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It only started to sink in after the two finally pulled apart from each other. Oh fuck. What had Rui done? No. He couldn’t have fallen for Tsukasa. He was supposed to kidnap him, forget about everything and live a happy life. He didn’t come there to form a literal relationship with Japan’s no.1 idol. Unexpected tears fell from Rui’s face, knowing that he had already failed his WebSpace task, forcing out the sizzling sensation of his first kiss immediately. He stumbled back in disbelief.
“Rui?” A figure blurry amidst tears called with a voice strained with concern.
Rui squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head, as if trying to erase the memory of Tsukasa.
“No!” he blurted out. “I can’t do this!” What the hell was he doing?
Rui’s heart is throbbing with pain, anguish and most importantly, guilt. He wanted to run away as fast as he could, but his legs felt like cold, hard stone. He seriously wanted to turn back time. There was so much he regretted. Rui had regretted everything, from getting so attached to Tsukasa to even accepting the WebSpace request in the first place. He wished to turn back time to fix everything that he fucked up so badly, but Rui wasn’t a god or somebody with superpowers-just a hopeless human. The only thing he was capable of endlessly sobbing with an excruciating pain throbbing in his chest.
Rui’s angry storm of emotions was met with a warm hug. It squeezed him tight, trying to push all the bad feelings away. His violent stream of tears started slowing down and he was finally able to face Tsukasa. The idol didn’t wear a face of annoyance or disgust like most other people when he let out his emotions. Instead, it was a bright and charming face of genuinity as if to tell if everything was going to be just fine.
“Rui. It’s okay. I know that this all happened way too quickly, but I believe that we can slow down, or if you like, we could even take a break.”
“I wanted to be with you, Tsukasa-kun! You were the only one I could trust with my emotions, the only one that could understand and make me feel less awkward about voicing my feelings! But I just can’t! If you knew what kind of monster I truly was, you would…” Rui struggled towards the end, knowing that there was no way he could reveal his true intentions, as much as he wanted to tell Tsukasa everything.
His words only made Tsukasa squeezed him tighter. “ I don’t care. I don’t give a fuck if you’re hiding things or ashamed of showing me your true self. I love you and I want to be with you.”
Rui’s crushing anguish slowly melted away as he finally smiled and snuggled into Tsukasa’s arms.
“Hehe. I love your hugs, Tsukasa-kun.”
“Thanks.” Tsukasa giggled as he began stroking Rui’s purple hair, combing through the soft strands with his fingers.
Rui hummed with delight as his boyfriend’s warm fingers brushed onto his skin as they stood under the dazzling streetlights, hung up in their intimate moment.
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Some time later, the couple found themselves back in Tsukasa’s apartment, with Tsukasa being so exhausted that he passed out in bed immediately. Rui watched the blonde’s eyelids flutter shut and drift into a deep sleep for a suspicious amount of time at his soft and comfortable position before jumping in bed with him after much debate. He pressed himself against the idol’s warm body and looked deeply into Tsukasa’s adorable face with love as he fell asleep next to his lover.
By the time Rui had woken up, he could see sunlight pouring from the curtains piercing into his vision and the crisp breeze of a new day. And for just a few seconds, everything seemed blissful. Something about the morning felt so peaceful and tranquil, like feeling the warm sun after a miserable winter. But something about it told Rui that it wasn’t a regular Sunday morning. Then it began to settle in. Tsukasa. This wasn’t Rui’s assigned apartment, but his client, and more importantly, his target. Seeing Tsukasa, looking so cozy snuggled up under the bedsheets made the memories of last night flood back. The performance, the conversation, the kiss. And now he was sleeping with Tsukasa?
Just as Rui was beginning to seriously beat himself up for being so reckless with such an important task, he started to hear the sound of bedsheets rustling.
“Mmm.. Rui?”
“Uhh… Morning.” Rui tried his best to sound enthusiastic to see Tsukasa’s face.
“Hehe. Do you remember what happened last night? That made me really happy. Which made me wonder if I’m romantically attracted to you”
The second the words escaped Tsukasa’s lips, it suddenly hit Rui like a truck. Things got out of control the night before, and they ended up kissing. And he had slept with Tsukasa, when he was simply supposed to be his target, his stepping stone to a better life. But he had already completely blown it, growing close to him. It didn’t even need to be said. This was a confession, and whether or not Rui decided whether to accept that he liked Tsukasa back. Now, he was left with confusion buzzing around like wild bees inside his head. What did Tsukasa even mean to him? Would their relationship grow into something romantic, or would there be an awkward tension between them that remained. More importantly, what was Rui doing to do, now that they did all of that? Was he going to try and move on and go through with the rest of the plan, manipulating Tsukasa into falling into the trap he had laid? But deep down, Rui already knew that it was far too late for that.
As if Tsukasa felt Rui’s uneasiness, he gave him a smile, the same one that made a strange warmth creep up his face. “You don’t have to decide on it now. Take your time.”
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Later that day, Tsukasa was at practice again, once again leaving Rui outside the studio to wait for him. After a ridiculous amount of hesitation, Rui finally decided that he didn’t want to hide it any more.
Direct Messages with DarkWay
CyberBoy: Hey, I need to tell u something. And it’s going to affect our mission. My relationship with Tsukasa has been complicated. The more time I spent with him, the more these feelings grew, all up until it all burst like a balloon last night, and we ended up kissing.
Rui stared blankly at his message, his body beginning to tense up as he saw the three dots appear at the bottom of his screen.
DarkWay: Meet me at our spot. Let’s discuss this matter in person.
Fuck. Nene was definitely pissed.
Rui looked at the time on his phone. 9:40 pm. Tsukasa’s practice ended at 12:00. That was plenty of time he had to spare, so Rui just let him know through text before he left.