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[9/27/16, 9:20:37 PM] Tsukishima Kei: It’s my eighteenth birthday today.
[9/27/16, 9:20:40 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I’m sure you already knew that.
[9/27/16, 9:20:46 PM] Tsukishima Kei: Thinking about how I’m going to be older than you one day is pretty weird.
[9/27/16, 9:20:49 PM] Tsukishima Kei: And sad.
[9/27/16, 9:20:53 PM] Tsukishima Kei: But I think it’s going to be okay.
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[11/17/16, 6:13:23 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Happy twentieth birthday.
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[12/03/16, 7:52:31 PM] Tsukishima Kei: Bokuto’s making plans to go back to school next year.
[12/03/16, 3:52:35 PM] Tsukishima Kei: And I think he’s back with Akaashi.
[12/03/16, 3:52:40 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I’m happy for him. I’m a little jealous, though.
[12/03/16, 3:52:43 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I bet you are too.
[12/03/16, 3:52:47 PM] Tsukishima Kei: Happy for him, that is.
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[12/20/16, 12:02:33 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Nekoma made it to nationals this year.
[12/20/16, 12:02:36 AM] Tsukishima Kei: And so did Karasuno.
[12/20/16, 12:02:42 AM] Tsukishima Kei: It was weird seeing them. Only a few of them even knew who you were.
[12/20/16, 12:02:49 AM] Tsukishima Kei: But they still said that stupid speech that you always gave before games.
[12/20/16, 12:02:53 AM] Tsukishima Kei: That was nice of them. I guess.
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[12/27/16, 9:52:23 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I graduated from high school today.
[12/27/16, 9:52:29 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I wish you were there to be at the ceremony.
[12/27/16, 9:52:34 PM] Tsukishima Kei: You probably got a better view from wherever you are than my parents did, though.
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[4/18/17, 11:29:47 PM] Tsukishima Kei: It’s been a year since you’ve left.
[4/18/17, 11:29:53 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I haven’t cried for a while, but I did cry today.
[4/18/17, 11:29:57 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I hope that’s okay.
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[4/21/17, 8:30:50 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I moved into my dorm today.
[4/21/17, 8:30:56 PM] Tsukishima Kei: It’s nice. I’m glad to be away from home.
[4/21/17, 8:31:03 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I’m starting to warm up to Tokyo already.
[4/21/17, 8:31:07 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I’ll make sure to come and visit when I get the chance.
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[12/23/20, 10:52:47 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I went to Bokuto’s graduation ceremony the other day.
[12/23/20, 10:52:52 AM] Tsukishima Kei: He’s really pulled himself together. I guess I’m a little proud of him.
[12/23/20, 10:52:59 AM] Tsukishima Kei: But I’d be lying if I said that it wasn’t a little depressing that you weren’t walking across the stage with him.
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[12/27/20, 3:52:19 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I graduated today.
[12/27/20, 3:52:24 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I don’t know what else to say.
[12/27/20, 3:52:27 PM] Tsukishima Kei: Other than that I still miss you.
[12/27/20, 3:52:30 PM] Tsukishima Kei: It only hurts sometimes now.
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[1/10/21, 9:50:17 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I just remembered that it was on your left cheek.
[1/10/21, 9:50:20 AM] Tsukishima Kei: That stupid dimple.
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[2/15/21, 7:10:43 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I forgot to tell you that I started working a few weeks ago.
[2/15/21, 7:10:47 AM] Tsukishima Kei: It’s a pretty boring job, so I’ll spare you the details.
[2/15/21, 7:10:51 AM] Tsukishima Kei: But one of my coworkers asked me out to lunch yesterday.
[2/15/21, 7:10:56 AM] Tsukishima Kei: And I didn’t even realize it was a date until he offered to pick up the tab.
[2/15/21, 7:11:04 AM] Tsukishima Kei: It was pretty embarrassing. I went on a date for the first time since you died and I didn’t even know it.
[2/15/21, 7:11:09 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I guess it wasn’t too bad. He’s a nice guy.
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[4/02/21, 2:04:07 AM] Tsukishima Kei: He doesn’t look like you. I don’t think I’ll ever find someone that looks like you—what with your hair and all.
[4/02/21, 2:04:12 AM] Tsukishima Kei: But he has that same, shit-eating grin that you always have on your face.
[4/02/21, 2:04:15 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Had on your face.*
[4/02/21, 2:04:21 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I’m not trying to replace you. I don’t think I am.
[4/02/21, 2:04:29 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Because I honestly don’t think that anyone else can give me that ridiculous feeling in my gut that you would give me, and it’s almost been five years.
[4/02/21, 2:04:33 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Either way, I still love you and all.
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[8/14/22, 12:52:57 AM] Tsukishima Kei: He’s only got one dimple too.
[8/14/22, 12:52:59 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Except his is on his right cheek.
[8/14/22, 12:53:04 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I think I’m in too deep.
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[1/20/23, 6:04:10 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I think I love him.
[1/20/23, 6:04:14 AM] Tsukishima Kei: It’s not like how I loved—and still love—you.
[1/20/23, 6:04:19 AM] Tsukishima Kei: He kisses me in the mornings like you used to, but he doesn’t call me ‘princess.’
[1/20/23, 6:04:22 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I hated it then, but now I miss it.
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[9/02/23, 11:50:07 PM] Tsukishima Kei: Bokuto and Akaashi got married today. Like anyone didn’t see that one coming.
[9/02/23, 11:50:11 PM] Tsukishima Kei: Bokuto asked me to be his best man, and at first I said no.
[9/02/23, 11:50:16 PM] Tsukishima Kei: Those kinds of formalities are stupid.
[9/02/23, 11:50:21 PM] Tsukishima Kei: Also, I knew that it should be you standing up there with him, not me.
[9/02/23, 11:50:25 PM] Tsukishima Kei: But that turned out to be the same reason why I said yes in the end.
[9/02/23, 11:50:29 PM] Tsukishima Kei: He looked so happy, Kuroo.
[9/02/23, 11:50:35 PM] Tsukishima Kei: And I couldn’t even find it in myself to be jealous of him.
[9/02/23, 11:50:39 PM] Tsukishima Kei: I was just happy.
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[6/13/24, 5:24:16 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I’m sorry I haven’t gotten around to mesaging you.
[6/13/24, 5:24:19 AM] Tsukishima Kei: It’s been a year, I know.
[6/13/24, 5:24:24 AM] Tsukishima Kei: That coworker I told you about a long time ago asked me to marry him, and I said maybe.
[6/13/24, 5:24:32 AM] Tsukishima Kei: But he kept asking, like I know you would have, and after the hundredth time I just caved and said yes.
[6/13/24, 5:24:35 AM] Tsukishima Kei: So I’ve been spending a lot of time getting settled.
[6/13/24, 5:24:38 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I still miss you, and I still love you.
[6/13/24, 5:24:43 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Even if you suck and left without me.
[6/13/24, 5:24:48 AM] Tsukishima Kei: But now I think it’s my turn to leave.
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[4/18/39, 11:54:52 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I went to visit your grave today for the first time in a few months.
[4/18/39, 11:54:55 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Bokuto was there, and Akaashi was too.
[4/18/39, 11:54:59 AM] Tsukishima Kei: So was the moon, and so were the fireflies.
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[9/05/52, 9:16:12 AM] Tsukishima Kei: This message has been removed.
[9/05/52, 9:16:19 AM] Tsukishima Kei: This message has been removed.
[9/05/52, 9:16:23 AM] Tsukishima Kei: This message has been removed.
[9/05/52, 9:32:17 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I’ll see you soon.