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“Go talk to him. It’s the only way to wash your emotions away.” April, the reporter of Channel 6, advise you.
“No!” Your eyes went wide “No, I won’t!”
“Then do you want to live with it stuck into you for the rest of your life?”
You lower your head, not knowing what kind of response you should give besides this not-desired possibility. April is right.
Since you met the brothers—three years ago—you have created a strong family bond with all of them, specially with the fearless leader in blue who your heart shines for. You knew that something within you is brougth to life every time Leonardo is around, and it is kind of torture because you literally fell in love with this terrapin.
But there’s a doubt haunting you: Is Leo with the same feelings about you? The objection behind it is almost invalid in your point of view. He is the leader of his group, known as being the only one who tries to keep his brothers in line, making decisions for each time they are out for patrol, dealing with the most heavy and difficult choices and moments throughout their adventures. And you… You are just a human as you always say.
You sigh, turning your eyes back at April “Ya know, I have no idea if he feels the same about me. I’m afraid of how he’d react from my declaration.”
April leaves her desk, and sits next to you on the sofa in the living room of her apartment. “Y/N…” she said softly, landing her slender hand on your shoulder “Soon or late he will know; but if I were you, I would go talk to him. He won’t figure it out alone”. You nodded, staring at the floor again with your mind lost in an ocean of thoughts and emotions. “Try, Y/N. Do not let it consume you; or it will get worse” the reporter rubs your shoulder and embrace you in a comfort hug.
“Would you like me to talk to him?” She offered herself.
“No! No… I must be prepare myself first.”
April let’s out a soft giggle “Okay. Take your time, sweetheart. Call me if you need help.” She smiled.
You let the comfort of her embrace take you completely as a help to try to kick out your anxiety, but your nervousness insists to stay. How would you say to the most respectable man that you’re in love with? How would he reacts? Will he treat you in a bad or good way? You knew he wouldn’t treat you like an idiot or something but even that you are not secure.
A few weeks has passed since April’s advice.
You and Casey Jones were called by Chief Vicent to attend a meeting at NYPD police station for a debate about Shredder after his sudden disappearance in the day that Technodrome has appeared in the sky. And for your surprise you’re not the only one who were invited.
Your mutant turtles best friends are there.
And speaking of them…
“Hey Casey and Y/N!” Mikey was the first one who came up to welcome you both as you enter in the police station. “Finally you’re here! Chief Vicent is waiting for you” the young brother pointed at up stairs of the building.
You and Casey went quickly to the second floor.
Arriving there, Mikey pointed at one of the several rooms throughout the large corridor. From outside you could see three shells facing the only door of the small space, and your eyes shone. In the middle of the three massive terrapins, a blue and well-written kanji with a pair of katanas.
“Y/N? Are you coming or…?” Casey called, noticing your behaving.
You froze, desperate about what you would do with that handsome man a few steps away from you—actually standing on the other side of the table.
Gulping, you walked behind Casey as you both enter the room.
“Good evening, Casey Jones.” the blond-haired woman nodded from the other side of the rectangular table, facing you both “And Y/N” she nodded again, sharing a polite smile. Other three pairs of eyes landed on you while you stand beside Casey “Hey, guys” Donnie waved with that cute grin he has. “Hey…” Raphael said with a neutral voice; and finally Leonardo who, as Chief Vicent, shares a nod and a smile.
Oh God, that smile makes your bones shiver.
“So what are the news, Chief?” Casey asked, leaning above the table to watch papers and pictures scattered above it.
“We got a prove that Shredder must be still alive” she continued “We have captured Karai who was with him in the day that Kraang has arrived on Earth for the first time, and has confessed that Shredder was teleported into Technodrome. It was the last time she has seen him” she finished, glancing quickly at Shredder’s picture on her right side and then looked up at everybody there present.
“Wait, wait…” The hot head turtle interferes “Last time? But how? Karai and Shredder used to work together all the time! Perhaps she is lying-”
“We don’t know, Raph.” The leader cuts his brother, then Mikey continued “Or maybe Shredder is working for Kraang.”, Donnie moved his body a bit to stand face-to-face with his brothers and continued “We do not know if all those suggestions are valid, but I fear what Mikey said. Shredder must be working for Kraang.”
