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Xie Lian had been homeschooled for his entire life. However, his parents thought it would be good for him to interact more with others his own age. Despite Xie Lian's apprehension, they applied him to one of the best boarding schools in the country.

After a grueling exam and a few months of waiting, the school accepted Xie Lian as a student.

In the summer, Xie Lian and his parents toured the school to ease the difficult transition. Xie Lian was extremely nervous about living away from his parents and attending school for the first time. However, as the tour progressed, Xie Lian started to feel a bit excited. The school grounds were open and inviting. 

The dorms weren’t as frightening as Xie Lian feared; they were actually quite nice. The first floor was a shared space. There were rooms for group studying and a recreation room with a few TV’s and various games, though it was only open on the weekends. There was also a laundry room and a large communal bathing room.

As the last part of the tour, Xie Lian was able to meet a few of his new teachers. They were all very polite and kind. For some reason, his conversation with his history teacher stood out from the rest.

“I’m Jun Laoshi, I’ll be teaching your history class. What’s your name?”

“Xie Lian.”

Behind him, Xie Lian’s parents were discussing dinner plans rather than listen to what they assumed was just another introduction.

Jun Laoshi smiled softly, “That’s a nice name. How old are you, Xie Lian?”

None of the other teachers had done more than exchange names, but Xie Lian answered eagerly, “Almost 14. My birthday is next week.”

There was a look in Jun Laoshi’s eyes that Xie Lian was too young and naive to understand.

“Really? Well, happy early birthday then.”

Xie Lian beamed, “Thank you, Jun Laoshi!” 

Before either could say anything else, Xie Lian’s mother called him over, “Lian-er, would you eat anything here?” His mother held out her phone, displaying a menu from a fine dining restaurant.

Xie Lian’s face flushed at the childish nickname and his own pickiness. Then, he heard a soft chuckle and felt his face heat even more. Xie Lian turned back to Jun Laoshi for a brief moment. His insides twisted with embarrassment and fluttered with…well, he wasn’t quite sure what to call the other feeling.

The rest of the day passed by quickly, and soon, Xie Lian was lying in his bed, trying to fall asleep. His mind kept wandering back to that brief conversation. Jun Laoshi seemed really nice.

That night he dreamed about Jun Laoshi’s smile.

The rest of the summer passed by in a blur. Finally, it was time for Xie Lian to move into the dorms. Xie Lian’s parents came to help Xie Lian bring his things to his room. When they entered  the lobby, they were greeted by the resident teacher, who would look after the students and ensure the dorm rules were followed.

“Jun Laoshi…” Xie Lian’s arms were full, but he bowed as best as he was able.

“Ah, hello, Xie Lian.”

Xie Lian’s mother asked a few questions, but Xie Lian didn’t pay much attention to Jun Laoshi’s answers. He was too distracted by his own erratic heartbeat. A few moments later, Xie Lian’s parents finished bringing his belongings to his room.

His room was on the second floor, the same floor as Jun Laoshi’s room. It wasn’t far of a walk either. Then, Xie Lian shook his head. He didn’t have any reason to be thinking about the short distance between his room and Jun Laoshi’s room.

Xie Lian’s parents had paid extra to guarantee a private room. They didn’t want him to share a room with a stranger. Quietly, Xie Lian was grateful for that. He was excited for the opportunity to make friends his own age, but sharing a room felt like too much.

After a long hug from his mother and many promises to call her weekly, Xie Lian’s parents left. Classes wouldn’t start until tomorrow, so Xie Lian explored the common areas of the dorm and tried his best to make friends.

The first few weeks of school were surprisingly fine. Xie Lian missed having the undivided attention of his tutor, but he was starting to get used to it. So far, history class with Jun Laoshi was his favorite part of the day.

Xie Lian had never disliked history, but he was usually more drawn to other humanities like philosophy and art. Yet now, he spent more time studying for his history class than he did for his core classes. He wanted to be ready to answer any question Jun Laoshi might ask. Jun Laoshi usually gave occasional praise when a student answered a question, but Xie Lian had noticed that Jun Laoshi always commented on his answers.

“Nicely done, Xie Lian.”

“Excellent work, Xie Lian.”

Just early today, Xie Lian was the only one to get a perfect score on a test. This had earned him a new line of praise that kept repeating in his head.

“I can tell you studied very hard. I’m proud of you, Xie Lian.”

That night, Xie Lian dreamed of Jun Laoshi’s praise. His dream was a blur of soft words, but he recognized Jun Laoshi’s voice, telling him he was good.

“You’re always such a good boy for me, Xie Lian.”

Xie Lian jolted awake. His limbs were tangled in his sheets. His mouth was dry, and his pants were very…not dry.

Heat rushed to his face. He couldn’t have possibly had an accident. He hadn’t had that problem since he was very little. Xie Lian crawled out of bed to peel off his sticky clothes. He fumbled in the darkness to flick the light on. He looked down at the mess left on his skin. It couldn’t have been pee because it was too creamy, but then…what was it?

Xie Lian filed the curiosity away for later. He cleaned himself as best he could using tissues and put on fresh clothes. He balled up his dirty clothes and tip-toed into the hall. He was just going to sneak into the laundry room to clean his clothes so no one else would see them.

Xie Lian had made it to the door of the stairwell when a deep voice made him freeze.

“Xie Lian, it’s past curfew,” Jun Laoshi had never sounded so disappointed before.

Xie Lian couldn’t run back to his room, so he tried to make an excuse that was only partly a lie. “I-I spilled something on my clothes, so I was going to wash them.”

The look of disappointment on Jun Laoshi’s face only grew, “Xie Lian, I’ve been teaching for many years. I know when a student is lying to me.”

Xie Lian’s face flushed with shame. He lowered his eyes to the ground and confessed, “I…think I had some kind of accident…”

Jun Laoshi glanced down at the bundle of clothing in Xie Lian’s hands. Xie Lian felt another wave of shame. There was no doubt that Jun Laoshi would see the creamy stains on his clothing.

At that moment, Jun Laoshi’s tone shifted to one of understanding. “Ahh, I see what happened. You didn’t have an accident. Your body is just changing.”

