My sweetheart, where are you?

Two hopeless romantics lay in their own beds while waiting for their lucky ones. Mina and Nayeon separately sings out a tune to the sky above with the song they’re both familiar with.
Title and inspiration is from Someone To Spend Time With by Los Retros.

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A new day, another day to feel the need to be loved. Is it a need or perhaps it’s a want? Is love considered to be given when you start to look for it? Mina thinks if one falls in love, life sucks less. To find someone who loves you a lot, enough to open the door for you. If one loves eating pistachios, get you a person who loves you enough to peel pistachios for you. Sure, waking up in the morning is a blessing but what better way to start the day besides getting breakfast? To have your person by your side.

Mina used to despise physical touch or intimacy in general. When she was a little girl, smooches from either her parents or brother everywhere on her face, expect Mina to instantly wipe the remnants of salivas they have left. Pretty gross, I know. From the early age and during adolescence Mina does not have a single cell to strive for any physical touch. Mina craves for intimacy as opposed to her previous years on her life, which she declines any gestures that will lead to being all so soft and closeness.

“Every other goddamn night before going to bed, casual intimacy kills me. Romantic gestures are wonderful, but just seeing two people who are absolutely at comfort with having each other in their universe, who don't hesitate to lean into each other and hold each other while doing random things... that is everything I would ever want.”

Now Mina wakes up singing alone on her bed, thinking about the day if she ever find that lucky one person for her whole being.

Wake up alone,

In the morning, with no one at my side

Could it be

I’ve waited too long

Waiting for the lucky one

At 3 in the morning, Nayeon finds herself scrolling through an Instagram page. The post reads, “Find someone who- well how about THEY find ME” Sighing discontentedly, she unconsciously agrees. Nayeon turns around at the other side of her bed, hopelessly find the warmth she mostly needs at late hours like these. Turning to look at her side, there’s nobody to look at. No person will ever hold her the way she wants to be held. It was way easier before, clinging to her favourite blanket to make her fall asleep is a bliss. Now the tables have turned and even with the blanket Nayeon loves the most will never warm her heart.

Nayeon do prays sometimes that she’d be rather in a movie than to exist in reality. Because in films, scriptwriters must prepare the words that needed to be said and viewers will just have to wait for the falling in love action to appear. You have a director to depend on and the next glimpse of it would be everything and nothing is happening at the same time and the end credits will roll. Unless the writer doesn’t include any action of getting the characters be together and that’s that.

"I'd give anything, absolutely anything, to see you out there." I hope I still have a soul by the time you come, whoever or wherever you are.”

Back in bed

It's 3 AM with no one at my side

It gets real cold

Because these blankets

Will never warm my heart

Mina and Nayeon tirelessly tossing and turning on their sleep. Maybe in both of their dreams, if ever they do dream, do dreams have a bridge of connection? A possibility of having a wired connection to your soulmate? By the time they lock eyes in the moment, struggling to clench at least a fiber of their being, they both wake up. Not having a single recollection of what had happened. Maybe they have met on their unconscious minds, already finding the someone to spend time with. Or dreams are just a series of fortunate events but the realization of never experiencing the same thing again never comes.