Chief Vicent nodded positively, leaning above the table “I wouldn’t discard this possibility.”
The idea of Shredder working for Kraang freaks you out. Shredder is known for being dangerous, and Kraang is known for being deadly; and the two of them together is a nightmare.
After a few minutes of silence, Casey questioned “So, what are we gonna do now?”
“Wait. For now.” Chief Vicent responded, not breaking her eye contact with the Shredder’s picture beside her, and the room was filled with Raph’s indignation voice “Wait?! How much time of wait?!”
“Raph, more respect!” Leo punch his brother’s arm, murmuring and shaking his head in disapprove by his brother’s behaving.
You tried to not giggle by their brotherhood behaving.
“We don’t know…” Chief Vicent replied “but all we can do now is use what we have available to find Shredder; and Kraang. I’m highly doubt that Shredder isn’t on Earth. Maybe he was brought back by Kraang. As you said before, Donatello” she pointed “the atmosphere in Technodrome is toxic for those who have a normal cardiovascular system. Hardly Shredder would survive in that thing out there”.
“There’s an interesting point” Leo continued “But It’s been months since his disappearance and till now no one has seen him. For sure, if someone have, they would warn us.”
“Or they would help him” Raph participated one more time “We don’t know if someone is his follower.”
“You mean a new Shredder?” Mikey asked, surprised.
“I would freak out if it is true.” You said.
“Me too.” Chief Vicent agreed, sighing.
The worst nightmare of the boys is that another (or other) person ended up like Shredder. For sure someone out there have inspired themselves on that horrible assassin and perhaps will keep on doing his dirty work as a next generation of the Foot Clan. It must be happening in any city, state or country right now.
After two hours of debate, Chief Vicent has decided give a break, and then back to the reunion.
You are checking out your Pinterest in another small room of the building to spend some time. But your is mind busy thinking more about Leo than paying attention to the pics on your social media. You just scroll down, the pics passing through your phone screen quickly; then your mind focused in flashbacks of your conversation with April a few weeks ago.
You want to confess your love for Leonardo. You want to face him and say how much you love him.
But why are you feeling something negative inside you?
You sighed, without knowing what to do. Your eyes lift from the screen and scanned the small room around you. There’s a desk with a deactivated computer in the left and a cupboard on the right. Cupboard? Why is it here in a office? Maybe this room is used like a kitchen. And speaking of it… where’s the coffee machine and other stuff used by workers?
You shrugged, ignoring it and paying attention to your phone again.
“Y/N?” A familiar deep voice called from the door frame. You jumped and quickly looked up at the person.
Actually, at the turtle.
“Oh, hey Leo” you smiled, pretending you didn’t got scared by his sudden apparence. But he was giggling a bit “Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you” he came in, picking up a chair and sitting beside you.
Butterflies started to fly wildly in your belly.
“Come on, Y/N! Say something!” you thought. “So… How’s things going?”. “Really, Y/N?! Is it all you can say?!” You coursed at yourself.
Leo glanced at you and says confused “Um… Things are great. Thanks.” he smiled.
Now is the time. You have to tell! You want to tell! But you’re fucking afraid.
Your thoughts says to do not do it but your heart says yes. You took a deep breathe, rubbing your hands on your thighs nervously and finally looked up at him.
“Leo…” You called softly.
“Hm?” He looked back at you in the eyes. It seems that your heart will get out of your chest, and you could feel your cheeks burning.
“I…”.
He just tilted his head, waiting for your answer.
“I… am gonna take some coffee. W-Would you like some?” That’s it. You wanna punch yourself in the face.
He lift an eyebrow—at least you could see.
“Um… Yes, please”. He answered, still suspicious about why are you acting that way. You got up from the chair where you were and walked out of the room, but before you could leave, Leo grabs your arm and makes eye contact with you, worried “Are you okay?”
“Why? Yeah! Why wouldn’t I am?” You tried to act as normal as possible, but you couldn’t hide it from him. This man can notice if something is right or not. And you fear that. You don’t wanna mess your moment. You just want to relax with him, and not put more worry into him. Leo and his brothers are already dealing with Shredder’s disappearance which is shaking them inside out frenetically. And the last thing you want is bother him with your love.
