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it hurt to be alone. it didn’t just hurt. loneliness cut deep through Miyano’s skin, piercing him like a thousand sharp daggers.
Miyano hadn’t seen Sasaki for a week. He longed for the soft touch of the tips of his hair, his stupidly loving smile, his lanky frame that Miyano would cling to for hours. He misses the chaste kisses that would occur in public, the blood rushing to his cheeks and the creases in his senpai’s face when he would chuckle at the sight of his red-faced boyfriend.
Dragging himself to his room, Miyano shut the door and sat on his bed, hoping for some form of escapism in BL. However, this had an adverse effect: every page reminding him of his relationship, the cliché high school volumes becoming more and more relatable. Even reminiscing in the start of their slow burning relationship was painful. It was almost unbearable how much Miyano wanted to clasp onto Sasaki’s waist and never let go. His hands ached for something to hold. Especially considering the stressful pace that Miyano’s life is taking, with him reaching end of year exams, a simple talk or hug with his boyfriend would be enough to alleviate his pent up anxiety. But Miyano didn’t want to worry Sasaki- he already had enough on his plate considering his family bakery and his own exams as well.
With a large sigh, Miyano shut his BL, his head hung low. A sharp ringing cut through the atmosphere; a ringtone Miyano knew all too well.
“Mya-chan! How are you doing?” An exasperated older voice asked endearingly into the phone.
Wow. How long Miyano waited to hear Sasaki’s voice, full of charm and adoration for his boyfriend.
“Shuumei. I missed you so much! I’m doing well, how are you?”
“It’s going great at the bakery. I think I’ll be able to come round later today, if that’s alright. I know you’re busy studying and I don’t want to inter-“
“That’s fine!” Miyano interjected.
Thank God. The fact Sasaki would even suggest that Miyano wouldn’t want him to come to his house was absurd. Sasaki’s thoughtfulness made Miyano’s love for him expand a slight more and this made his anticipation grow.
A background voice was heard on the phone, presumably calling for Sasaki’s presence on the register.
“Okay, great. Love you, Yoshikazu. See you later!”
The use of his first name made the warmth in Miyano’s cheeks darken.
“Love you too Shuumei.” He said as he ended the call.
Miyano can’t remember a time when he wasn’t smothered in love from his boyfriend. Being fully appreciated and adored by another being is a transcendent and powerful experience, especially for Miyano, who spent years of his life insecure of his typically feminine looks. To be recognised as who he is and not what he appears to be by such a gorgeous individual and to be lucky enough to call him his boyfriend, was reward enough for Miyano.
Hours pass by with Miyano idly waiting by his door, listening intently for a knock from Sasaki. He tried to study or watch some anime to get his mind off of Sasaki, but he found that any attempt were futile to rid him of his touch-starved self.
Knock Knock
Miyano jumped and swiftly unlocked the door to welcome his boyfriend into the house.
Sasaki was dressed in a warm coat and a plaid scarf, looking cuddly as always. The sight of his boyfriend actually in front of him at Miyano in shock, but he quickly got over it as he embraced his boyfriend with a tight hug.
“Yoshi? Aren’t you going to let me in?” Sasaki teased as he sensed Miyano’s clinginess.
“Uh…Oh yes, of course” Miyano mumbled as he moved aside so Sasaki could put his shoes in the genkan.
After Sasaki put his coat and shoes away, Miyano practically dragged him onto the sofa to hug him.
“Hey Mya-chan? Are you alright?” Sasaki enquired with a. hint of worry in his voice.
Miyano looked up at him, love pooling in his eyes, and nodded his head.
“Just missed you,” Miyano mumbled against Sasaki’s shoulder.
Sasaki kissed the top of Miyano’s head and smoothed out his hair.
“Missed you too.” Sasaki sighed, “Want to read some BL?”
“Can we stay like this for a while?” Miyano asked, his head snuggling into Sasaki’s chest.
With such a precious boyfriend cuddling you, how could a man say no?
“Of course.” Sasaki said, pressing a kiss onto Miyano’s cheek as they stayed there, content and happy with the warm presence of one another