Xie Lian was relieved that he didn’t actually have an accident, but wait…

“Changing? How? Why?”

Instead of answering his questions, Jun Laoshi turned away from the stairwell. “The laundry room is locked at night. Come with me. I’ll let you use the washer in my room.”

Xie Lian followed as ordered. Inside, Xie Lian saw that Jun Laoshi’s room was more like an apartment. There was a small living area with a couch and a coffee table, a slightly cramped kitchen area, a bathroom, and bedroom.

Jun Laoshi turned to Xie Lian with his hands held out, “Let me put those in the wash for you.”

Xie Lian handed the dirty clothes to Jun Laoshi and watched him disappear into the bathroom. The door shut with a soft click. Several minutes later, Xie Lian heard the rumbling of the washing machine.

When Jun Laoshi came back, he reminded Xie Lian that it was past curfew. “You should go back to your room and get some sleep. I’ll leave your clothes outside your room in the morning.”

Xie Lian thanked Jun Laoshi and turned to leave. Just before he left though, he hesitated. He was still curious about what Jun Laoshi meant by his body ‘changing’.

“Umm…Jun Laoshi?”

“Yes, Xie Lian?”

Xie Lian shifted nervously, “You said my body was changing…what does that mean?”

Jun Laoshi gestured for Xie Lian to sit down on the couch, so Xie Lian did.

Jun Laoshi began, “Well, you’re getting older, and part of getting older means your body changes. With those changes, you develop…new needs, grown up needs.”

“How do I take care of those needs?” Xie Lian wondered.

Jun Laoshi was quiet for a moment before finally answering, “I could teach you if you’d like, but your classmates might be jealous. Can you keep it a secret?”

Xie Lian quickly swore that he would keep it a secret. He was excited for the chance to have Jun Laoshi’s attention focused solely on him.

“Before I can teach you, I’ll need you to tell me what you were dreaming about.”

Xie Lian shifted on the couch and stammered, “M-my dream? I…I was dreaming about…”

Jun Laoshi leaned just a little closer, “You can tell me.”

“You.”

Xie Lian was so ashamed that he had squeezed his eyes shut. He couldn’t see the look of surprise and satisfaction as Jun Laoshi contemplated his answer.

Nervously, Xie Lian asked, “Is that bad?”

“No, Xie Lian, that isn’t bad at all.” Jun Laoshi paused to brush a stray lock of Xie Lian’s hair behind his ear, “In fact, I think that’s quite good.”

After that Jun Laoshi insisted Xie Lian return to his room and sleep. He still had classes the next day after all.

The next morning, there was a small bag outside Xie Lian’s door. He brought it into his room before the other boys in the hall woke up.

Inside his room, Xie Lian opened the bag. As he expected, his clothes were freshly washed and neatly folded. However, when he went to put them away, he saw a small slip of paper hidden in the clothes.

“Come to my room an hour after curfew.”

Xie Lian remembered that his private lessons were supposed to be a secret, so he tore the note into tiny pieces.

The day passed by impossibly slowly, but finally, it was time. Xie Lian slipped out of his room and lightly tapped on Jun Laoshi’s door. A moment later, the door opened, and Jun Laoshi led him inside.

Jun Laoshi sat on the couch. When Xie Lian sat beside him, he asked, “Are you sure you want me to teach you how to take care of your body?”

Xie Lian answered eagerly, “Yes, please teach me, Laoshi.”

“Okay, then I’ll need you to be a good boy and listen to me.”

Xie Lian felt his insides flutter at Jun Laoshi’s words. He nodded, not trusting his voice enough to speak.

“Start with taking off your clothes.”

Xie Lian took off his shirt without hesitation. He had to take a steadying breath before sliding off his pants. All that was left was his underwear.

Xie Lian squirmed, “Everything?”

“Everything.”

Xie Lian felt his entire body heat up with embarrassment and a little bit of another emotion he didn’t know how to name. He finished undressing, but he couldn’t resist the urge to cover himself with his hands.

Jun Laoshi’s voice was gentle as he spoke, “You don’t have to hide yourself here. I’m teaching you how to take care of your needs, remember?”

Xie Lian shivered slightly but moved his hands away.

Jun Laoshi directed Xie Lian to sit back on the couch. As he did so, Jun Laoshi shifted so that he was kneeling on the floor in front of Xie Lian.

Jun Laoshi explained, “I’m going to do something that might seem a little strange, but I promise it will feel really good.”

“O-okay.”

Xie Lian watched with curiosity as Jun Laoshi moved his head down towards…towards…

“Whaa-ahhh!?” 

Xie Lian’s entire body arched as Jun Laoshi wrapped his mouth around his length. His lips pressed against the soft dark hairs, swallowing him completely. Xie Lian gasped and squirmed at the intense sensations, but he didn’t try to flee. His eyes nearly rolled back as he felt Jun Laoshi’s tongue sliding against his shaft and swirling around the tip.

“La-ahhh-laoshiiii!” Xie Lian cried out.

Jun Laoshi’s mouth slowly backed away. Xie Lian stared, curiosity turning into fascination as white fluid dribbled out the tip. He shuddered as Jun Laoshi’s tongue laved over the mess.

“You did such a good job, Xie Lian.”

Xie Lian melted at the praise, even though he was pretty sure he didn’t do much.

“Does your body feel satisfied now?” Jun Laoshi questioned.

Xie Lian nodded sleepily.

“Good. Just come to me anytime you need. I’ll take care of you and teach you anything you want to know.”

When Xie Lian’s body stopped feeling like lead, he redressed himself and returned to his room.

The next week and a half passed by fairly normally. However, every night, Xie Lian kept thinking about the way Jun Laoshi made him feel. That feeling was so good, and he really, really, wanted to feel like that again.

Xie Lian glanced at the digital clock on his bedside table. It was about an hour past curfew, just like Jun Laoshi had requested the first time. Could he really just knock on his door on any random night?