“I’ll be right back.” You gently released from his massive hand and left the room, leaving him alone.
“Damn, Y/N! What’s wrong with you?” the whisper leaves your mouth and suddenly you bumped with another woman, hitting your shoulder with hers.
“Oh my God, I’m so sorry! Are you okay?”
“Oh, no. It’s okay” the red-haired waved, grinning “I must apologize, I was distracted”.
“Don’t worry, I was distracted too.” You giggled, then kept on your way to find a coffee machine which you have no idea where it is.
For sure your thoughts are torturing and preventing you by something you wish to do. You’ve been hiding your love for Leo for almost three years.
After ask a cob where to find a coffee machine you finally have found it in somewhere on the third floor of the police station.
“Okay, Y/N. You can do this” you whispered while you fill almost to the top two cups with the dark liquid. “You can do this. You can do this…” You continued to repeat, trying to fill you with courage.
“I’m ready. I can do this!”
Picking up the two cups with dark coffee youheaded back to the small room where the handsome man is waiting for you.
Stopping beside the door frame—you can’t see what is happening inside the small room—you took a deep breath and get yourself ready for the long-awaited moment of your life.
Smiling, you walked in.
And froze.
Leo was there, as you expected, but he was kissing the woman who you accidentally bumped early on your way to get the coffee.
Your heart broke like someone has ripped it out from you.
It seems that the world has fallen under you; your body falling into an precipice.
You prepared yourself for three years for nothing. All the worries, expectations, and hopes you used to have, all that moments you’ve spent practicing what you would say to your best friend, all the great moments you and him spent. Three years of your life were wasted.
Leo and the red-haired woman broke the kiss and directed their eyes on you, surprised. You have to admit that you saw a light blush covering on his cheeks.
“Oh, Y/N.” He said, smiling “Allow me to introduce you my girlfriend”.
You felt a knot forming in your throat.
“Y/N, this is Melissa. Melissa, this is my best friend, Y/N.” He used his hand to mention you and his girlfriend while introduce you both.
“Nice to meet you, Y/N.” Melissa waved.
“Nice to meet you, Melissa…” You shares a small smile, hiding your frustrating, and waved back.
You take a step forward to place the cup on the small desk next to you. Some drops of the dark liquid slipped out from the object “You should drink before it gets cold, Leonardo.” You simply said, trying so hard to not cry. The leader got surprised when you said his full name. It’s rare to you do it. Since you both got intimate—as best friends—you started to say his nickname as you do with the others. He doesn’t understand very well the reason of your sudden change.
“Um… Yes, I will”. He pronounced every single word slowly, tilting his head a bit as he looks at you. Melissa noticed your uncomfortable expression and asked worried “Are you okay, sweetheart?”
“No!” you screamed mentally. “Yes! I am. I gotta go. Sorry.” You whispered the last word, turning and heading out of the room, leaving the woman and your best friend together. Your eyes starts to get warm and a wet feeling of tears disturbs you completely; you refuse to cry in front of important and serious people from this place. So you forced your legs to walk fast towards the exit.
You were so distracted that you almost bumped Chief Vicent. You gasped.
“Hey, Y/N. We’re going to back to our reunion right now. Have you seen Leo? I can’t find him anywhere.” the blond-haired woman asked.
“He-*deep breath* He’s in that room.” You pointed at the door in the end of the corridor. C. Vicent lift an eyebrow, studying your facial expression.
“Are you okay, Y/N?”
“No, I’m not!” You gulped as see Chief Vicent’s eyes going wide by your anger, then you immediately completed, “I’m not feeling good…”
But before Chief Vicent had a chance to talk to you, you lower your head and ran away, the knot in your throat and the pain in your heart growing up wildly.
You couldn’t stay in that building anymore, not with Leo there. Not with the news of his sudden dating with someone. All you want now is go home, lay down on your bed, bury your face into a pillow, and cry like there’s no tomorrow—well, actually there’s no tomorrow for you.
How much time Leonardo is dating? And why April didn’t tell you about it? Or any of his brothers? Do someone know about his dating? Or does he didn’t tell to anyone yet?
You don’t wanna know.
Actually you couldn’t blame him because he has no idea that you are in love with him.
And now you have to deal with a new reality.