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Gaara knows he doesn't have a demon inside him anymore, but it doesn't feel like it.
He feels something crawling under his skin, desperate to come out and take what it wants.
Immediately after getting shukaku removed and being brought back from the dead gaara acquired the ability to sleep, he could close his eyes and relax without the fear of the demon taking over.
It was easy the first few nights, his body and mind being tired from so much he had to live through for so many years.
But after some days the sleep wouldn't come as easily as it had at the beginning, and he found the extra effort unbearable. He decided that he was fine sleeping every other night, since his body rarely ran out of energy.
Then the dreams began.
He knew dreams were weird, even if in some culture they were highly analyzed because people believed they could predict the future or that they have a deeper meaning. Gaara didn't belive in such things, and he deemed dreams to be.... just weird.
He had dreamed about endless sky, about flowers that talked to him and about a snake devouring a deer.
Once he dreamed about his mother holding him warmly and he found it strangely reassuring.
The dreams he didn't like though, were the ones about firm masculine bodies, about strong hand holding him down and touching him in improper places.
He would wake up feeling hot all over, and shame will fill his being.
In a book about biology he found at the local library he red that those kind of dreams were normal during a certain period of his body development, but he was almost 19 now and he still tried to evade sleeping so he wouldn't wake up with sticky underwear.
He thought having a boyfriend would change things.
It didn't.
After years of pining over each other and letters that would sometimes be too personal to pass as democratic conversation Gaara and Rock Lee had decided to make their relationship formal.
After the day they kissed for the first time the bodies in Gaara's dream had a face.
It resulted that inviting Lee to spend a few months at Suna wasn't a good idea either.
Lee stayed at his own apartment, since having an unmarried couple living under the same roof would have been scandalous. Still Gaara would sneak into Lee room.
He didn't meant to fall asleep in his bed, but he was tired from avoiding to sleep for too many days in a row, and having Lee besides him was relaxing to him.
He has one of those dreams again. As he woke up he could feel his own arousal pushing into Lee's leg. Gaara tried to separate his body from his boyfriend's before he could notice what shameful things Gaara was doing unconscious, but strong arms where holding him by the waist pushing him to keep going. Just then did Gaara realized that Lee was also awake.
"You can keep going" the ninja from the leaf whispered in the darkness, voice deep with arousal.
Lee pushed against him so gaara could feel how he also was in the same state.
They began a frantic dance of pushing and pulling their clothed crotches together, Lee licked Gaara's lips, the latter moaned opening his mouth, allowing him to lick at his tongue in a wet kiss.
Gaara straddled Lee's leg searching for more friction. As the black haired man grabbed at the younger's firm buttock.
The room was filled with moans and panting. It didn't took long for both inexperienced men to reach orgasm.
After changing their clothes they sat side by side on the bed.
"You must think I am a pervert now" Gaara said quietly.
"What? Why would I think that?"
Lee laid one hand on Gaara's shoulder caressing the soft skin with his thumb.
"Because we did that, and I was dreaming of that and I... we... aren't supposed to do that, we aren't even married"
Lee couldn't help the little laugh that came out from his nose.
"I can assure you that you aren't a pervert becuase you want to have sexual interactions" a hand made it's way to Gaara's cheek holding him softly. "It is a very normal thing to want, I know that it can be different in Suna, but please don't fret about what people will say or think as they won't know, it's something private just between the two of us, like a secret between lovers"
"No one talked to me about this kind of thing before, the only thing I know was that it's supposed to be a shameful thing"
"Do you feel ashamed? Of what we did?"
"Not really"
"Then it's okay" he shrugged "as I said, it's something just between the two of us, we can talk about it, like this, if it clears your mind" Lee's hand found Gaara's on the bed. "Just know that I love you, and that I would never want to make you uncomfortable or ashamed in any way, and that I hope that our first time will be a very romantic occasion I promise I will make an outstanding plan for it"
Gaara smiled at his boyfriend and hid his face in his firm chest.
"I wanna go back to sleep now"
"As you wish my love" with a kiss on Gaara's forehead they laid again on the bed.
For the first time in a while gaara dreams about flowers, stars and Rock Lee's warm smile.