Xie Lian debated with himself for a few more minutes. Would it be rude to visit without being invited? But Jun Laoshi had said to come to him whenever Xie Lian needed. He needed it, so he should go, right? Xie Lian took a deep breath then tossed his blankets aside.

Xie Lian slipped out into the empty hallway and walked the short distance to Jun Laoshi’s door. He tapped on the door softly. Every second felt unbearably long until the door finally opened.

“Xie Lian, did you need something?” Jun Laoshi’s voice was light, almost teasing.

Xie Lian was too nervous to reply. 

Once the door was shut with a soft click, Jun Laoshi led him over to the couch. “You don’t have to be nervous, Xie Lian. I told you I would take care of you whenever you needed. Is that why you came here?”

Xie Lian tried not to let his voice waiver as he confessed, “Yes. Please, Laoshi.”

“Do you want me to do the same thing I did before?”

Were there other options? That was far too much for Xie Lian to consider at the moment. He had been thinking about the first time for so long. Perhaps next time, he could ask. For now, he simply nodded.

Within minutes, Xie Lian was naked on the couch with Jun Laoshi’s mouth on him.

“Laoshiiii…” Xie Lian whined.

Jun Laoshi’s mouth felt so good. Xie Lian’s spine arched and his eyes rolled back as wave after wave of pleasure rocked through his body. The waves grew stronger until Xie Lian felt like he was drowning, but he never wanted to stop. Suddenly, he felt like his body exploded.

Xie Lian was still breathless when Jun Laoshi’s mouth pulled away.

Jun Laoshi gave Xie Lian a soft smile, “Do you feel better now, Xie Lian?”

“Mm…yes, thank you, Laoshi…” Xie Lian sighed.

“Good.” Jun Laoshi stroked the side of Xie Lian’s face affectionately. “From now on, I’ll leave my door unlocked for you. As long as you wait until after curfew, you can just come in without knocking.”

“You don’t mind?” Xie Lian worried his visits might be annoying.

Jun Laoshi soothed his worries, “Of course I don’t mind. I promised to take care of you, remember?”

“Okay…” Xie Lian leaned into Jun Laoshi’s touch a bit longer.

When Xie Lian nearly drifted off to sleep, Jun Laoshi sent him back to his room.

For the next couple months, Xie Lian visited Jun Laoshi once or twice a week. During those visits, Jun Laoshi had explained things a little more to Xie Lian. He learned that the white fluid was come, and it meant he had orgasmed. Jun Laoshi said that was very good because it meant he was taking care of his needs.

However, for the past two weeks, Xie Lian hadn’t been able to visit Jun Laoshi. The first week, he was too busy stressing over an upcoming math test, though he ended up doing very well. The second week, he was too tired from working on an essay for his literary studies course. The night after he finally turned in his completed essay, he was so eager to visit Jun Laoshi that he snuck out of his room only 10 minutes after curfew.

When Xie Lian slipped into Jun Laoshi’s room, the sight that greeted him was far more than he expected. Usually, Jun Laoshi would be grading course work, reading, or listening to soft, classical music. This time however, Jun Laoshi was doing none of those things.

Jun Laoshi’s button up was draped open. His pants were discarded somewhere on the floor. His hand was wrapped around his…

Xie Lian forgot how to think.

“Laoshi…”

Jun Laoshi’s hand movements slowed, lazily stroking up and down. Xie Lian wandered further into the room, hypnotized by the rhythmic motions of Jun Laoshi’s hand. He fell to his knees before Jun Laoshi, wanting to copy the actions that Jun Laoshi always did for him.

“Laoshi…I want…” Xie Lian trailed off, unsure of the proper words.

“Go ahead.”

It was so much bigger…longer and thicker than his own. Xie Lian could barely wrap his hands around it. He tried to mimic the hand motions that Jun Laoshi was doing before. After moving his hands up and down a few times, a small bead of wetness formed at the tip. Curious, Xie Lian’s tongue darted out to taste it.

It was a little salty but not bad.

As his tongue rolled over the slit, Jun Laoshi sighed. Xie Lian wanted to hear more, so he swirled his tongue around the tip, then sucked it into his mouth. Jun Laoshi groaned. Xie Lian needed to hear more. He greedily tried to fit more into his mouth, but it was too much. He gagged, throat trying to instinctively block the intrusion. He jerked backwards, coughing and gasping.

Jun Laoshi pet Xie Lian’s hair, trying to soothe him. Xie Lian leaned into the touch for a moment before taking Jun Laoshi into his mouth again. He wanted to take him deeper, like how Jun Laoshi did for him, but he choked again. 

This time, over the sound of his own gagging, Xie Lian heard a breathy whisper.

“Fuck… just like that…”

Jun Laoshi liked it. Xie Lian couldn’t stop now! He bobbed his head up and down, taking it just as deep every time, even if it made his throat spasm. Suddenly, Jun Laoshi’s hand was resting on the back of his head, gently holding him in place.

A moment later, Xie Lian felt something thick and wet filling the back of his throat. He had made Jun Laoshi come. He swallowed so he wouldn’t choke.

The hand on the back of Xie Lian’s head moved away, so he moved back slightly. There was another spasm and more fluid spilled out, this time on his tongue.

Xie Lian had never considered what it tasted like every time he came in Jun Laoshi's mouth, but now, their roles were reversed. The taste was much more bitter than he was expecting. It was...kind of bad, actually. Still, it was already in his mouth, and Jun Laoshi always swallowed his come. Xie Lian forced down his hesitation and swallowed.

Jun Laoshi shifted on the couch, removing himself from Xie Lian's mouth. A small dribble of come must have spilled out because Jun Laoshi swiped his fingers from Xie Lian's chin up to his lips. Without thinking, Xie Lian parted his lips and cleaned the mess of Jun Laoshi's fingers.

Even after they tasted clean, Jun Laoshi kept his fingers inside Xie Lian's mouth, lightly rubbing against his tongue. When the fingers pulled away, Xie Lian wasn't sure what to think of the sudden feeling of emptiness.

“Laoshi…” Xie Lian murmured, for no particular reason other than wanting attention.

