww, you're so cute. I love you" Jaemin said while keep giving kiss on the guy's back head. Jisung whined but still keeping his smile.
"It's WE love you" Jeno corrected the younger. The youngest just chuckled. "I love you all too"
Jisung know it is the right choice to talked, not to run away like he always did.