Jun Laoshi tucked his softening length back into his boxer briefs then guided Xie Lian into his lap.

“Come here, Xie Lian, I'll- oh? ” Jun Laoshi's words cut off as he pressed his hand into the front of Xie Lian's sleeping pants.

Xie Lian shuddered at the contact, feeling strangely sensitive and a little damp.

“I didn't think you would be able to come from just that. Did you enjoy it that much, Xie Lian?”

When did he...? Oh…

“Fuck...just like that…”

Xie Lian was so focused that he barely noticed the way his body trembled when Jun Laoshi whispered those words.

Xie Lian shifted nervously, “Is that...okay?”

“Better than okay.”

Jun Laoshi helped Xie Lian out of his dirty clothes and threw them in the wash. Jun Laoshi passed him a soft blanket and told him to rest until his clothes were washed and dried.

Some time later, Xie Lian woke to Jun Laoshi’s gentle touch.

“Mmn…Laoshi?”

“Your clothes are dry, here.”

The clothes were still warm from the dryer. Xie Lian’s thoughts moved slowly. His body still felt nice from earlier. His words were even less filtered than usual.

“Did I make you feel good, Laoshi?” Xie Lian needed to know.

“Very good,” Jun Laoshi assured, “but, do you remember what I said about not telling anyone?”

Xie Lian remembered, “Keep it a secret so others don’t get jealous.” He had never told anyone, so why was Jun Laoshi bringing it up now?

“That’s right, but your classmates aren’t the only ones who could get jealous. If you do something like this with anyone else, I’ll get jealous too, and then I won’t want to do this anymore.”

There was an edge of a threat in those words, but Xie Lian didn’t register it. The thought of doing this with anyone else had never crossed his mind.

His reply was automatic, but sincere, “I don’t want anyone else.”

“Good.”

Once Xie Lian was dressed, he returned to his own room and crawled into bed. Just before he drifted back to sleep, he wondered if it would ever be possible to spend the night with Jun Laoshi. With all the rules…probably not.

About a week later, Xie Lian was lying in his own bed. He wanted to feel good again, but he was feeling curious. Jun Laoshi had said to come to him whenever Xie Lian needed. Meanwhile, Jun Laoshi had been taking care of his needs by himself. Xie Lian knew he could go visit him, but he wanted to try doing the same thing Jun Laoshi had done.

Xie Lian stripped off his clothing. His body was changing, but it still looked quite different than Jun Laoshi’s. He could wrap his hand around his shaft easily. He moved his hand up and down, slowly, curiously. A soft sigh slipped out as he continued to move his hand. It was nice, but…Jun Laoshi would do it so much better.

Just the thought of Jun Laoshi’s hands on him sent a shiver of pleasure through Xie Lian’s body. Xie Lian didn’t have the focus to create any sort of fantasy in his mind. He simply envisioned Jun Laoshi’s hands touching him, Jun Laoshi’s mouth on him, Jun Laoshi’s fingers in his mouth, Jun Laoshi, Jun Laoshi.

Xie Lian covered his mouth with his other hand to muffle his cries for his Laoshi. A few minutes later, his release spilled out. Xie Lian stared at the mess with curiosity. He trailed a finger through it and brought it to his lips.

It tasted about the same as Jun Laoshi’s come, which was…still kind of gross. Xie Lian had always been a picky eater though. Maybe it would help if he got used to the taste. Xie Lian ran his fingers through his come and licked them clean until the mess was gone. 

Feeling satisfied, Xie Lian redressed himself and went to sleep for the night. However, the next morning, he wanted to feel good again. Whenever he visited Jun Laoshi, he always felt satisfied for a few days at least. Xie Lian immediately decided he would visit Jun Laoshi tonight. Unfortunately, today was Saturday, which meant he didn’t have his regular classes to distract him for most of the day, and curfew was an hour later!

The hours passed by impossibly slowly. Xie Lian studied, played a game with some of the other boys in the recreation room, and called his mother with one of the school phones. By the time he got off the phone with his mother, it was only lunchtime.

After lunch, a group of boys invited Xie Lian to play basketball. That was the only part of the day that didn’t feel like forever. When the game finished, Xie Lian took a long shower, studied some more, then read a book. Finally, it was curfew. He waited for a few minutes, just to make sure everyone else had returned to their rooms for the night. When he couldn’t take it any longer, he went to Jun Laoshi’s room.

When Xie Lian stepped inside, Jun Laoshi was standing in the kitchen, holding a steaming cup of tea.

“Ah, Xie Lian. How was your day?” Jun Laoshi asked, leisurely.

Although Xie Lian wanted much more than polite small talk, he was greedy for any form of attention from Jun Laoshi.

“It was okay. How was yours?” 

Jun Laoshi sat on the couch and took a sip of his tea before answering, “Good. Did you do anything interesting today?”

Xie Lian mentioned playing a few games with some other boys in the dorm, missing the way Jun Laoshi’s eyes narrowed slightly.

“Anything else?”

The rest of Xie Lian’s day was pretty ordinary, so Xie Lian was about to shake his head. Then, Xie Lian remembered that he came here for a specific reason.

“Not today, but…last night, I tried to…” Xie Lian steeled his nerves and confessed, “touch myself like you were doing last time.”

Jun Laoshi took a sip of his tea, then asked, “And how did it feel?”

“It was good, but…it’s much better when it’s with you,” Xie Lian admitted.

“That’s normal. Do you want me to help you right now?” Jun Laoshi offered.

“Yes, please, Laoshi,” Xie Lian tried not to whine.

Jun Laoshi smiled at the immediate answer, “Go ahead and take off your clothes for me then.”

Xie Lian quickly tossed his clothing aside, hyper aware of Jun Laoshi’s eyes on him, even as he sipped his tea. Once Xie Lian was naked, Jun Laoshi abandoned his cup on the coffee table. Then, his length was engulfed in Jun Laoshi’s mouth.

Xie Lian jolted at the sensation. Jun Laoshi’s mouth was so much hotter than usual, warmed by the steaming cup of tea. It was almost too hot, but it was so good. Xie Lian writhed under the overwhelming feeling. Broken cries of ‘Laoshi’ fell from his lips.

Jun Laoshi’s hot tongue was pressed against the entirety of his length. Every swirl and stroke made Xie Lian feel like he was losing his mind. Soon, the feeling was too much. It was like something inside him was being pulled tighter and tighter until it snapped. His come filled Jun Laoshi’s mouth.

Xie Lian was pleasantly satisfied now, but…what about Jun Laoshi? Until his visit last week, Xie Lian had never actually thought about Jun Laoshi’s needs. Jun Laoshi had said they were ‘grown up needs’, so didn’t that mean Jun Laoshi had them too?

“Laoshi…I want to make you come too…”

Xie Lian didn’t know when Jun Laoshi had picked up the teacup, but after he spoke, the cup was dropped back onto the table so heavily that Xie Lian wondered if it cracked.

When Jun Laoshi didn’t reply, Xie Lian wondered if he should have been more polite, so he added, “Please, Laoshi…”

“Fuck …you don’t even know what you do to me, do you?” The words were so muddled under Jun Laoshi’s breath that Xie Lian missed most of them. Still, Jun Laoshi loosened his belt and unbuttoned his pants, so whatever he said must have been positive.

Xie Lian dropped to his knees eagerly, not even waiting to let Jun Laoshi sit down. His movements were just as clumsy as the first time, but Xie Lian took note of every reaction Jun Laoshi made. If he flicked his tongue over the slit, Jun Laoshi would sigh. If he moved his hands a bit faster, Jun Laoshi would groan. But so far, the best reaction was any time Xie Lian gagged. It always earned him a whispered curse or a few words of sweet praise.

Xie Lian was trying his best, but his jaw was starting to ache and his hand was beginning to cramp. Last time, Jun Laoshi was already in the middle of satisfying himself, so, rationally, Xie Lian understood that it would take longer now. Yet he was still beginning to feel inadequate. The corners of Xie Lian’s eyes started to sting.

Jun Laoshi cupped the side of Xie Lian’s face. His thumb brushed away stray tears as they fell.

Jun Laoshi purred, “You’re doing so good.”

Xie Lian’s pains and fears were instantly erased.

“You’re always such a good boy for me.”

Xie Lian moaned, though the noise was muffled by the heavy weight against his tongue.

“Do you like that? Do you like when I praise you and tell you just how good you are?”

“Mmmmphh…” 

One of Jun Laoshi’s hands wrapped around Xie Lian’s own hand. He tightened Xie Lian’s grip just slightly and guided his hand a little faster.

“There, just like that,” Jun Laoshi murmured.

Xie Lian moved his hand like Jun Laoshi directed. He tried to match the pace with his mouth, but he went too far and gagged.

“Am I too big for you, Xie Lian?” there was almost a taunting edge to the words.

Jun Laoshi really was too big, but Xie Lian desperately wanted to prove that he could take it. He tried to relax his throat to take Jun Laoshi deeper into his mouth until he choked on it. Xie Lian’s body started to jerk backwards, involuntarily, but Jun Laoshi placed a hand on the back of his head, holding him in place.

“Fuck, Xie Lian… it feels so good when your throat squeezes around me like that.”

Xie Lian couldn’t breathe in this position, but if Jun Laoshi liked it, he could hold his breath for nearly a minute. 

Jun Laoshi didn’t actually hold him for much longer though. His grip loosened after only a few more seconds. He took his length into his own hand again. This time, he stroked it even faster. A few seconds later, something wet splattered onto Xie Lian’s face.

Xie Lian felt a stab of disappointment. He wanted to get used to the taste. He opened his mouth, tongue sticking out, so the next splurt could paint across his tongue. It was still bitter, but it really wasn’t that bad.

Jun Laoshi trailed his fingers through the mess on Xie Lian’s cheek. Before he could wipe his fingers off, Xie Lian took them into his mouth to lick them clean.

Jun Laoshi whispered faintly, “Don’t ever let anyone else see you like this.”

Xie Lian wasn’t sure if he was meant to hear that or not. Either way, he couldn’t imagine why anyone other than Jun Laoshi would ever see him like this.

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Xie Lian was a couple months into his third year at the boarding school. He was sitting cross-legged on the floor with papers scattered around him. It was the same dorm room he moved into his first year. He was glad it would be his room until he graduated because it was so close to Jun Laoshi’s room. 

Xie Lian tried to focus. He was supposed to be studying for his math exam. He worked through a few more practice problems. One of his hands kept drifting to the simple black chain around his right ankle, just to trace along the metal.

At the end of Xie Lian’s first year, Jun Laoshi had given him a simple, though undoubtedly expensive, black choker.

“If you get lonely over summer break, you can wear it and think of me.”

Xie Lian wore it every day over the summer, but when the school year started again, Xie Lian had to leave it at home. Accessories were against the school dress code. When he mentioned how much he missed wearing it every day, Jun Laoshi had gifted him a matching chain to wear around his ankle. No one else would see the black chain since it was always covered by his clothes. Well…unless he was with Jun Laoshi…

That thought made Xie Lian far too aware of the short distance between him and Jun Laoshi’s door, but he wouldn’t be able to visit for several more hours. He also really needed to focus on his math. With a sigh, he packed his belongings to go to the library. Maybe a change of setting would help him focus better.

Two hours later, Xie Lian felt like he had made significant progress. The library had much fewer distractions. At least it did, until a trio of boys sat down at the table next to him, huddled around a comic magazine that they probably weren’t supposed to have.

They glanced over at Xie Lian. One of the boys, Nie …something, whispered, “Xie Lian, you wanna see?”

Xie Lian suspected he was being invited so that he wouldn’t tell, not that he would have. Still, he was a little curious, and his brain needed a bit of a break from math. He slid over to the next table to see what was so interesting.

OH!

That was not a comic!

That was porn! That was very much against school rules and illegal! Xie Lian couldn’t even read the characters written on the side of the page, though he suspected that none of the other boys were reading anyway. The majority of the page was taken up by two men doing something that Xie Lian didn’t even know was an option.

One of the other boys leaned too close, lips nearly touching Xie Lian’s ear as he whispered, “Do you like this sort of thing?”

Xie Lian jerked away, uncomfortable with the sudden closeness. “I-I have to study!”

The librarian glanced over at Xie Lian’s outburst, but Xie Lian was already gathering his books and fleeing the library.

Back inside his room, Xie Lian had no hope of trying to focus on his math. He kept thinking of that image from the magazine.

Over the past two years, Xie Lian had picked up some new vocabulary, mostly from overhearing inappropriate conversations from boys like the ones in the library. He’d also learned that he could get quite the reaction from Jun Laoshi whenever he said filthy words so innocently.

Those two men were fucking. The one man’s cock was inside the other man, and from the expression on both of their faces, it looked like it felt really good.

Could Jun Laoshi do that to him?

Xie Lian’s pants were becoming uncomfortably tight as new possibilities ran through his mind. He was still smaller than Jun Laoshi, but he had grown these past two years.

Once it was finally curfew, Xie Lian was ready to rush over to Jun Laohsi’s room. Yet at the last moment, he hesitated. Could he really just ask for that? What would Jun Laoshi think? What if he asked how Xie Lian learned such a thing? Xie Lian tried to think of an acceptable story, but after 20 minutes, he gave up. Jun Laoshi would probably know if he lied anyway.

Xie Lian slipped into the hallway and walked the path he’d walked countless times. He visited Jun Laoshi more nights than he didn’t. A minute later, he stepped into Jun Laoshi’s room.

Jun Laoshi was reading on the couch. The moment Xie Lian entered, he slid a bookmark in between the pages and set it down on the table.

“You have a math test coming up, don’t you? Have you been having trouble focusing?”

It was a concern and an offer rolled into one.

Xie Lian didn’t reply just yet. Instead, he crawled into Jun Laoshi’s lap, resting his head on his shoulder. He’d sat here a number of times before, but he’d never considered…could they do it like this?

There was a little more concern in his voice when Jun Laoshi asked, “Something on your mind, Xie Lian?” 

Xie Lian tried his best to sound confident, though he wasn’t sure if he succeeded, “I learned something new, and I want to try it.”

Jun Laoshi’s arms tightened around him, squeezing the air out of his lungs. He growled into Xie Lian’s ear, “And how did you learn this something?”

The boys in Xie Lian’s class would call this possessive, but Xie Lian didn’t mind. He liked it, actually.

Xie Lian answered casually, “Some boys in the library had a magazine.”

“Give me their names.”

Other than the boy with the surname Nie, Xie Lian didn’t actually remember any of their names. Nie, whatever his first name was, was generally nice to Xie Lian though, so he didn’t want to get him in trouble.

“I don’t have any classes with them, so I don’t remember their names.”

However, if Xie Lian did remember the name of the boy who leaned too close, Xie Lian just might have shared it. That boy’s whispered question seemed much more like an invitation than friendly conversation, and Xie Lian was certain Jun Laoshi would be quite furious if he knew about it.

“What did you see?”

“Two men… fucking,” Xie Lian’s face flushed at the words, but his face was still buried in Jun Laoshi’s shoulder, so he couldn’t see him.

With only the thin layers of sleep pants and undergarments between them, Xie Lian could feel Jun Laoshi’s cock throb in response to his words. He rocked his hips against it.

Xie Lian forced aside any nerves and shame to whisper, “I want you inside me.”

Suddenly, Xie Lian was lifted into the air. A door was slammed shut, and Xie Lian’s back was on something soft. In all of Xie Lian’s visits, he’d never gone further than the couch. But now, Jun Laoshi had brought Xie Lian to his bedroom, to his bed. 

Jun Laoshi backed away to remove his shirt, so Xie Lian yanked his own off. Xie Lian expected Jun Laoshi would hover over him again, but instead, he lingered just out of reach.

“Xie Lian, are you sure this is what you want?”

Xie Lian’s reply was automatic, “Yes, please Laoshi, I want you.”

“Don’t you want to save yourself for someone special?”

The question didn’t make any sense to Xie Lian. Despite his confusion, Xie Lian’s reply was genuine, “Jun Laoshi is my most special person. I want you to have my everything.”

Jun Laoshi looked stunned for a moment, though Xie Lian couldn’t see how his response was really that surprising. A moment later, Jun Laoshi pulled off his pants and helped Xie Lian out of his own pants. He traced his fingers over Xie Lian’s clothed arousal before removing his underwear. 

Jun Laoshi rummaged through a drawer in the bedside table. When he came back, he was holding a clear bottle of shiny gel. Jun Laoshi noticed Xie Lian eyeing it curiously, so he explained, “It’s lube. You can’t get wet like a woman, so this makes it more comfortable.”

Xie Lian didn’t know that women got wet, but since neither of them were women, he decided that information wasn’t relevant. He focused his attention on watching Jun Laoshi pour the lube out onto his fingers.

“It might feel a little strange, but tell me if it hurts,” Jun Laoshi directed.

Xie Lian felt a flicker of hesitation. He didn’t know it could hurt. Nothing else has ever hurt. Xie Lian pushed down his sudden anxiety. If he seemed too nervous, Jun Laoshi might stop, and Xie Lian really didn’t want that.

Jun Laoshi’s slick fingers ghosted over his cock then moved lower. Xie Lian jolted slightly when they circled around his opening. 

A fingertip pressed inside. Xie Lian gasped as it sank deeper into him. The sensation was different, but it wasn’t bad. However, the idea that Jun Laoshi was inside him was enough to make him eager for more.

When Jun Laoshi slowly pulled his hand away, Xie Lian clenched, unintentionally.

Jun Laoshi murmured, “Let your body relax.”

Xie Lian took a deep breath and willed his body to relax.

“Good boy.”

Xie Lian’s cock twitched. It always did in response to those magic words.

Jun Laoshi moved his hand slowly. Xie Lian was growing more accustomed to the feeling, but he was also starting to get impatient.

Xie Lian whimpered, “Laoshi…more please…”

Xie Lian felt more pressure. It was slightly uncomfortable but not painful. With two fingers, Jun Laoshi was able to twist and stretch them. The implication behind the gesture sent another shiver of anticipation through Xie Lian. Jun Laoshi was stretching him open, so he could take his cock. 

Jun Laoshi’s fingers twisted again. Then, Xie Lian’s body jerked as an intense rush of pleasure coursed through him.

Xie Lian gasped, “Haaahh…wha…what was that?”

Jun Laoshi smirked and pressed his fingers into that spot again, “That?”

“Y-yeah…”

“It’s your prostate. Does it feel good?”

Xie Lian recognized the word from an anatomy book, but he had no idea it could feel like that.

Xie Lian whined when Jun Laoshi’s fingers moved away, “It’s good, more please…”

Jun Laoshi’s fingers kept twisting and thrusting. They would brush against that spot intermittently, sending a rush of pleasure every time. At some point, Xie Lian felt like he was being stretched even more. Jun Laoshi must have added another finger. The pleasure was becoming too intense. If this continued for much longer, Xie Lian would come before Jun Laoshi could fill him with more than just his fingers. 

Xie Lian was so overwhelmed he was nearly crying. “Laoshi, please, I want you, want your cock.”

Jun Laoshi pulled his fingers away, and Xie Lian mourned the sudden emptiness. 

Jun Laoshi poured more lube and spread it across his length. “You want this?”

“Yes, please, Laoshi. I need you,” Xie Lian begged.

Jun Laoshi gazed down at him affectionately. “You beg so nicely. You’re always such a good boy for me.”

The words made Xie Lian melt; they always did. He couldn’t imagine anything better than receiving Jun Laoshi’s praise.

Jun Laoshi rubbed the tip against Xie Lian, teasing him. Xie Lian needed it inside him. He arched his back and rocked his hips against it, trying to force it inside. Jun Laoshi must have taken pity on his desperation and finally pressed the tip inside.

As Jun Laoshi sank deeper into Xie Lian, he thought it ached a bit. He felt like he was being stretched too far. It almost hurt, but Xie Lian didn’t want to stop. 

Jun Laoshi let out a breathy sigh, “Even though I stretched you open, you’re still so tight.”

Once Jun Laoshi’s hips were flush against Xie Lian, he held still. Xie Lian willed his body to adjust to the new sensation. Suddenly, Jun Laoshi’s lips pressed against his own. 

Oh…this was Xie Lian’s first kiss.

Briefly, Xie Lian wondered if they had gotten the order of things wrong. Still, he didn’t mind, as long as all his firsts were with Jun Laoshi.

When Jun Laoshi broke away from the kiss, he asked, “How do you feel?”

“So full …feels good, Laoshi.”

Jun Laoshi slowly rocked his hips back before sinking in again. He kept his pace slow and gentle. It was incredibly good, but Xie Lian worried it might not be enough. When Xie Lian used his mouth, Jun Laoshi usually preferred it rougher and faster. Xie Lian felt like he had adjusted enough to take it.

“Laoshi, you can go faster if you want.”

With that request, Jun Laoshi’s pace increased dramatically. Xie Lian nearly screamed at the roughness. He dug his nails into Jun Laoshi’s back, clinging on desperately. 

Xie Lian wailed, “Laoshiiii!”

Despite the aggressive pace, Jun Laoshi’s voice was gentle as he cooed, “You’re such a good boy, taking my cock so well.”

Xie Lian whispered, breathless, “More…”

“You want it even harder?”

“No, wait yes, but I…”

“You want me to tell you how good you are?”

The gravely whisper made Xie Lian tremble. “Please,” he begged.

“You’re such a good boy for me, always so eager to make me feel good.”

Jun Laoshi angled his hips to graze against that perfect spot inside Xie Lian. The sensations combined with the words were almost too much. Xie Lian’s moans were starting to turn into sobs from the overwhelming intensity.

“You sound so lovely when you cry out for me.”

“Lahhh-ahh-aoshiii…I…”

“Are you going to come for me?”

Xie Lian couldn’t form the words to reply. His body convulsed as his release spilled out. A moment later, Jun Laoshi buried himself deeply inside. Xie Lian could feel his cock throbbing inside him. There was a rush of warmth filling his insides.

When Jun Laoshi’s cock slipped out, Xie Lian could feel his come leaking out of him. He forced himself not to whine even though he hated the feeling of emptiness and loss.

Jun Laoshi left the room and returned with a warm, damp towel. Xie Lian let his body lay limp as Jun Laoshi gently cleaned between his legs.

“How are you feeling, Xie Lian?”

“Mmm…good…”

Jun Laoshi set the towel aside and stroked Xie Lian’s hair. “It’s late. You should go back to your room and get some rest. You still have a test tomorrow.”

Xie Lian would normally return to his room whenever Jun Laoshi had told him to. Yet now, the thought of leaving so soon after having him so close, after having him inside him, filled Xie Lian with unexplainable dread.

Xie Lian’s voice was unusually small as he asked, “Just a little longer? Please?”

Xie Lian rarely asked for anything that wasn’t sexual, but whenever he did, Jun Laoshi always gave it.

With a soft sigh, Jun Laoshi relented, “Only for half an hour. You’re still a growing boy; you need your rest.”

Jun Laoshi held Xie Lian close. Xie Lian's distress faded away as he melted into the embrace. 

It wasn’t until later, when Xie Lian was lying in his own bed that Xie Lian thought about Jun Laoshi’s words. Anxiety suddenly gripped his chest and made it hard to breathe. Jun Laoshi was interested in him now, in his current state, but what about later? Would Jun Laoshi still want him when his body was done growing?

Xie Lian didn’t have the courage to ask about his fears until months later. When he finally did though, Jun Laoshi assured Xie Lian that he was interested in him, not his age.

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Xie Lian had graduated a few years ago. He had the grades and exam scores to attend almost any of the top universities. However, after his father became sick and unable to work, his family could no longer afford to send him to such a prestigious college, and so, Xie Lian decided against furthering his education.

When it was time for Xie Lian to graduate, he was prepared to move back in with his mother and father, but then, Jun Wu had invited Xie Lian to live with him. Jun Wu had accepted a position as a professor at a university. In addition to a significant increase in his salary, he was also able to work flexible hours and, most importantly, he was able to live off campus.

Jun Laoshi had enough income to let them live comfortably without Xie Lian needing to work, but Xie Lian quite enjoyed his job. To appease his parents, Xie Lian stretched the truth and told them he was an accountant for a small business. He actually just worked a part time job at a vintage furniture shop.

After working a few hours at the shop, Xie Lian returned home. He warmed up some leftover take out for lunch. After accidentally giving them food poisoning twice, Jun Wu had forbidden Xie Lian from cooking, which meant Jun Wu did most of the cooking. However, the past couple days, Jun Wu had been busy with work, so they’d been eating take out a little more than usual.

Xie Lian did a few chores around the house then decided to relax a bit. He sat down on the couch and flipped through a few channels on the TV. When he got to a news channel, a bold headline flashed across the screen: teacher fired for sexual relations with students.

Xie Lian turned the TV off.

As a child he was naive, but as an adult, he wasn’t stupid. He had realized that his relationship with Jun Wu was…not the most acceptable. It was legal, though recently such laws were being challenged. However, if their relationship was discovered when Xie Lian was still a student, it certainly would have ruined Jun Wu’s career and reputation. Then, everyone would have treated Xie Lian like…a victim. Xie Lian had never felt like one, though. Jun Wu had never done anything Xie Lian didn’t want. He didn’t mind if their relationship needed to be kept secret as long as he could stay with Jun Wu.

Xie Lian stretched out onto the couch. He didn’t get much sleep the previous night, so a nap sounded nice. Within minutes, his consciousness was lost to swirls of colors, sounds, and sensations.

Of the dreams Xie Lian could remember, Jun Wu was in almost all of them.

“Such a good boy, always so obedient for me.”

Xie Lian tried to call out to him, “Laoshi…”

Though Jun Wu was no longer his teacher, they both liked the title, even if its use was limited to behind closed doors.

Pleasure rolled through Xie Lian’s body in waves. It was too hazy to tell where he was being touched, but it didn’t matter. He knew Jun Wu was the one touching him; he was the only one who could make him feel good.

“Mmn…Laoshi…so good…”

“Are you having a nice dream?”

The voice was further away. Xie Lian tried to reach out, wanting to follow the voice.

Xie Lian blinked, slightly confused. He tried to rub the sleep from his eyes. Then, he felt Jun Wu pressing his palm against him. He was still fully dressed, but he was already unbearably hard.

Xie Lian whined, “Laoshi.”

“It’s quite lovely to come home to you sprawled out like this, hard and moaning for me, even in your sleep.”

Xie Lian’s brain still felt too sluggish from his nap. He didn’t want to take the time to think of a reply. He wrapped his arms around Jun Wu and pulled their mouths together. The kiss quickly became messy, tongues swirling and sliding together.

Xie Lian could taste coffee on Jun Wu’s breath. Quietly, he wondered if Jun Wu had a long day. He occasionally drank coffee in the morning, but he almost never drank it in the afternoon.

Their lips broke apart so they could toss their clothing aside.

Xie Lian ached with need. He was eager to have Jun Wu inside him. There was a bottle of lube just a few steps away, but when Jun Wu moved to grab it, Xie Lian stopped him. He seemed...tired.

Xie Lian knew if he suggested they rest, Jun Wu would refuse, so instead, “Laoshi, I want you in my mouth.”

Jun Wu would never refuse that. Jun Wu hovered over him, then flipped their positions. Xie Lian pressed one last kiss to his lips before moving downward. 

A small bead of precome had already formed at the tip. Xie Lian’s tongue darted out to taste it. He parted his lips wider, sucking the tip into his mouth and rolling his tongue over the slit. Jun Wu sighed softly as Xie Lian played with the tip a bit longer.

Xie Lian took Jun Wu deeper into his mouth. He could take it so much better now. He could relax his throat and take almost all of his cock into his mouth without gagging. However, just because he could, didn’t mean he always did. He was very familiar with what Jun Wu liked best, so he took only about half before gagging, acting as though it would be impossible to take more of his cock. He pulled away, panting, while his hand stroked the lower half of his shaft.

Jun Wu ran his fingers through Xie Lian’s hair. He’d been growing it out because he loved whenever Jun Wu was rougher with him, yanking him around by his hair. At the moment, his touch was gentle, but Xie Lian couldn’t complain. He loved Jun Wu’s gentle affection just as much as his intense aggression. 

Xie Lian took Jun Wu back into his mouth again. He gagged again, this time letting drool spill down to ease the glide of his hand. He moaned around Jun Wu’s cock just to hear him groan softly in response. Xie Lian took him deeper, until he couldn’t breathe. He stayed for a moment, letting his throat squeeze around Jun Wu’s cock. He backed away, desperate for air, but after only a couple ragged breaths, he lowered his mouth again.

The hand in Xie Lian’s hair tightened. It was a clear sign that Jun Wu was close. Xie Lian needed to feel his come spilling down the back of his throat. He let out a whine of anticipation. 

Jun Wu knew Xie Lian just as well, “Do you want my come that badly?”

All Xie Lian could do was make a muffled noise in response, but it was enough to get the message across. A minute later, Jun Wu’s release coated his tongue. Xie Lian drank it like an offering and only backed away after he was certain he’d swallowed every drop.

Xie Lian’s cock was aching from neglect, but he continued to ignore it. He crawled back up to rest his head on Jun Wu’s chest, listening to the rhythmic beating of his heart. From this alone, he could almost feel satisfied.

Jun Wu played with Xie Lian’s hair and murmured sweet words.

“You’re always such a good boy for me.”

This was everything.

Xie Lian couldn’t imagine wanting anything more from life. He knew that later tonight, Jun Wu would reduce him to a mess of tears and broken moans. He always loved it, but even that couldn’t compare to right here, being wrapped in Jun Wu’s embrace and praise.

This was Xie Lian’s favorite place.